What Am I Gonna Do With My Life?
Today, I spent quite sometime deliberating whether I should get myself a new phone. Gosh I didn't know it could be so complicated. Contemplating on buying a new smartphone for myself made me realize how unready I am to own one, and how scary my future would be without a stable job after I leave the National Service (NS).
I wonder how will I pay my phone bills or my student loan? The amount of money in my bank is embarrassingly...small and it freaks me out every time I think about being broke. I don't really want to live off my parents. They've been so kind to let me live with them and the last thing I wanna do is to ask them for money.
To be honest, I'm not sure whether I wanna work or study after NS; I just still cannot decide. Do I wanna go back to studying Design? If I do, I need a good portfolio in order to get into a university though. That's a lot of work and besides, I'm not really that great a designer. Sigh. Argh! Why does being a grownup so hard?!