January 2013 - Changes

January was the month of new changes in my life which I had to adjust to (I'm still adjusting). On Jan 8th I matured into a 23-year-old young man. I still feel like a teenager at times though. I'm hormonal; I breakout a lot. I guess I'm a late bloomer -- dang it! But to tell you the truth I'm actually afraid of growing up; the Peter Pan in me just doesn't want to. I'm going through a new phase in my life where I get really anxious and frustrated easily and moody and somewhat rebellious. There's just so much anger and angst in me -- see, still feel like a teenager! I don't know why but this kinda scares me. I feel like I'm gonna erupt one day and it won't be pretty. Maybe it's just stress. Maybe all this negative energy is making me sick or maybe I'm sick because of my big brother who got sick first. Well, it was definitely because of him that I got sick. Curse you big brother! I try to focus and surround myself with positive things though like eating healthily, watching sitcoms that make me laugh, and music. Dang it -- speaking of music, my iPod is broken and I need to get it fixed... Change is crazy and scary so I'm taking everything in slowly; one at a time... Hopefully February will be a much better month for me! *Finger crossed*

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