#(and i'm too anxious to really post much of anything ever outside of dumber things)

sometimes i really love my fics. i wrote that because i wanted to read it. i love it. nobody visits my fics more than me. they remind me that i’m a hard worker, that i created something. it’s mine and i cherish it and love it because it’s exactly what i wanted so i made it.

and other days i’m crippled by self criticism and hate everything and can’t bear to look at my own work because i know it’ll never compare to the greats

but i live for the days i love my work. because it’s mine, and i made it. i didn’t wait for somebody else to make what i dream about. i went and did it myself.

so don’t feel like your work is awful

it’s the stuff you dreamed about. it’s the stuff you decided to make a reality. it’s not about quality, or poetry, or how perfectly your sculpt your words or keep it so deeply in character; because it’s what you dreamed and it’s what you wanted to see, so you made it.

keep writing; it’s yours, and you made it. and if you want to continue to sharpen and improve yourself? then do it. it’s all yours and you can make it whatever you want.

keep writing.

snamioneshipper

THIS.

#me #fandom #fanfiction #writing #fic writing #negativity #positivisty #writing positivity #(THIS)#(yes)#(cries forever)#(my fics will probably never see the light of day anymore)#(at least I can work on them in secret and enjoy them just for myself)#(even if I think they'll never be good orz)#(and I'm too anxious to really post much of anything ever outside of dumber things)#(like the odd reminiscing post or old amv or dumb FST)#(if I actually post something it means I worked seriously hard on it)#(and I probably still think it's bad orz)#(sometimes I wish I still had the energy to make amvs too)#(I'd make SO MANY and make them epic)#(but just the time it takes is..... orz)#(maybe someday.....)#(but ahhh I hope any mutuals struggling with this remembers this too)#(I ALWAYS love seeing new fanworks so yes)#(AH this goes for rp too)#(and anything dealing with creativity really)