Heal the scars from off my back

I don't need them anymore

I've come home

Welcome Home, Son by Radical Face

She destroyed the colt, the weapon they were going to use to kill her, they thought they had no other choice but the Colt... and they were mistaken. Jack came along through Cas, and killed her.

They destroyed the egg, the weapon they were going to use to kill them, they thought they had no other choice but that egg... and they were mistaken. Jack came along and killed him.

Now the equalizer supposedly was the only weapon who could kill Chuck, and it's destroyed. Now I wonder... who could be the only one with the power enough to kill him?

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Such a fucking mystery.

IT TOOK A WHILE, BUT I FINALLY HAVE THE GIF!!!

The Infinity of the Stars (14)

Chapter 14 - Eclipse - here on AO3

Hey guys! Yep, it’s really me – finally coming up with a new chapter of my Destiel/Archangel!Cas fic “Infinity of the Stars“ and I’m SO excited! 🌟😁

Chapter Summary: After years of suppression and uncertainty, and some endless days of forced resistance to their feelings, Dean and Castiel finally found themselves in each other’s arms. A rampant wave of passion had overwhelmed them both and in the moments of their matchless union, the two of them were the only thing that mattered anymore. Everything should be perfect – They felt loved and happy and safe. Happy? Well, for the reawakened archangel this is certainly not the best state to be in. Too late, he realizes the consequences of his actions and so he must face his horrible fate.

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Thank you so much xLailanix for taking your time and being a great beta and your encouraging words! 💙

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Look how disappointed Cas is! He knows Dean is mad at him, he knows Dean is a jerk when he’s angry, that he always close himself and bury his feelings and he only let out anger and frustration, but Sam? Sam is his ally, his friend, the rational one, the calm one, the one who always is willing to consider what he has to say and the one who think straight. But this time, Cas thought he was having some kind of support from his brother, the first dad to his son, the one who was there when Jack died on that bed, who could understand the grief he was feeling in that moment… but no. Sam was in fight or flight mode and needed to think a way to get out of there, so he agreed with his brother in this. Cas is brokenhearted, if someone could understand him is Sam, but when Sam decided to agree with Dean, Cas realized he was alone, and his pain won’t be adressed any time soon.

Cas killing Belphagor in “The Rupture” (15x03)

She destroyed the colt, the weapon they were going to use to kill her, they thought they had no other choice but the Colt... and they were mistaken. Jack came along through Cas, and killed her.

They destroyed the egg, the weapon they were going to use to kill them, they thought they had no other choice but that egg... and they were mistaken. Jack came along and killed him.

Now the equalizer supposedly was the only weapon who could kill Chuck, and it's destroyed. Now I wonder... who could be the only one with the power enough to kill him?

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Such a fucking mystery.

The Sacred Heart

In which Jack’s destiny is not to rule, but to love. 

*Dusts off Catholic hat* *puts it on* SO anyone with eyes saw that this episode was FULL of the Christianity. Which is nice for me, because HEY I used to go there! And GREAT, now everyone who wasn’t picking up on the metaphysical underscoring of this show sure as hell is now. The imagery is universal; recognizable. The cross represents Jesus’s sacrifice for humanity. Two people standing opposite one another at an altar looks like marriage. The Virgin Mary is the mother, and Joseph is her husband. Jesus is their son, both human and divine. Crossroads of humanity and divinity. He died for forgiveness for our sins. 

Like all religions, Christianity places a lot of emphasis on death as a means of restoration, a non-ending. Birth and death are complementary and often, in the eyes of the universe, synonymous. But death is only cyclical, only a transition, when divine love is present; the Christian doctrine indicates divine love as the means through which we may know eternal life. If the light of Jesus’s love is shed upon us, we shall never know an end. We will live forever. In my neck of the woods, good old Roman Catholicism, the love of God which delivers us from sin is represented by this image:

The Sacred Heart of Jesus. 

The Passion of the Christ is the name for the say of suffering endured by Jesus of Nazareth before his crucifixion and death. Symbolism associated with the Passion is featured in this depiction of Jesus’s love: the spear that lanced his side has slashed his heart, and he bleeds his own blood and holy water. A crown of thorns encircles the heart. A cross lies above the heart. Besides this are the flames of divinity and the Holy Spirit, and the light of Christ’s love for humanity shining in a halo of golden rays.

The heart suffers, it bleeds, it dies, but its power of love can resurrect the dead and restore the living. 

As I said, anybody with eyes who saw that church scene understands that Dean is Joseph, and Cas is Mary. Dean, the earthly father, the masculine-aligned force, the surrogate parent. Cas, the caretaker and mother, tasked with guiding a child of divine eminence to his destiny. And between them, before the visage of Christ and his sacred heart, is Jack. The son, the child with the power to save the world. And he is the Garden, because it is within him, I mean literally, boy swallowed it. Jack is the crossroads of divinity and humanity. Dean and Cas are the union of divinity and humanity.   And he is the first to venture back to the Garden, the place where divinity and humanity meet, because he is neither– he is both. (Who are you really? Who are you meant to be?) And when he returns, he is restored; his ability to feel love, pain, remorse, regret, compassion, and the desire for forgiveness, is restored.

As Jack carries on with his own set of trials, his true nature will continue to be restored. His spirit will be renewed, and he will get closer and closer to the purity of union of divinity and humanity. When his time comes, this age’s Christ child’s sacred heart will glow like the Sun, and his love will deliver the world from damnation. But instead of liberation from the punishment of sin, humanity will be liberated from the punisher Himself– the tyrant God whose toys have long outgrown him.

Automatically my brain went here: 

If this isn’t exactly what Jesus wanted for the world, I don’t know what it is. 

My Prompts!

Thanks @ashleyzander for this request!

And here you have!

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Cas: I made some research, Dean. And Ketchup is not a vegetable.

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13x06 || 14x08 || 14x20 || 15x11

Best Dad Ever.

A theory you won’t like.

 Okay so I was thinking… I’m having troubles to digest Archangel Michael stuff in episode 15x08 “Our Father Who Aren’t in Heaven”. He doesn’t look at ALL like the Michael we been knowing all these years. I know I know, we been hearing by Lucifer and Chuck that Michael in the cage was crazy mad and stuff but this isn’t the point ‘cause they were lying and we can see that now. Even Michael’s plans were to stay with Adam on earth because when Adam asked if he’s going back to heaven he answered “My brothers are dead. My father never returned. In so many ways, I’m alone” but at least he had Adam. 

The thing is that, as soon as he’s confronted about his loyalty to his father, he never doubted, he trusts him blindly. 

When Lilith confronted him about it, he said “If that’s true if he can come talk to me himself”. 

When Cas confronted him, he said “ You’ve come to tell me that God, my father, creator of all things, is my enemy?”

When Sam and Dean confronted him, he said “I’m not aware of anything. You’re asking me to trust you. You, who doomed me, you, who let Lucifer walk free while your own brother sat in hell” - “If my father is back, he will usher in Paradise” (Yeah Mike, he was in Paradise, Vegas) - “ I won’t hear this. You’re lying. I don’t know what your agenda is, but you’re lying”

But the interaction that hurt the most was then Adam confronted him. 

Adam: “The point is parents keep secrets, right? Does it hurt to ask the question?” Michael: “It would. It would mean that I doubt him. The good son, the favorite, doubts his father”

And then Cas went taunting him again to achieve planting inside his head all the memories he had from Chuck, and as soon as he walked in, he said “I’ll spare you the effort. I’m not gonna betray my father and everything I’ve believed in.”

I mean, he was pretty confident that he wasn’t betraying Chuck or wasn’t going to do anything against him, because he is his FATHER. 

“Leave, Get Out, I want you dead, We didn’t bond”

That’s what he said to Cas minutes before he changed his mind. That easy? It just doesn’t convince me.

He made the whole bunker tremble just to let them know he reached a conclussion… or maybe it was something different that made the Bunker tremble? Maybe Chuck fulfilling his son’s wish to talk in person? Chuck is a manipulative bitch and he can make anyone believe anything, especially to his son, the one who keeps defendind him after being locked in a cage in hell for 10 years (take note that 10 years for an Archangel as old as the creation itself is not that long). What if Chuck invented a whole story and showed him a different reality? Who would Michael believe? His father or Castiel? 

The answer is pretty definitive for me: His father. 

Michael decided to help them, and he looked sincere, he really did, he definitely looked hurt by what his father has done. But maybe it was a TRAP. 

Yep, A TRAP (15X09)

What if Michael sent Dean and Cas back to purgatory because he wanted to trap them there for Chuck to have time to abduct Sam, and to be free of danger if Dean noticed he was missing? I mean, it wouldn’t be a surprise for me at least, because I remember the Michael we met. Like my friend @verobatto-angelxhunter pointed in her post about the Michaels and Dean we were very surprised to see this Mike is not the same as the AU one, or even the same archangel he was in season 5 when he possessed John Winchester and Adam. But he is. He wasn’t with Adam, because they have a different relationship, they’re friends, partners and only have each other. But why would he change his mind so drastically just in a couple of minutes?

