HλLF-LIFE 2 released 20 years ago today (16.11.2004)

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VonErickson's Original Coffin Couch by VonErickson

TONY TODD as Grange in The Crow (1994)

I've been reading Michelle Remembers aka the book almost single handedly responsible for triggering the wave of satanic panic that swept the US in the early 80s and and i'm truly Obsessed with so many elements of this book.

like this book is supposed to be a factual recollection of satanic ritual abuse suffered by michelle smith when she was 5 years old (discovered using ""recovered memory therapy"" & hypnosis by her therapist lawrence pazder) and the entire book is so obviously profoundly absolute stupid bullshit, the fact that this fooled ANYONE let alone caused nationwide panic is utterly hogwild to me. AND its not even well written!!! its not even well written bullshit! Truly incredible stuff.

some of the things that happen in Michelle Remembers and are real, factual events:-

- one of the first events michelle recalls has her satanist mum and her evil satanist boyfriend (called Malachi. of course) staging a car crash by putting a dead woman behind the wheel of a car & crashing it with michelle in the back seat. no explanation is given for this whole sequence + why michelle needed to be involved

- multiple rituals take place in a cemetery where michelle is buried alive and unearthed again while screaming bloody murder. it was pointed out in a later article debunking the book that said cemetery is surrounded by residential neighbourhoods on 3 sides. lol

- the satanists have a seemingly endless stockpile of dead babies and white kittens that they tear apart for different rituals

- michelle is taken to an evil doctor who cuts bodies up and frankensteins people back together. just because, i think. the doctor surgically attaches horns + a tail to michelle's body, which she rips off

-  in the present day, michelle and dr pazder start going to church together. while praying, they spot a weird pew in the church which turns out to be an EVIL SATANIST BENCH that mysteriously appeared that day & no one had seen before. the horrified priest takes the pew outside & burns it right in the churchyard, pazder takes photos of the burning that reveal a ~spooky~ ~ghostly~ figure after they are developed 🙀🙀🙀

In the last 1/3 of the book the 81 day ritual of seemingly nonsense random bullshit & dead babies is complete, leading to.................

- the satanists successfully summon LITERAL SATAN. Actual Satan.

- Literal Actual satan speaks exclusively in rhyme. like really terrible, fucking awful just dogshit rhyme. the rhymes are so bad that pazder actually asks the priest about how shitty they are, but the father assures him that though they might SEEM completely fucking dogshit on the surface, they are actually very intelligent and nuanced underneath, because of reasons.

- sample satan dialogue:

"Twelve times two, and then add four.

Cut it in half and then there's more!"

??

- michelle outwits the literal devil despite being tortured by satanists and also being 5 Years Old, and is visited by (+ sees visions of) several times during the torture: the actual genuine Jesus H Christ. Mary, Mother of God. and the archangel michael, in that order

- mary visits her one last time & heals all of her torture wounds, conveniently leaving her w no scars as evidence of this or the devil surgery, and then wipes her memory

Somehow..... people read aaaaaaall of this, all this. of which not a shred of evidence was never found. And not only decided that it was True + Real events, but that this was all at v real risk of happening to them/their kids. Pazder was actually considered an "expert" on ritual abuse (a term he coined) afterwards and brought in as a consultant on the mcmartin trial & gave talks to law enforcement on sra.

The kicker for me is that after hundreds of hours spent together ""recovering""(tm) michelle's memories.... shortly before publication of the book, michelle & her therapist left their respective spouses and then married eachother. Mhmmmm 🤔

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I've been reading Michelle Remembers aka the book almost single handedly responsible for triggering the wave of satanic panic that swept the US in the early 80s and and i'm truly Obsessed with so many elements of this book.

like this book is supposed to be a factual recollection of satanic ritual abuse suffered by michelle smith when she was 5 years old (discovered using ""recovered memory therapy"" & hypnosis by her therapist lawrence pazder) and the entire book is so obviously profoundly absolute stupid bullshit, the fact that this fooled ANYONE let alone caused nationwide panic is utterly hogwild to me. AND its not even well written!!! its not even well written bullshit! Truly incredible stuff.

some of the things that happen in Michelle Remembers and are real, factual events:-

- one of the first events michelle recalls has her satanist mum and her evil satanist boyfriend (called Malachi. of course) staging a car crash by putting a dead woman behind the wheel of a car & crashing it with michelle in the back seat. no explanation is given for this whole sequence + why michelle needed to be involved

- multiple rituals take place in a cemetery where michelle is buried alive and unearthed again while screaming bloody murder. it was pointed out in a later article debunking the book that said cemetery is surrounded by residential neighbourhoods on 3 sides. lol

- the satanists have a seemingly endless stockpile of dead babies and white kittens that they tear apart for different rituals

- michelle is taken to an evil doctor who cuts bodies up and frankensteins people back together. just because, i think. the doctor surgically attaches horns + a tail to michelle's body, which she rips off

-  in the present day, michelle and dr pazder start going to church together. while praying, they spot a weird pew in the church which turns out to be an EVIL SATANIST BENCH that mysteriously appeared that day & no one had seen before. the horrified priest takes the pew outside & burns it right in the churchyard, pazder takes photos of the burning that reveal a ~spooky~ ~ghostly~ figure after they are developed 🙀🙀🙀

In the last 1/3 of the book the 81 day ritual of seemingly nonsense random bullshit & dead babies is complete, leading to.................

- the satanists successfully summon LITERAL SATAN. Actual Satan.

- Literal Actual satan speaks exclusively in rhyme. like really terrible, fucking awful just dogshit rhyme. the rhymes are so bad that pazder actually asks the priest about how shitty they are, but the father assures him that though they might SEEM completely fucking dogshit on the surface, they are actually very intelligent and nuanced underneath, because of reasons.

- sample satan dialogue:

"Twelve times two, and then add four.

Cut it in half and then there's more!"

??

- michelle outwits the literal devil despite being tortured by satanists and also being 5 Years Old, and is visited by (+ sees visions of) several times during the torture: the actual genuine Jesus H Christ. Mary, Mother of God. and the archangel michael, in that order

- mary visits her one last time & heals all of her torture wounds, conveniently leaving her w no scars as evidence of this or the devil surgery, and then wipes her memory

Somehow..... people read aaaaaaall of this, all this. of which not a shred of evidence was never found. And not only decided that it was True + Real events, but that this was all at v real risk of happening to them/their kids. Pazder was actually considered an "expert" on ritual abuse (a term he coined) afterwards and brought in as a consultant on the mcmartin trial & gave talks to law enforcement on sra.

The kicker for me is that after hundreds of hours spent together ""recovering""(tm) michelle's memories.... shortly before publication of the book, michelle & her therapist left their respective spouses and then married eachother. Mhmmmm 🤔

In my main mission I took a side quest and pulled all the pics I could with Jeffrey from the LA times from 1979 to 1986 from NewpaperArchive.com during his theater days

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Horse figure of the day: Lenox Carousel Halloween Horse (2000)

i think that people should start using “in poor taste” as a descriptor again given it is often the most applicable and clearest phrase when discoursing about media and analysis; sometimes a piece of art isn’t actually THE most problematic thing of all time is is. ​just in poor taste (not JUST in poor taste as a reductive take on potential harm but/and as in regardless of intent the impact is this was an offensive or stupid take/choice)

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