2. What things make you feel like you’re at home, when home is defined as a feeling rather than a place?

Safety and privacy from the world when I need to hermit irl cause anxiety, enjoying good food, the feeling of being able to move at my own pace without being observed or judge, acceptance

 3. Do you ever wish you could be a certain fictional character? If so, which would you choose above all others?

Kusuriuri from Mononoke, he just seems so chill all the time and I could vibe with that.

4. If supernatural species were real, what species would you wish you were born as? (Could be literally any ever.)

A shapeshifter for sure, I’ve always loved the idea of being able to change my appearance at will.

6. What kind of stories do you most enjoy reading and/or writing?

A lot of dark angsty stuff (with maybe a -touch- of fluff just for spice) but mostly angst and exploring a lot of emotions. Love reading and writing cathartic stuff.

7. What attaches you to a character? What qualities/behaviors/tropes?

Definitely love character with Mysterious™ aesthetic, I’m definitely drawn to a lot of villain characters because I find their motivations interesting and love a good terrifying villain. White hair and red eyes is instant aaaaa yes. 

8. What is your favorite trope in a story?

The trope of a really hella evil character getting their just desserts

10. What are 5 of your favorite lyrics/poems/quotes/etc?

1- “There’s no one inside me, there’s no one that’s hiding, always been me, empty,  a body but nobody here to see” from the song Dramaturgy (the Jubi English cover)

2- “If I burn, you will see The fire in your mind when you sleep And if I rise up in smoke around your eyes You'll know it's me And the rain won't wash away The ashes underneath your nails today Doesn't matter where you go or what you do 'Cause if I burn, so will you” Emily Autumn, “If I Burn”

3- “Do you think this world is a save haven? Look closer, you'll find it Three floors down, and you'll disappear Blessed be the storytellers revenge” DAGames, “I Will Not Be Moved”

4-”Counting all the assholes in the room Well I'm definitely not alone, well I'm not alone” Volbeat, “Still Counting”

5- “'Cause me, I'm rusted and weathered Barely holding together I'm covered with skin that peels and It just won't heal” Creed, “Weathered”

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3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. 

“It meant that he had self-regenerative abilities. Perhaps he had just ac-”

4) What do you think about most? 

Probably stories and characters and just imagining scenarios in my head, that and a mix of work stuff and hhhh coffee.

6) Do you have any strange phobias? 

I used to have a massive phobia of dentists but kinda forced myself to get through it solely because of the amount of work I’ve needed done over my life. Idk if that counts as strange though. In the realm of more strange I’d say I have a phobia of the concept of falling in a sinkhole/having a sinkhole open up under me, and getting trapped/lost while spelunking in an underground water cavern even though I’ve never scuba dived in my life.

13) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength? 

My greatest weakness would be a mix of my anxiety and procrastination, my greatest strength is that no matter how bad stuff gets I push through cause I know it can’t stay bad forever.

14) Who is your celebrity crush?  

Sir Patrick Stuart, I could listen to him talk allll day.

18) What's a sound you hate; sound you love? 

Sound I hate: The sound when a fork scrapes against a plate too harshly and does that high pitched grindy noise.

Sound I love: Whispered asmr XD it's really soothing and oddly helps me concentrate

20) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens? 

Ghosts I’m kinda in the middle ground on cause there are definitely unexplained phenomena but I’m not settled on whether it’s ghosts or weird temporal shit going on. Aliens definitely believe in, as massive as the universe is I can’t believe no other planet has formed life. Now whether that life is capable of faster than light travel to come to earth I can’t say.

23) What's the worst place you have ever been to? 

The nursing home my father was in when he was dying when I was a little kid. I don't remember much cause my brain noped on most of those memories but I remember the smell and coldness and my dad being in a coma.

24) Most attractive singer/s of your opposite gender? 

First one that comes to mind is Klaha from Malice Mizer, the lead singer from Poets of the Fall whose name I’m totally blanking on, Steven Tyler in that weird kinda ugly-hot way lmao, and the lead singer of Gemini Syndrome whose name I’m also blanking on XD

30) Ever had a rumor spread about you? 

Yeah, in 4th grade. I had told my classmates I was diagnosed with adhd and a girl in my class starting telling everyone I had aids. (Fortunately it was fairly swiftly dispelled by my teacher)

42) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid? 

I think I’d tell everyone so they weren’t caught off guard when it happened. With my remaining days I’d try to see the places I’ve always wanted to see but haven’t been able to, Japan and Scotland mainly. I don’t think I’d be afraid of dying so much as the suffering leading up to death.

43) What's a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? 

Kujikenaikara from the Slayers anime. It just gets me bouncing and hype.

46) Can insanity bring on more creativity? 

I think so. I channel a lot of my intrusive thoughts into writing which helps (and also gives me some vivid dark ideas).

48) What would you want to be written on your tombstone? 

The lyric from Remember we Die by Gemini Syndrome: “Remember we die, but you’re still alive so don’t let go”

52) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be? 

My old boss at the naturopathic store I used to work at. I’ve met few people as sour and vindictive as her. (She died a couple years after I left though despite constantly shitting anyone who got even slightly sick and bragging about how healthy she was), either that or my mother’s molester. Would blow him up in a heartbeat with no remorse.

54) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power? 

The power to predict the future, mainly so I could win the lottery, take care of my family and friends and help as many people as I could with my winnings. (Either that or shapeshifting)

57) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be? 

Probably the lead from Gemini Syndrome cause aaaaaa 

5. What is something you're proud of?

My daughter most of all, as far as personal things I'm proud of about myself is my spray paint art cause I'm pseudo-self taught.

16. What's your favorite instrument?

Alto Sax, I was trying to teach myself to play but had to pawn my sax and couldn't play it much cause I didn't wanna piss off my apartment neighbors but I fully intend to get another now that I'm in a house.

18. What's a topic you wish you knew more about?

I'd probably say CB radio, hubby is big into it but I'm still hella noob with it.

25. Name three songs that stir up the deepest emotions.

Hhhhfhf gosh so hard to choose!

My Dream is but a Drop of Fuel for a Nightmare by Sonata Arctica

Save Me by Poets of the Fall

Rubicon by VNV Nation

28. What do you do when you need to de-stress?

Video games are a big stress reliever for me, if I've pent up frustration games like Drakengard, Nier Automata, and some fps' are a great cathartic release, or something I can just wander around in if I need to chill. Listening to music is another great stress reliever for me, sometimes getting myself a bottle of sweet cheap champagne and eating brie and triscuits for dinner. Also for physical stress (usually from chronic pain) I've found medical marijuana helpful.

45. Is there a song you like better than the original?

Bad Wolves cover of Zombie, I love the original but Bad Wolves version hits me right in the feels.

49. Describe your aesthetic

Hoo boy that's legit tough cause my aesthetic is all over the place lmao. I'd say my aesthetic is floating from obsession to obsession with songs and games. XD

50. Put your playlist on shuffle and list the first 10 songs that play.

Lone Digger by Caravan Palace

I'm Markiplier (Markiplier Remix Song) by Endigo

I Can't Decide by Scissor Sisters

The Wolf by Siames

Ho Ho Ho by Sia

Five Nights at Freddy's 1 song by The Living Tombstone

Five Nights at Freddy's 3 song by The Living Tombstone

Bills, Bills, Bills (Glee version)

I'll Keep Coming by Low Roar

The Flipside (Fnaf world song) by Griffinilla and Shadrow