#just mop me up and throw me away – @anenlighteningellipsis on Tumblr

Beauty in the apertures of pain

I want to say Without temper If possible without the least sense of the heroic Without even the measured ambition to speak the truth which is only another vulgarity To say I am not what I was Indeed I was nothing and now I am at least the possibility of something and this I will defend.

anenlighteningellipsis reblogged

I feel like my past is interfering with my present and there’s nothing I can actually do. I feel there’s just nothing. I’m unable to think clearly and I’m clearly unable to not let things affect me. Unable to force my brain to function, unable to just get to feel calmer in some way. I need some peace of mind and I need you to be here. I hate needing anything and yet I do […]

Simone de Beauvoir, from a letter to Jean-Paul Sartre

#uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuughhhghg #*slides down chair into puddle of melted miserable melancholy on the floor*#just mop me up and throw me away #simone de beauvoir #jean-paul sartre #sartre #letters #***#past #memory #letting go #brain: nuh uh not a chance *mentally cackles*#quotes