🤣Imma need Bruce Brady (or whatever arsehat is spoofing Brad) from BruceBConsulting | FranChoice to cease using extremely outdated LinkedIn information & their obvious franchise / MLM emails / 'dream business' scam offers. 😑

Turns out I paid my bills earlier than normal & FORGOT so I went to pay them I was confused seeing that payments were already made, NOT me calling about wtf happened (customer service giggled with me, i never ever yell at customer service/techs, i have been at the receiving end of shitty customers' own mistakes) comin to find out I am a forgetful dumbarse. 🙃

sometimes it feels like an ignition of madness rather than a descent into it.

Sooo

Anxiety has put me in one of the longest art blocks ever.

6 years, 6 years now I haven’t done what I loved and i’m just.

I dunno.

I wanna replay Hellbender, Fury 3, and Terminal Velocity so baaaaad

1995 u were a strange year

Stuck between wanting to flesh out Transformers Aomi and Faun Aomi

i wish, i goddamn made these two back in 2008 when I had first thought about it, now i don't have the energy to .

._. and i keep sidetracking off the original ideas because i get inspired by every stupid little thing.

i want less complication, less thinking and more doing.

so easier said than done

OH YOU KNOW THE ANXIETY IS BAD - WHEN YOUR EARS START RINGING AND GET BLACK SPOTS IN YOUR VISION.

can't be normal at all.

nope.

got an appointment tomorrow around four.

ugh fml

WHY IS IT THAT EVERY TIME I SETTLE DOWN TO GET TO WORK ON A FUCKING PROJECT I FUCKING GET INTERRUPTED CONSTANTLY WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK?!! AND AT WHAT POINT DOES A CLOSED DOOR MEAN "COME ON THE FUCK IN, MANNNGGGGGG" ???!!!!!

and everyone wonders why i have such a bad temper and close myself off and barricade my room.

NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I SAY THAT I WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE BECAUSE I WILL BE WORKING ON MY PROJECTS.

ignored.

When someone says that they are attracted to me or interested in me

first thing i think is :  hahaaha very fucking funny,what the fuck broke you? second thing is:  THIS. IS. HIGHLY. ILLOGICAL. third: don't fuck with me, asshole. fourth: please don't blow your feelings out of proportion with me.

Darling mine, I can only be a monster if you make me into one.

You cause havoc once and suddenly you're the GO TO when anything and everything goes wrong at any given time even when you're on a different planet when said shit hit the fan. FML

at work

when i was in the office this morning, this was my face, the whole time. the amount of ruckus was just too damn high

I FORGOT WE HAD SUBWOOFERS INSTALLED - GROUND STARTED VIBRATING REALLY HARD AND I GOT SCARED - WTF

I GREW UP ON/WITH GIANT ROBOT ALIENS AND GODDAMN MAGICAL PONIES!

i hope my chibi aomi hentai doesnt get ban hammered since hentai foundry changed their policies

i get it tho, i see why they did it. i get it. no complaints from me.

i just dont know where chibi falls now. character is not underage at all.

so it is only appearance wise thing...  oh dear.