I said this months ago but I'll say it again: if you're transgender you HAVE TO LIVE
please, I love you.
I'm gonna fight like hell to stay alive btw, nothing keeps down the Salemator! from a black trans guy to other queers/BIPOC/and women
you will survive no matter how hard it gets
Love when my therapist tells me I have ptsd and retires before our next session
panicking because i think i was too mean and your silence means you dont like me anymore ! ! !
To whom it may concern: people who have grown up emotionally neglected often end up in situations where they give 100% for a person (friend, partner) without realizing that they get very little in return. Oftentimes, that other person is the one walking out.
The true but hurtful stuff my therapist says
I don't really know why I have fantasies of being sexually promiscuous. Is it just part of having a sexuality to fantasize about having sex with lots of people? With strangers?
Even when I was single I knew I could never. I fall in love with everyone who's nice to me.
I know scientifically, and reasonably, that isolation is a form of torture, but it's so hard to conceptualize it when it's so familiar and I've reached for it over and over again as a form of relief from the torture. Why am I longing for what others consider intolerable.
CW FOR VAGUE REFERENCE TO ANIMAL EUTHANASIA
It’s really valid if you have big feelings about being neglected as a child or pushed aside. Even if it was for what some see as a valid reason (sick sibling, etc), it’s still okay to be upset by it and feel the effects. Someone else needing more doesn’t mean you deserved less.
Murderbot doesn't want to be a person because that would mean admitting the way the Company treated it was horrendous.
If it's an appliance, then being rented out and ignored and impersonally punished is just its due. Admitting it's a person means admitting that was years and years of systematic abuse and torture.
Thinking of itself as a defective appliance makes what happened at Ganaka Pit its own fault, not the fault of the company that enslaved it and forced it to accept malware under threat of torture.
In a backwards way, blaming itself is a way to believe it still has a shred of autonomy and control over the world.
If it could just be an appliance, maybe the pain would go away.
If it isn't a person it doesn't have to have feelings.
me and bro
For anyone who is in the position of caregiver to an abusive or formerly abusive elder: you may benefit from the book Your Turn For Care, which is the only book I've seen on this specific topic. I haven't finished it yet but what I've read is excellent.
It talks about how to make decisions in a situation where, yes, caring for someone in this kind of context is painful. It doesn't tell you what decisions to make, but it helps you understand how to balance self-protection with considerations like cultural expectations (which may be important to you even if they make things more difficult), compassion for the elder, and different financial situations.
"everybody experiences that" says mother who has the same symptom of the same mental illness
faded black denim... most beautiful color in the world tbh
Me: Hey bro can you pass me the eggs
Bro: Sure thing dude
We:
