Shout out to the five or so men I met here on the former porn side of Tumblr. They were some of the most kind, unapologetic, informative, alpha, safe, intelligent, and comforting people I've ever encountered, on and offline.

Moving Forward.

In approximately ten days...TEN FUCKING DAYS, I will be saying goodbye to a lot of things in my life that made me who I am. I will also be saying hello to a whole new world, one that I worked so fucking hard to join. I leave Boston with my two trolleys, a backpack and a carryon, and board my Aer Lingus flight from Boston to Edinburgh Scotland by way of Dublin, Republic of Ireland. I will venture through three customs ports, showing my passport and visa wrapped up in my Kingdom of Wakanda passport cover along every gateway. I have done so much to arrive at this precipice, and I am just a few days away from taking my leap into uncharted territory. I am engulfed in a bevy of emotions ranging from abject terror, overwhelm, anxiety, anticipation, excitement, peace of Spirit, and nerves, and I’m feeling them all at the very same time. It’s basically a clusterfuck, but one that I’ve earned. 

As I look around this old bedroom, seeing my suitcases strewn about the floor, one being packed and the other one being empty, I battle my inner urge to procrastinate, knowing that to do so would only breed disaster. I suppose its a coping mechanism of some sort...you know, the only way to not be overwhelmed with all that you have to do is to not do a damn thing and pretend that my to-do list doesn't even exist. But I also know what it took to bring me to this moment. What I sacrificed, what I said NO to, what I’ve learned, and how I became more capable than I ever thought I’d be. 

And so...I go. I move forward. I take the next step, and I see where my next adventure takes me. Who knows: maybe I’ll end up bringing some of you along for the ride. 

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