aph-japan reblogged
#a: nuance#actuallyautistic#autism problems#voice#voice projecting#poll#digimon adventure 02: the beginning#a: have Seen ThingsTM people might deem ~~~scream worthy~~~ but didnt scream + didnt typically Want to if i could help it#({does experiencing a Category 5 hurricane+hearing the wind literally ALL NIGHT LONG as a TODDLER count????})#(I didnt get a chance to vote on this one but Important Topic to Me + concerning Young Me in various directions Specifically)#(I do this kind of breathy squeak??? rather than scream in place of what might be 'yell' {not sure it even counts as just a 'gasp'})#(but you cant even hear the squeak really)#(like sucking in breath)#breathing issues#(**extremely belatedly realizing** probably relevant to actually developing *over time apparently*)#actuallynarrowedesophaguswhileeating#(like thats been the case {w how I breath} ever since I was a kid but it became more noticeable as I aged because i *still* dont scream)#(And its less of 'this completely scares me' and more things like 'hi i REALLY WISH bugs+lizards could stay outside and *not get inside*')#(or 'lightning ITSELF doesnt scare me i think its genuinely a REALLY COOL aspect of nature but i dont want it RIGHT OVER MY HOME')#({same with storms in general} {floods+TORNADOs in general are 'scariest' to witness but weve never had em *excessive* outside hurricanes})#just tropical area things#(and literally ANYTHING clearly from fantasy media+FICTION just makes me CRACK THE FUCK UP and im Not Sorry {NEVER Sorry for That})#(even when i was watching the beginning while i admit the excessiveness took me a little actually by surprise i was SNERKING in theater)#({which i think was genuinely part of the INTENT of that entire sequence + using UKKOMONS GOOFY EYE I MEAN COME ON?!??! B uuu tTM})#thats why its called FICTION#the beginning spoilers#(RN the things making me genuinely ANGRY though are Another Story but in those instances i wouldnt like . Scream)#({I also consider Shouting different from Screaming} but yeah again coming back to more of these topics Later as I Clear Out Old Drafts)