Besides, maybe it’s lazy writing, but the ingredients for a spell to lock GOD away (I mean, GOD.God.) were all things they had in the Bunker except ONE? Nah, it just doesn’t look plausible to me. 

And that Ingredient happens to be A LEVIATHAN BLOSSOM.

Purgatory is a place Chuck created to get rid of Leviathans because they were  creatures who eat angels. “The Piranha that will eat the whole aquarium”, and I want to point out something definitely super interesting that @staycejo1 said some time about Leviathans. 

“Leviathans are all black goo. Does this remind you of ANYTHING or ANYONE? Maybe the EMPTY created he Leviathans and that’s why he’s so pissed at Castiel” 

This will destroy the theory that God created Leviathans, and it actually makes sense. They were the first beasts and then God locked them away. Maybe God and The Empty were pals until he did that and they parted ways. Reminder: this was long before archangels and humanity were created. What if the Empty was like “Okay, you lock my children away? I will soak in empty every angel you create after they die”

(This will also explain why the Empty is helping Billie to plot against Chuck, and why Old Death would lie about the origin of the Leviathans).

You can read my meta about Chuck, Billie, The Empty and the Old Death here. 

Leviathans are creatures Cas had inside himself, that would be the first point for the Empty to be interested in Cas, the second one was that he’s the one that got away, and the third is currently the deal they’re holding. When Cas achieve happiness, he will die and go to the empty.

Now, pointing this out, the deal Cas and The Empty made, was sealed in heaven. God is absolute there, he knows everything about it and it’s probably aware of it. 

What if God thought the only way possible to get rid of Cas was in the hands of Leviathans, children of his enemy and eaters of angels, so that’s why he manipulated Michael into send them to purgatory, close the rift and TRAP them there?

He knows there is a human portal there and Dean already crossed it, so Dean would be safe, Cas on the other hand… 

Chuck is desperate to get rid of Castiel, so maybe this is the only “poetic way” he found for his ending not to be ruined by solving everything with a snap of his fingers. So either he’s planning Cas to die in Purgatory or planning for him to stay stuck there forever because there would be no way out for him.

What Chuck won’t see coming is the obvious solution that will allow Cas to cross the human portal…

VESSEL SHARING. 

Not only @emblue-sparks , @verobatto-angelxhunter and @paper-lilypie talked about this in their metas, but now I bring more evidence for this to MAYBE become real.

In the 15x09 promo we can hear Dean screaming “The monsters are everywhere” so they definitely found troubles along the way, also we can see Dean ALONE in the images of the promo, so… hear me out.

What if this time Dean convinces Cas to ride shotgun inside of him like he did with BENNY the last time?

“Together, we are one” or “We’re together, we’re one” That’s what the spell mean. And it remind me of certain profound bond I know and love. 

(”WE ARE” rings a bell?)

So if Cas rides shotgun (letting Dean take complete control of his body, because he respects him, not like AU!Michael) he will LEAVE his own body, so he will be inside Dean until episode 12 that Jack comes back and maybe between him and Billie, they will rebuilt his body. I mean, the empty sent him back with a new tan, a new trenchcoat and another hair style so anything is possible!

(This is part of what @paper-lilypie​ wrote on her theory! go read her!) 

So they will come back home with Cas hidden inside Dean’s body though the human portal. and Cas will stay there hidden. It’s not like Dean doesn’t trust him enought to let him inside his head. 

*LilithsGifFORESHADOWING.gif*

THAT was in episode 14x03, and then in 14x10 this happened. 

Cas went again inside his head, this time with Sam on his side. 

So they will be sharing Dean’s body for a while, and the prayer will be with Cas inside his head, so that’s why we won’t have an answer from Cas’ side right away. 

Okay and another thing I wanna point out is that season 15 is from beginning to end FOR THE FANS, so they’re bringing characters into the show not by coincidence, they’re bringing them with a purpose, for us to REMEMBER specific things. 

First they brought Belphagor in Jack’s body, who reminds us to Dean’s time in hell, to Michael in the cage and to spice things up between Cas and Dean. Then they brought back Kevin, to remind us there’s no way for a soul to go into heaven because now god is an enemy. Then they brought back Eileen, knowing well she couldn’t go into heaven, Sam brought her back by using the spell Jack used on Mary that it didn’t work. Then they brought back LILITH, to remind us the original apocalypse and how much the guys have upgraded. Then they brought back Rowena, to give the guys an ally in hell. Then they brought back Adam and Michael. 

So why would they bring Benny for 30 seconds letting him die under a red light?

That’s right, for us to remember the vessel sharing.

Coincidence? Nope. 

This is the season to bring back. 

Cas will return one way or another, just like Jack. 

We just have to wait and see.

Disclaimer: THIS IS A SPEC BASED ON EVIDENCE I FOUND ALONG THE WAY. 

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@agusvedder !!

I’m so nervous with the whole complot we have here!!! Gosh! But it has a lot of sense.

I was so happy the boys had won a new and powerful Ally… Let me cry here…

About the vessel sharing, I recall at the beginning of season 14 this…

Gawd…. I would love to see them sharing a vessel!

Let’s see what happens!!

*weird fangirl noises*

JOINED AT THE EVERYTHING.

Consider me dead

Alpha and Omega / Moriah/ Rising Hell- Spec and some parallels.

Ghost Situation: 

-Alright, I was thinking that maybe, just like it happened in the Season 11 finale “Alpha and Omega”, they will take advantage of the ghost situation in “Rising Hell” and build a soul bomb with the help of Rowena, but instead of using it with Amara, this time they will attack God/Chuck with it.

This is what I think it’s what Rowena’s got in her hands (Promo pic from 15x02 “Rising Hell”)

Another important thing is that after Dean and Sam left Waverly Hills in 11x23, the haunted asylum where they fished all the souls for the bomb, we saw as Billie was observing them. And this is important because I’m about to talk about her next. 

Billie/Chuck Rivalry: 

The scene that I will refer too is also from Alpha and Omega (11x23). Billie wasn’t Death yet, she was just a reaper so this scene is curious. She said she will reap god herself, I mean… was she in the top of the hierarchy of Reapers at that time? 

Why would a simple reaper REAP GOD? 

From where I recall, The Death told Dean He will reap god when it comes the time, but then Dean killed him, so the place was left available. Billie always works by the book and it’s very respectful with the natural course of life… EXCEPT when it comes to the Winchesters, despite saying otherwise. He hinted Sam about being impure in the biblical sense in 11x02 Form and Void, knowing he’s smart enough to found out the cure, he teased Dean letting him know Sam was alive in 11x17 Red Meat, and telling him that she will say NO everytime they try to make a deal with her, like she’s closed and unreachable, but in Alpha and Omega 11x23 she offers herself to help them, she follows them to the bunker and offers the souls from the veil to end with Amara. I mean, she keeps teasing about the definitive death but she never gets to do it, and when she finally has a chance, she gets killed by Cas.

She’s not a simple reaper, and Chuck knows it, but he cannot say a lot without giving a lot about himself either so he just stares at her with angry eyes while she didn’t even looked at him, not even ONCE. 

He does NOT LIKE HER. Why would that be?

Now the theory about Billie teasing the guys with death constantly to make herself being killed to become The New Death actually makes sense.

Now we can see the full picture, because in that moment we didn’t have all the information about what Chuck was and have done. Now we can say for sure he hates her because she’s unpredictable, she’s not manageable. She’s impossible to write and she makes her own choices, and that pisses Chuck off. 

I mean, we’re sure He hates her, like he said in Moriah (14x20)

The old Death was all about “Fried pickles and tickle porn”. That’s something pretty… personal to know about someone, right? Chuck and the old Death were old pals and they knew each other pretty well.  In my opinion, Old Death knew EVERYTHING CHUCK WAS DOING. Why? Because he allowed Dean and Sam to die and come back again and again, because Chuck “rebuilt Cas more times than he could count”, because Death gave Dean his ring in season 5, just to fit his old friend’s narrative. 

Thats another reason why Chuck doesn’t like her maybe, because she was evidently plotting to take his place as soon as it was left available, and that not only will end with his association with Death but also give her too much power. Power she will use against him.

This is a piece of dialogue from Form and Void (11x02) Billie tells Sam: 

“You and Dean … Dying and coming back again and again. The old death thought it was funny. But now there’s one hard, fast rule in this universe. What lives … dies. So the next time you or your brother bite it, well, you’re not going to Heaven … Or Hell. One of us – and, Lord, I hope it’s me – we’re gonna make a mistake and toss you out into the Empty. And nothing comes back from that. I know you’re dying. I can feel it. You’re unclean in the biblical sense. So I’ll be seeing you again, Sam … Seeing you real soon. Name’s Billie, by the way.” 

