Here to give my two pence on Sam’s suicide I guess? I’ve got a lot of feelings and nowhere for them to go.

DCI Sam Tyler clearly has somewhat of an “I can fix him.” problem about the met police. He’s on a doomed one-man mission to singlehandedly change the police force and has spent his life working himself into a position where he can make a difference.

Except nothing really changes, at least in 2006. The world keeps turning whether he’s in it or not.

In 1973, the world he’s created inside his own head (or at least, that’s what he thinks and what we think by the end of Life on Mars. I have not finished Ashes to Ashes yet so y’know, I don’t know what’s REALLY going on) he MATTERS. When he tries to make a difference, things actually change. He can try to change every mistake he ever made, he can try and fix the future before it happens.

I really think that’s what prompts him to ‘go back’. The fact that there’s only one world that he’ll ever matter in, and it’s not even real.

Alex Drake and Sam Tyler are opposites in several ways, but I think the one that’s the saddest to me is that Sam Tyler fought so hard at every second and every interval to get home and then woke up to find that there was literally nothing left for him, meanwhile Alex is the one who actually has a life waiting for her and reasons to go home but she consistently forgets that she has to fight until it almost costs her everything.

Like there’s nothing sadder than Sam Tyler clinging so viciously to every shred of the real world, only to realise that it doesn’t have a place for him meanwhile Alex Drake is on the floor trying her best to remember her daughter’s name because she’s been so caught up in 1981 that she’s forgotten how much the people in 2008 love her.

I swear to god I am a MESS.

Watched Ashes to Ashes S2 E4. Sam Tyler namedrop on my birthday. 10/10, best present all day, I will be sleeping well tonight.

I’m not funny.

Does anyone else remember that time they just fucking forgot about Ray having PTSD?

Okay full disclosure I haven’t finished Ashes to Ashes yet so maybe they explain why the plotline lasted one episode and was never brought up again (do not give me spoilers) but straight up are you telling me Ray Carling got over PTSD by shooting someone. In like two days. He’s fine now guys don’t think about it.

Because I’ve been thinking. Sam has to want to spend the rest of his existence in the 70s, which means willingly accepting that he will have to deal with Ray Bitchface Carling for the rest of his existence (I would stay in the present just to avoid dealing with Ray tbh). And Sam Tyler is the textbook example of a severe ‘atlas complex’ my poor pathetic little man. So, I propose:

I dunno, just some thoughts. Hey maybe he can teach Ray not to be such a shithead while he’s at it.

If I’m wrong and there’s context about this in Ashes to Ashes, my sincere apologies?

Ah yeah I drew this one time lmao

Do not look at the comments for anything Life on Mars related. A lot of ‘anti-pc’ wankery from the blokes who worship the ground Gene Hunt walks on. He’s literally a tumblr sad girl for The Sun’s target audience.

But hey it’s not all bad it inspired me to make this.

It’s literally 3am here I want to kill myself.

Been thinking about Life on Mars. Not in any deep or meaningful way but like. Imagine being sent back to 1973. They didn’t even have Madness. They didn’t have Madness back then. Can you imagine being English without Madness.