(((I Will Outlive)))

that autism feel when your special interest is brought up but you have to hide youre autistic so you’re just oh that yeah im a bit interested i (trips) (thousands of photos of special interest fall out of pockets) w-what these arent mine im just (gathering them up frantically sweating) listen i can explain (thousands of pictures of special interest scatter across the floor) you need to trust me here i

I really wish people wouldn’t take my autistic behaviours so personally.

If I look bored or uncomfortable at your social gathering, it’s not because your social gathering is boring and uncomfortable. It’s not because I don’t like you. It’s because I get overwhelmed easily and the environment is not one that is accessible for autistic people (for example, there is no designated quiet room).

If I don’t say “good morning” with the appropriate tone of voice and facial expression, it’s not because I dislike you. It’s because sometimes faking a neurotypical demeanor takes more spoons than I currently have.

If I don’t reply to your text message promptly, it’s not because I don’t care about you or dislike you. Maybe I don’t have the spoons or the time to think about an appropriate reply, which takes more time for me than it would for a neurotypical person.

I could go on…