what if taehyung did a cover of hozier haha just kidding.....unless.....
me waking up: I hope namjoon is happy
me eating: i hope namjoon is happy
me studying: i hope namjoon is happy
me trying to sleep: i hope namjoon is happy
*during sex*
me: hurt me
them: you'll never be friends with namjoon
me: what-
them: you will never have deep conversations with him about life
me: please stop
No More // Min Yoongi
Summary: You and Yoongi relationship as always been strong. You both have been through thick and thin. However, the stress of not seeing him for long periods has made you reach your breaking point...
Min Yoongi x Reader
Angst, Drabble
Words: 1,854
Warning: Swear words!
A/N; Hey everyone! I was feeling a bit low and thought it would be a good idea to vent out my feelings writing. I hope you enjoy this drabble!
There was no denying it anymore. You had reached your breaking point. You knew you couldn’t go on like this. No matter how hard you tried to convince yourself, it was too unbearable. you were no longer happy.
You closed your suitcase stuffed with your belongings. While it appeared a simple task, your heart ached. You and his bedroom look almost empty. You had placed only one picture of him in your suitcase. Min Yoongi was not going to be a part of your life anymore.
You knew it wasn’t his fault. Yoongi wouldn’t have done anything to make you upset. It was his job. Months at a time you would be alone in the apartment. While he made a commitment to call you every night it wasn’t fulfilling enough. Due to time zones, you would be awake at 4am waiting for his call, desperate to hear his deep voice. The sound of your phone ringing always made your heart leap with relief.
"I miss you so much ____" he would whisper into the phone. You would say it back quieter as it almost felt painful to say.
When he would get back, you would be waiting at the airport to see him arrive back. When you both finally make eye contact after one or two months you couldn’t help but smile. He would grin back like an idiot then proceed to run to you and hug you. In those moments nothing else existed, just you and him. When you both drove back home, your hand would be intertwined with his. His thumb would always trace around the skin of your hand. A small detail but one you treasured. At home, you both would collapse on the couch. Your legs would lace with his and his head rested next to yours. Here, you two would lay for hours watching whatever was on TV. You knew he was exhausted and you respected that. During these times, he would always be affectionate. There was never a time you both were together and not touching each other in some way. It was almost a way of making up for the times when both unable to physically be there with each other. You craved these moments.
On few occasions, he would decide you both needed to get out of the house. Going out would sometimes involve getting a coffee, going to the cinema or eating at a restaurant. His ever-growing fame restricted both of you going into public places. You didn't care however, as long as Yoongi was with you everything seemed perfect. As you both would walk hand in hand, he would always lean into you and whisper softly, "I'm completely in love with you ____." This words along with him gripping your hand tighter made all the worries vanish.
But your breaking point was reached. Pressure was building up in you like a volcano. Rumours were flying about your and his relationship. While he always told you to ignore what people write it was hard to overlook it. It had been too long since you last seen him. His daily phone calls turned into weekly phone calls then slowly resulting in a month without hearing from him. Endless nights spent crying resulted in your final decision. You knew there was no reason to continue the relationship you had with Yoongi.
You wanted to tell him in person. Not through a phone with terrible signal. When he texted you if you were picking him up at the airport and you responded with a plain "no" gave a darkening warning sign to Yoongi.
The sound of keys unlocking your apartment door pulled you out of your thoughts. Your heart had begun to sink down in your body.
"____?" Yoongi whispered releasing the silence that was in the apartment. Him only calling your name was tempting enough to change your mind. But you knew you had to stay firm to your decision.
You walked out of your kitchen and turned into the hall where the front door was located. As soon as his eyes meet yours, he knew what exactly was happening. His thoughts were confirmed true when his eyes travelled down to meet your suitcase. He gently placed his bag on the floor not daring to take his eyes off you. For a minute either of you didn't say a word. Both of you were processing what was happening. You swore to yourself if he said anything you would break down in tears.
"Was it me?" He questioned quietly.
You shook your head breaking eye contact with him. You couldn't look at his expression he had.
"You were everything I loved" You said looking down at your shoes, "It was me."
Yoongi's shoulders slouched down with dread. His mouth was opened but no sound came out of it.
"I will be staying at my friend’s apartment until I find another place to stay", you explained, "If I have something of yours that you want back just let-"
"I'm sorry" He said cutting you off.
You swallowed hard, "Yoongi, you did nothing wrong. There is no need to apologize."
"Yes I do" he says more louder. He steps towards you and before you could step away his hands were cupping yours.
"I'm the worst. I haven't been talking to you since I left. I haven't even made an effort. You've been left alone here constantly while I go and have the time of my life. You sit and wait for my stupid phone calls every night. I'm surrounded by my dreams while you sit and watch. Holy fuck ____, I can't even take my own girlfriend out on a date. I'm so sorry ____. Please forgive me!"
While he was spilling all his feelings out, you looked down at the ground. You couldn't face him. At that moment you didn't know what to do.
"Please _____" He pleaded gripping your hands tighter. "Look at me!" "____, I need you to see me."
Your tears were now appearing. You shook your head aggressively. His pleads kept hitting your heart. Before you could think, you realised you could hear him crying. Your eyes immediately shot up to him. His bloodshot eyes meet yours again. He cupped your face with his large hands so you couldn't look anywhere but at him.
"____ listen" he sniffled, "You have made me so happy. You are the only person in this world that has never failed to make me smile. I have never had any feelings like this for anyone before. Your voice can make my whole day. Don't you see what you do to me? You have taught me how I can fall in love. But now I don't think I fall in love with anyone else. Please don't ever think I took you and your love for granted _____."
You sobbed quietly. Just as you always did, your arms stretched around his waist and buried your face into his chest. His hand rested on the back of your head and one on the small of your back to pull you closer to him. Your sense of smell was more sensitive and you took in the scent of his cologne. It was as if your senses were aware this would be the last time you would be in his arms. You just wanted to stay like this.
"Nothing will change Yoongi" You pulled away from him. "I'm still leaving".
His body was frozen. His eyes transfixed on your face, looking for any hope. There was no point. You weren't backing down from your decision. It would benefit you and him.
You gripped your suitcase. You gave him one last look. Taking in every bit of detail of him. You leaned in and kissed him soft as ever on his lips.
"I'll always love you"
You nodded at his words. Your eyes just stared at the door and you went and gripped it open. Giving him one last glance, he stood staring at you. You smiled at him and shut the door gently. You had officially left your boyfriend.
That night your friend's spare bed seemed too big for only you. Everything has changed. Your tears soaked the pillow as you relived all your memories with him one last time.
Goodbye for now Min Yoongi...
Bringing back this video of Jungkook doing a double take of Jin's handsomeness
Low quality photos of a high quality man