A Gentle Blade Part 11
This one is mostly fluff, but here are the few trigger warnings I can think of. As always, please lmk if I missed any!
TWs: torture mention, captivity
'How long did you convince the queen to leave me in my misery?' Leera asked Sir Guard. Her voice was surprisingly unbroken, not in shambles like the rest of her, though she didn't feel the normal pain she should have- given her state.
'As long as you need,' the guard told her. It was sad to see him in the dungeon with Leera. After all, he'd made it plenty obvious he didn't want to be in her position, even if he didn't say so clearly. And although he wasn't prisoner, being in any position in a cell would be daunting.
The assassin stiffened. She knew the action should have made her feel pained, but she felt nothing. Her skin should have felt chilled in the cell, but it didn't. She didn't feel anything; she only thought and acknowledged things. 'That could be forever,' she said. It sounded more sad than she meant it to.
'Then it's forever that Her Majesty will leave you.' His lips turned up before splitting at their seam. Sir Guard had teeth, and it sounded ridiculous, but they looked magnificent to the assassin. Leera didn't recall ever seeing them like this. He'd sneered and done other harsh things with his mouth, but he'd never smiled with it like this.
As like any time before, Leera asked her private guard, 'Who are you?'
His smile faltered only to say, 'My name is...' The voice shrunk, became quiet and Leera feared for a moment that the queen came in. She thought she heard the guard's kind words, his optimism, and decided to strike him down before he could give the assassin any hope.
Ceasing to ponder why Sir Guard's voice trailed off, Leera opened her eyes and found herself in the same place she always was, the same place she even occupied in her dreams.
It was now that Leera felt the ache in her chin and chest, the stiffness in her limbs, and the cramp in her neck. The assassin felt reality again. She almost wished she could go back to the dream, even if it meant seeing the queen again. At least in the dream there was no truly felt pain, only implied pain. Her skin was still marred, still damaged, but she hadn't felt it when her eyes were closed.
"You're thinking," Sir Guard observed out of the blue. It made Leera jump. On one hand, she was happy to hear his voice, but on another, it was disappointing to see he wore no smile.
The assassin nodded her head.
Leera almost chuckled before quickly remembering that the action would only hurt her. She was healing, but it was only two days ago that her skin had been pierced in four places. "Are you asking me to tell you a story now?" At least she could speak with less pain now. Her chin wasn't as damaged as her chest.
Sir Guard chuckled softly, and he did smile, but only barely. Leera was disappointed there was no white in that smile. Did his teeth even look the way the way they did in the dream? Should it have mattered? "Well, you were out for a couple of hours. Is it right of me to assume you have a few stories to tell?"
"It's not," she said. "I only had a single dream."
"Should I play a guessing game or will you share this dream?"
A smile tugged at Leera's lips. She allowed her lips to split apart, if only it would give Sir Guard a hint. "I'm curious what you think I'd dream about."
Almost, the assassin thought. He almost smiled the way I saw him.
"An easy guess would be- well that seems insensitive-"
"It wasn't about an escape, though that would be a nice ideal if there weren't bounty hunters in the woods."
He nodded. His smile had fallen by now. It made Leera sad in a way she couldn't describe. She supposed that's what happened when a secretive guard was her only company.
Sir Guard tried again, "About your childhood?"
"I try to think of that little."
For another time, he nodded. "Was it a nightmare?"
Leera shook her head slowly, carefully.
"I'm bad at this game," he said flatly.
"You've only guessed twice. Give me at least one more."
He thought about it for several minutes, no doubt trying to think of what an assassin might dream about.
Finally, he asked, "Was it about a different life?"
"Close," the assassin told him. "Try again."
"And now I'm telling you to give me at least another guess more."
Sir Guard sighed, looked blankly at the wall across from him. "I don't have another guess."
"You want me to tell you?" He nodded, so Leera said, "You smiled. A full smile. That was my dream."
His brows shot up as he took in the words. The assassin smiled herself at the large breath he took. It was as if no one else ever told him they dreamed of him smiling. Maybe it was a forward statement, but Leera knew she didn't fancy the guard. He was...well, he was a friend of sorts. He was the only person Leera had besides her tormentor. And anyway, Sir Guard gave her a story when she needed it. It was only fair that she told him the one dream she had.
When Sir Guard commented nothing else, she began, "You said you were able to keep the queen away. For how long?" She hoped for nothing more than for him to say as long as she needed, even if it was forever.
Unfortunately, Sir Guard wasn't the man in her dreams. That was someone different, but it was okay; Leera would coax a real smile into him eventually.
"However long until she decides you're healed enough that she can...well, you know..."
"Good for you, though, she has a sort of conference with leaders of the next kingdom she's trying to take control of."
Leera's brows drew together. "You mean like kings and generals and whatnot?" She paused, digging into the situation and trying to understand it. "They are willing meeting with Queen Rennera, who wants to take over their lands?" He nodded. "And they're aware that she plans to take their thrones, make commands, to rule?" Sir Guard nodded again, and Leera gave a small laugh which barely brought a sting in her chest. "How does that work?"
"Easy. She's the former king's wife. They think she's as bad as he is- was."
"You're one person," Sir Guard explained. "If she can prove in front of her staff that she's vicious to you, they'll assume she'll be vicious to anyone. And word spreads. Notice how she's never laid a hand of her own on you?"
Leera pointed at a random place on her cheek. She couldn't remember where the queen dragged a nail down her face, but it was somewhere around where she pointed and Sir Guard would get the message.
"Were there guards nearby?" Leera nodded. "And were you acting out against her word?" She nodded. I apologized to her instead of a dead man. "There you go. She was proving herself. That's what being royal is. That's all it is. Royalty is proving yourself to everyone, all the time."
"Is that who you are, then?" Leera asked and laughed. It hurt, but the laugh was unconstrained. "Are you the prince from that story you told? What was his name? Dogars. Yes, that's it."
He didn't wait a beat. "Of course not. My name isn't Dogars. I like to read stories, but I forget them afterwards. What I don't forget are the patterns I've recognized in them." Sir Guard took a breath. "And a pattern that I've recognized is that kings and queens, princes and princesses...they have a lot of pressure on them."
"I hope you're not defending the queen."
"No, no. I wouldn't. I despise her. I-I think she's terrible and I hate everything that she's done. The queen is-"
"You don't have to go on. If you did, I think you'd pass out. I might pass out if you continue."
"You better not. I was getting bored standing here with no one to talk to."
Leera smiled. "Are you saying you actually enjoy an assassin's company?"
He seemed to consider the question and though he didn't smile when he said, "Maybe," she still felt him smiling on the inside. It was all she would need to make it through another day knowing she was still in the queen's grasp.