I Feel Like I’m Losing My Brother…
Currently things at home haven't been going too well ever since my brother’s unexplained hysteria/meltdown last November. Things were back to normal a couple of months after the incident but my brother has been having the same episodes for a couple of months now and they've left us, me especially, feeling worried and hopeless. My brother doesn't want to see the doctor for some weird reasons… and we've had a lot of arguments with him about this. And it’s been really frustrating for everyone at home. I feel like he’s my little brother even though he’s much MUCH older than me. A few weeks ago, we had a heated argument in the middle of the night. Well, actually the argument was only one sided because my brother didn't really seem to acknowledge my frustration. Yup — I totally cracked that night. Luckily my dad, who just got home, stopped us. It was the first time I had raised my voice at my own brother (like, really really really raised my voice). I felt really bad afterward. I didn't know how I managed to sleep after that though… Maybe all that yelling really exhausted me. It also exhausted my voice because it sounded kinda hoarse and raspy the next day. Home doesn’t feel like home anymore… And I feel like I'm losing my brother…