I just want a light hearted kind of love. The kind of love that fills your heart with laughs and sweet sweet sugar. No judgment. No expectations. Just a crazy~fall into your arms~ type of running and jumping sticky sweet kind of love.
4/27/2020
‘I like the way everything feels alright with you.’ As I read these 9 simple words, hands clutching at my chest, I could feel my heart melt like a candle. Dripping down down down. Seeping further into the bedsheets with every breath.
how do I stop falling for you
6/11/2020
“Dear N, I know your dad wasn’t around to teach you the word ‘no’. But fuck. you.
Dear C, All I can say is thank you. Thank you for making me feel wanted. However short but oh so syrupy sweet. Dear K, It’s been four years and I still haven’t clung to someone like I did to you the day we said goodbye. Dear R, We never quite made it but I know the next girl crushed your soul. And god did that feel good. Dear S, Who knew that love and sex could be so opposite. Surely not me.
Dear K,
Did you have to hit me over the head with a bottle? Did you really really have to? Dear K, We really didn’t have to get coffee the next morning. Trust me. Dear D, For someone who looks like that, I really don’t know how we went so wrong. Dear A, If only narcissism could stand in for love, like a cigarette to a meal. Maybe we would’ve made it out alive.
Dear K,
Oh K. My sweet sweet baby. If only you had a brain cell more.
Dear A,
I see you learned the ol’ take a girl to the train tracks at night trick. And oh god did I learn to fall for it.
Dear V
The wisdom you hold in the very fibers of your magnificent being has so much potential to teach the world. Just not me.
Dear T
FUCK. fuck. This is it huh. The day I stop editing this poem. We’ll see my love, we sure will see huh
”
--to all the boys I melted for
04/06/2020
We’re all just chasing a good feeling. Really. Just think about it. Why do you want to fall in love? A good feeling. Why do you want to help others? To chase a good feeling.
That’s all it is. So when you ask if I’m in love with you? I can say I’m just after a good feeling. And it won’t be a lie.
2/21/2020
The other day she said to me ‘sometimes I just feel like a gas station’ and I laughed at the statement before she explained ‘people stop by to get what they need, whether it’s sex, laughter, or someone to suffocate the loneliness, until they’re full again and the last thing you ever see is them driving away’ and now I’m wondering if a gas station is all I’ll ever be
02/02/2020
After you, I thought I’d never need anyone else. But life’s not fair, and things fall apart…and I don’t know how to visit someone in prison.
SR 7/15/17