🕷️Kenva🕷️

this is exactly how i feel.

i view life as an art ༺💜༻

Amen.

nobody's coming for me

31. defeat

Can we talk more about the transitional phase between normie and alternative? Because we all did some corny shiz back then. Very poser behavior. And I think we all need to talk about it. Cleanse our souls.

I feel like the "I call myself emo but I don't even understand what that means" starter pack is a tattoo choker, a pair of black plain cross earrings and a band tee for a wildly popular rock band that isn't even really emo like AC/DC or Misfits or something. Or that Nirvana t-shirt, you know the one I'm talking about. If I see that shirt one more time, I'm gonna puke.

It's like you looked around Walmart for anything at all black so you could fit in with the edgy kids at school. It's like those "emo transformation" TikToks but... but this isn't a game to you, this is normal Tuesday behavior. Who is three or four years deep into alt culture and still wearing this outfit? Cuz I wore this outfit when I was probably thirteen... for about a year... never again. Also had a leather jacket that you could not peel off my body. I ran that thing into the ground.

Don't even get me started on how we all labeled everything "emo" that clearly was not- especially music. Who was gonna tell us emo was not a synonym for edgy and sad?

Anyways, I ended up donating those cross earrings to a nearby blossoming baby bat and burned the tattoo chokers a LOOONG time ago. They no longer have power over me. I'm a free woman.

Got any funny baby bat/puppy punk/poser days stories or thoughts? I need this.

My first battle vest was an ugly ass mishmash of completely opposing bands (I had Mountain Goats, Trivium, and Acid Bath at the same time for reference lol). Totally incohesive, no color scheme or theme, bright blue denim. Random enamel pins and poorly placed safety pins and a random painted spider web on the collar. Even my gf at the time, who initially inspired me to make the damn thing, mocked it endlessly. Should have been a red flag come to think of it. My current WIP looks way better.

(Also I made that Acid Bath patch with various colored permanent markers on white fabric and that shit melted in the rain after two days.)

Another story with my first try at patch pants. Made the mistake of using an old pair of McDonald's employee pants as patch material. Some of the most uncomfortable shit I've ever worn.

Gonna be honest, my current crust/battle jacket is much the same as what you just described. Not in design; my jacket has a much more streamlined and put together look than most others I've seen. But it's absolutely an atrocious band mishmash, no doubt about it, and I designed it that way. Since I have a place in my heart for each subculture, I wanted my jacket to reflect that. My goal making that crust item wasn't to make something as punk or metal as possible, it was to make something authentic to myself.

Your battle jacket is an art piece and reflection of yourself in addition to a statement. It's a shred of identity. Thus, I have a rapper on the bottom hem of my rocker jacket. He saved my life years ago. He's part of my history. Is he punk? No. Is there a piece of me in his symbol? Absolutely. Also on the jacket is the band that introduced me to metal and the band that introduced me to rock in general. Right alongside an emo artist group that has helped me fight my addiction. I wanted my jacket to be more than a political conversation piece. I wanted it to tell my story.

However messy and embarrassing, I'm sure your old jacket tells a great story. And I'm also sure your wip is gonna turn out amazing!

💜How am I supposed to hug her if she’s so spiky❤️

New spider friend joining soon!

(Ash belongs to @artofkhaos404 !)

My Spiderverse masterpost

This reminds me... there was one time I met @purplebehittindifferent at a rock convention to hang out. I was wearing one of my spiked vests, obviously, because rock convention. Purple legit CRAWLS OUT HER CAR WINDOW to come see me AND ONCE SHE GETS TO ME stops dead in her tracks with a look of such sadness and disappointment. She was like "I-I can't hug you! You're pokey!"

I opened up my jacket so she wouldn't get spiked and she got SO excited and threw her arms around me. I still think about that sometimes, cutest thing🤣

Get you guys some lovely normie friends to complain about how pokey you are.

My life has been a blur recently, but in like a good way? Like in a way that I'm able to just focus on the present with my friends and having the future all worked out for myself.

Things are still hard but I'm getting better.

More random little drawings!

That mohawk😍😍😍

REBLOG if you have amazing talented artist friends!

@prunpplee @purplebehittindifferent @funnyartthingz @foxtale-the-novisolant @betadeku @oncealoseralwaysaloser

Random dump of art while I was away

"Plants will grow on the ashes of capitalism"

Seen in a public bathroom in La Roche-Sur-Yon, France