antares0606 reblogged
things to do in valinor when you're visiting for the second time
- go for a walk
- look at the new bushes they've planted in the gardens and the dew-drop flowers light in your hands as a butterfly's landing
- walk circles around the white city, running your fingers over the buildings left empty
- think about vinyamar
- try not to think about vinyamar
- make a removed artistic critique of the new statue that they've carved, of king standing before the gates of formenos, his chin raised defiantly against doom
- try to look dad in the eyes
- breathe in the rose-scent of the perfumed
- sleep for 3 days straight
- try to ignore the whispers of the servants
- go for a walk
- go for a second, longer walk
- bet on horseback races
- lose
- try to make new friends
- think about a poem you want to share with curufin
- remember the shit curufin pulled
- vividly imagine pushing curufin off a cliff to the wolves
- feel kinda bad re: cousin murder daydreams
- decide the cousin murder daydreams aren't that bad if they let you out of mandos with them
- have a nice family dinner where you don't bring up any dead relatives
- write mom a letter you're not going to send
- wonder why your little brothers are still caught, somewhere far away, in the dark
- go for a walk
- cry a little
- come up with a really neat idea for an outfit centered around golden cuffs left yet in the ruins of nargothrond
- birdwatch
- turn to tell edrahil about a red-crested bird and remember edrahil is not birdwatching, as he is dead because of you
- cry a little
- hum a song maglor came up
- try to decide whether you're mad at maglor or not
- go dancing with amarie
- feel nothing
- stand in square, suffocating in the cold night air
- go for a walk
- eat a rose in the gardens of lorien
- shut yourself in your chambers
- journal
- try to tell your father about the open chasm in your chest and run out of words
- try to remember when you've become the sort of person who runs out of words
- go for a walk
- return to the doors of the halls of mandos
- stare at the blank white marble of the pillars
- pick up your chisel
- carve
