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Alice and Mary Jane

@alicenmaryjane2016 / alicenmaryjane2016.tumblr.com

Higher in Wonderland
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The saddest kind of sad is, when your tears can't even drop anymore and you feel nothing. It's like the world has just ended. You don't cry. You don't hear. You don't see. You stay. For a second the heart dies.

— The emptiness is the worst.

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I'm scared.
I am so scared all the time and I don't know what to do anymore.
I'm trapped.
In my own mind, and a repeated life circle of doing the best I can and its just one step away from being good enough for anyone...
I try...
I swear I try!
I'm building my life the only way I've ever known how.
But you tell me to do it this way, while three other people are pulling me other ways and suddenly my body snaps from all the pressure and I can't take it!
I can't take it...
And so I relapse. I relapse in any way I can that won't make you feel like you are the problem because I love you.
I love you...
I love you so much that I don't think I could breathe without you.
So I don't pick up the blade....
Instead, I skip a meal.
But then you notice and you become worried, and I don't want to have you worrying over me when I'm fine.
I'm fine...
And so I change my plan.
Instead, I think...
I think...
And then suddenly I'm overthinking and one thing leads to ten hallways of impossible scenarios with twenty doors on each that lead to complex situations, each one more outrageous than the last.
But I twist it all.
I twist it all until its completely plausible. And then the nightmares they cause sleepless nights, and sleepless night cause days of over thinking which cause more sleepless nights.
And so I'm stuck in this never ending loop.
I lay my bricks down to build my path only to be told that I used the wrong bricks.
And after so long you just want to take a hammer to the stones that you have so wrongly placed many times before...
You know...
You can't criticize the path, when the bricks are destroyed, and theres no one there to replace them anymore....
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The worst part about being left behind is that you know the other person doesn’t care about you anymore, they’re living their life just fine without you, not wasting a second thought about you. But you’re still there caring a way too much, still crying yourself to sleep a way too often wondering why you weren’t good enough, wondering why they moved on without you but there’s still this small hope that they’ll call or message you again but they won’t and it’s destroying you.
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