so i’ve finally reached the kiss. the thing about Jennifer crying is that even though we know Bette is slightly jealous about Tina’s affairs and has moments of discontent/tension in her relationship with Jodi, nothing in the episode actually suggests the depth of feeling that Bette still has for Tina that comes out here. the tears in this scene are dredged up from a secret place that Bette doesn’t show to her friends, to Jodi, to anyone, and most incredibly, that Jennifer doesn’t even show to the camera. it suggests that Bette exists outside of all the existing clips we have seen (which is a fucking achievement of acting). and let’s talk about Laurel. Tina finally touches Bette’s body after the most prolonged kiss in which Bette proves her passion for her. and the fact that when Bette reacts to that by crying and shaking in her arms, Laurel doesn’t even (NEED TO) open her eyes - she knows what is happening and is there to comfort her, she uses a little bump of her nose against Jennifer’s forehead to say hey, look up, before kissing her again. these two are so fucking in sync, their love scenes say more than their dialogue. they understand and live in their characters so well. “the truth of those characters” really comes out in this scene unlike ever before.
- Elena Ferrante, My Brilliant Friend
Elena Ferrante, “My Brilliant Friend” (via jennamacaroni)
“To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance. To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you. To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair. To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never to forget.”
— Arundhati Roy, from “The End of Imagination”
“[The older generation of writers who had established the rules for modern fiction under the assumption that their experience was “universal”] gained the ability to write stories where they could “show” and not “tell" … They had this ability not because they were masterful stylists of language or because they dripped with innate talent. The power to “show, not tell” stemmed from the writing for an audience that shared so many assumptions with them that the audience would feel that those settings and stories were “universal.” (It’s the same hubris that led the white Western establishment to assume its medicine, science, and values superior to all other cultures …) Look at the literary fiction techniques that are supposedly the hallmarks of good writing: nearly all of them rely not on what was said, but on what is left unsaid. Always come at things sideways; don’t be too direct, too pat, or too slick. Lead the reader in a direction but allow them to come to the conclusion. Ask the question but don’t state the answer too baldly. Leave things open to interpretation… but not too open, of course, or you have chaos. Make allusions and references to the works of the literary canon, the Bible, and familiar events of history to add a layer of evocation—but don’t make it too obvious or you’re copycatting. These are the do’s and don’ts of MFA programs everywhere. They rely on a shared pool of knowledge and cultural assumptions so that the words left unsaid are powerfully communicated. I am not saying this is not a worthwhile experience as reader or writer, but I am saying anointing it the pinnacle of “craft” leaves out any voice, genre, or experience that falls outside the status quo. The inverse is also true, then: writing about any experience that is “foreign” to that body of shared knowledge is too often deemed less worthy because to make it understandable to the mainstream takes a lot of explanation. Which we’ve been taught is bad writing!”
— — Cecilia Tan, from Uncanny Magainze 18 (via violetephemera)
from graffiti on a wall in Rome (via memoryslandscape)
Sylvia Plath, from “Wintering,” Ariel (via lifeinpoetry)
Elizabeth Bishop, Questions of Travel (via likearegularbookworm)
“Life and death, energy and peace. If I stop today, it was still worth it. Even the terrible mistakes that I made and would have unmade if I could. The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, it was worth it, for having been allowed to walk where I’ve walked, which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, through it, in it, and above.”
Gia (1998)
Michael Cristofer
Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore (via thelovejournals)
Alfian Sa'at (via cmcyan)
Anne Sexton, from A Self-Portrait In Letters (via exoticwild)
The signs as emotions you can’t explain
Aries: Rubatosis
the unsettling awareness of your own heartbeat.
Taurus: Onism
the frustration of being only in one body, being able to be only at a one place at a time.
Gemini: Monachopsis
the subtle but persistent feeling of being out of place.
Cancer: Jouska
a hypothetical conversation that you compulsively play out in your head.
Leo: Adronitis
frustration with how long it takes to get to know someone.
Virgo: Onism
the awareness of how little of the world you’ll experience.
Scorpio: Lachesism
the desire to be struck by a disaster and surviving it.
Libra: Liberosis
the desire to care less about things.
Sagittarius: Yū Yi
the desire to see with fresh eyes, and feel things just as powerfully as you did when you were younger-before expectations, before memory, before words.
Capricorn: Énouement
the sadness of arriving to the future and knowing how things turned out, but not being able to tell your past self.
Aquarius: pâro
the feeling that no matter what you do is always somehow wrong
Pisces: Ambedo
a kind of melancholic trance in which you become completely absorbed in vivid sensory details.
Q & A with Margaret Atwood
Aragorn, The Return of the King (via one-small-garden)
Manuscript of Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte opened at Mr. Rochester’s proposal (via pinterest).
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