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The Tragedy of the Monster Lady

growing & healing & learning

1. Garden Song, Phoebe Bridgers 2. Interlude: I'm Not Angry Anymore, Paramore 3. The Orange, Wendy Cope 4. The Return, Mary Oliver 5. What The Living Do, Marie Howe 6. Ending, Johny Bulc 7. Will You Please Be Quiet, Please?, Raymond Carver 8. Spring, Mary Oliver 9. Witch Burning, Sylvia Plath 10. Why Be Happy When You Could Be Normal, Jeanette Winterson

On staying home (despite your best intentions)

another day - angus and julia stone / look who’s inside again - bo burnham / reasons not to be an idiot - Frank Turner / all my favorite songs - weezer ft. ajr  / nobody really cares if you don’t go to the party - courtney barnett / excursions - keaton henson / the deepest sighs, the frankest shadows - gang of youths /  tomorrow - jack and the weatherman / kyoto - Phoebe bridgers 

Bojack Horseman / Brenna Twoh / Miriam Cahn / Phoebe Bridgers / Angie Sijun Lou / Taylor Swift

when lorde said “did my best to exist just for you” and when mitski said “i don’t think i could stand to be where you don’t see me” and when fka twigs said “and didn’t i do it for you? why don't I do it for you? why won’t you do it for me? when all i do is for you” and when taylor swift said "i made you my temple, my mural, my sky. now I'm begging for footnotes in the story of your life" and when phoebe bridgers said "whatever you want me to do, i will do" and when daughter said "you will grow all you need to grow inside my spine and then take what you need to take, what's yours is mine" and when the crane wives said "i shine only with the light you gave me" and when

(for unexpected goodbyes) 

My My, Hey Hey - Neil Young // Chinese Satellite - Phoebe Bridgers // Yes I’m Changing - Tame Impala // Motor Cycle Drive By - Third Eye Blind

songs about isolation from my playlist, creation is a form of survival: the quarantine playlist

dreamland by glass animals / stoned at the nail salon by lorde / anthems by charli xcx / let it all out (10:05) by coin / people, i’ve been sad by christine and the queens / i know alone by haim / it’s gonna be okay, baby by muna / 1000 doves by lady gaga / garden song by phoebe bridgers / before the line by dodie / more in the playlist

water in phoebe bridgers’ punisher

garden song / ocean by vija celmins / kyoto / the great wave by hokusai / moon song / elena kalis / moon song / the monk by the sea by caspar david friendrich / savior complex / waves breaking by claude monet / i know the end

father john misty from “hangout at the gallows.” // ana mendieta’s “untitled (ocean bird washup).” // “downer ending.” bojack horseman.  // phoebe bridgers from “funeral.” // “free churro.” bojack horseman. // shia labeouf, honey boy. // ana mendieta’s “untitled (ocean bird washup).” // father john misty from “this is sally hatchet.” // “nice while it lasted.” bojack horseman. // richard siken, “boot theory.”

on unsent, unread, and unanswered love letters: somedays, regina spektor // kyoto, phoebe bridgers // california, lana del rey // unsent #16, @unsent-suggestion // no reply, frances quinlan // address your letters, the backseat lovers // the love letter (after sir luke fildes), daniel albert wehrschmidt // the love letter, nina hardy // tibetan pop stars, hop along // thoroughbreds, cory finley

I think about this all the time and I can feel my heart break a few times over

Ocean Vuong / Phoebe Bridgers / Stand by Me (1986) dir. Rob Reiner

“do you ever wonder if the girls who come in here realize they’re gonna grow up exactly as fucked as we are?”

“i know the end,” phoebe bridgers / conversations with friends, sally rooney,  “woman at a mirror,” gerard ter borch / “real women have bodies,” carmen maria machado

sandra cisneros, the house on mango street / tatyana nilovna yablonskaya - morning, 1954 / anatoly levitin- warm day, 1957 / harry sutton palmer - a cottage garden, 20th c. / phoebe bridgers, i know the end / sarah abraham - one fine morning, 2013 / theo gosselin - denver morning 5, 2015 / gaston bachelard, the poetics of space / federico zandomeneghi - in bed, 1878 / laura ingalls wilder /colley wisson- morning light kyneton australia, 21st c. / @gabi_wahl on instagram / lauren jolly roberts - cecile’s garden, 2006 / maya angelou, all god’s children need traveling shoes