Alright, she’s pretty clear with this: “Now that the old Death is dead, let’s hope I am the next one to die to take his place… take this, it’s a little hint for you to cure yourself, I’m Billie, remember me” 

She told something similar to Dean in Red Meat 11x17:

“I’m not here to bargain with you, kid. I’m here to reap you. And the kicker is… Sam’s not dead. But you are. Or will be, soon enough. Trust me. If the big “W” bit it, I’d get a call. Come along now, Dean. It’s time. The Empty… it’s waiting.” 

I MEAN, without the old Death to rule the reapers, who is the “Lord” or the Reapers? Why did she took the lead? Maybe because she has a very powerful association with a cosmic entity just like Chuck had with the old Death? 

Even when he keeps teasing Dean and Sam about their soon deaths, it appears to be she can always find a way to help them (Celebrating the life of Asa Fox / Advanced Thanatology / Nihilism) but when Rowena tried to ask her to bring his son back in Funeralia, she refused…

How can she refuse to bring Crowley back when his soul would be DEEP INTO THE EMPTY ‘cause he was a demon? and according to the Shadow itself, not even GOD had power in there… why would Billie? 

What’s Billie Association with THE EMPTY and HOW WILL THIS AFFECT THIS SEASON?

My evident speculation is that Billie already knew who Chuck was, what he does with his drafts and how he destroy worlds, and for some reason, she sees in this particular world a glimpse of hope now that She’s the New Death. 

That glimpse of hope is JACK.

Billie’s quotes from ADVANCED THANATOLOGY (13X05)

Billie: I didn’t say it was up to you. I said it depends on you. Word on the interdimensional street is you’ve been slipping between worlds, Dean. I wanna know how you did it. Now. Dean: Well, I thought Death knew everything. Billie: Then you can imagine how this one little blind spot is really bothering me.

—–

Dean: How do I know I can trust you? Billie: You don’t. But then again, I’m not the one breaking cosmic bargains left and right, now, am I? Dean: Yeah, it’s not like you to hold a grudge. Billie: Don’t I? So… spill. Dean: Lucifer’s son. Jack. When he was born, it created a little rip.

I need to call your attention to this dialogue because just then, in that precise moment, Billie found out about how powerful Jack was… not only He could woke up a being sleeping in the empty but he also created “a little rip” to walk amongst worlds and realities.

“Because… this whole multi-versal quantum construct we live in, it’s like a house of cards. And the last thing I need is some big, dumb Winchester knocking it all down“

“Since I got this…new job, I stand witness to a much larger picture. Do you know what I see? You. And your brother. You’re important.”  

“You have work to do. That’s all you need to know. And trust me, having my eyes opened to the necessity of any humans, especially Winchesters, is not a thrill. So…you wanna die, but I say…keep living.”

(Excuse me, does this ring a bell to you?)

Do you know what also happens in that episode, right? Cas comes back from the empty. 

Cas wakes up in the Empty thanks to Dean’s desperation that moved Jack in a way that made him possible to wake him up, so Jack has power in the Empty. Cas awakening was in episode 13x03 “Patience”, in Episode 13x04 “The Big Empty” we have Cas fighting against the Shadow and convincing him to bring him back to earth and in 13x05 “Advanced Thanatology” Cas comes back to Dean and Sam. Evidently Billie found out about God’s twisted nature when she took her Job as the New Death and KNEW Sam, Dean and Cas with Jack’s power could defeat him, that’s why she told them they’re important. 

That’s why she probably advised the Empty to release Cas too… she knows ONLY Sam, Cas and Dean Winchester’s nurture and influence (no pun intended, come on) will make Jack reach his full power to kill Chuck and restore the peace amongst multiverses.

But Chuck killed JACK before they could do something about that, so now She needs to talk with the kid in the Empty at the end of the season (14x20 Moriah) to orchestrate a new plan. 

She made the mission of her existence to balance the multiverses but Chuck it’s like a small kid throwing a tantrum and it’s ruining her plan. 

This season will be a huge mess of unresolved stuff: Adam/ Michael/ Amara/ Cas’ Deal with the empty/ Will Rowena die in Sam’s hands?/ will Jack come back? 

All we know is that, despite everything she says about them, Billie TRUSTS the Winchesters to fight against God and she believes THEY CAN WIN. Now She need to convince her bussiness associate, The Shadow, to release Jack at the right moment and to deal with his soul situation. 

Okay, thanks for reading my very long ramble and I would really like to hear your own specs about this situation. 

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Bringing this back because it just got relevant again.