𝓲𝓰: 𝔁𝓾𝔁____._𝓻𝔂𝓾₊˚⊹♡ ໒꒰ྀིっ˕ -｡꒱ྀི১
i was severely depressed then i started blasting POP IN 2 from oshi no ko and damn i feel like the cutest girl in whole world with no reason to be depressed
✨✨THERE IS NO REASON TO BE SAD IF YOU’RE THE CUTEST GIRL IN THR WORD HIGH ON MYSLEE ✨✨
so alone.
i want someone to hold at night.
i want to sleep on their chest while their arm is around me.
i’m going to cry…
Where did you get your profile picture?!
It’s so cute and I really like it
thanks anon! i think it’s cute too! (*´ω`*)
anyway, originally it’s a picrew: https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/1919912
then my friend yua (@/_.uoxqu_ on instagram, she doesn’t have tumblr unfortunately) drew over it to make it cuter and more similar to me! ♪
i recommend following yua on instagram, she’s adorable, has amazing outfits and beautiful pictures ♡
semi-hypomanic moment in the midst of my mixed episode won’t let me sleep just because my brain is hyper fixated on a stupid ps2 game: a tale by me
𝓲𝓰: 𝔁𝓾𝔁____._𝓻𝔂𝓾₊˚⊹♡ ໒꒰ྀིっ˕ -｡꒱ྀི১
𝓲𝓰: 𝔁𝓾𝔁____._𝓻𝔂𝓾₊˚⊹♡ ໒꒰ྀིっ˕ -｡꒱ྀི১
𝓲𝓰: 𝔁𝓾𝔁____._𝓻𝔂𝓾₊˚⊹♡ ໒꒰ྀིっ˕ -｡꒱ྀི১
whew, among all the things that have happened to me, the icing on the cake was starting to hear voices….
it's strange if i tell you that i almost missed them?
it's a long story for me, and it's very personal.
but it's six in the morning and my head is swirling with thoughts that won't stop, even though i've taken my sedative. but it doesn't matter.
and now it's really time to go to sleep.
this morning i will rest peacefully. ♡
Ashen! You're back (≧▽≦)
yep i’m here (^з^) 〜♡
i increased the dosage of my antidepressant and was doing well for a while, but now some stupid things have thrown me into a ridiculous depressive confusion.
nothing is helping at the moment, but at least i managed to take some photos here for tumblr and for instagram, thanks to the help of a dear friend.
i think i'll post more to write a bit about how i feel. maybe it will do me some good. 〜
𝓲𝓰: 𝔁𝓾𝔁____._𝓻𝔂𝓾₊˚⊹♡ ໒꒰ྀིっ˕ -｡꒱ྀི১
so much jirai discourse lately. you know what i think?
wear what you want, nobody can police you on your clothes at the end of the day.
but be mindful that you are simply wearing a fashion without necessarily engaging with the underlying experiences that define the whole subculture for many.
that’s why it can seem disrespectful to set rules or redefine aspects of the subculture when you’re a newcomer and primarily engaging with it on a superficial level.
you know what i find very contradictory about myself?
i want to live in an imaginary world where everything is in order, cute, and clean
and yet, i struggle to do even the most basic things. i find it hard to keep my room clean, cute, and organized because the mess in my head is reflected in the mess in the spaces i live in.
so, just as there is chaos in my head, there is chaos in my room
i hate this so much
𝓲𝓰: 𝔁𝓾𝔁____._𝓻𝔂𝓾₊˚⊹♡ ໒꒰ྀིっ˕ -｡꒱ྀི১
wow being on a high dose of antidepressants during spring is the sweetest feeling in the whole world! ☆♪
the earth is shining with new possibilities and everything feels like a hug… i’m so happy to be here experiencing existence and i love myself so much . ♡
