‘How could you’
He muttered painfully, unable to look at her face. He feared he’d cross a line if he does.
‘Trust me Serkan, I never wanted this to happen.’
She tried to touch him but he avoided it and Eda had a deja vu. She had seen this film before
‘BUT IT HAPPENED EDA. YOU HID EVERYTHING FROM ME. YOU STOLE FIVE YEARS FROM ME . YOU STOLE FIVE YEARS FROM MY DAUGHTER.’
He yelled, looking straight into her eyes. His eyes were bloodshot red and his ears turned pink with anger. Eda had never seen him like this before
‘I was scared.... I was scared that -‘
‘That? Was I that scary that you thought I am not worthy of knowing my daughter’s existence?’
‘You said you don’t want children. You said you don’t want me.’ Eda was weeping like a child, she wasn’t accusing him but giving justification of her foolish act.
‘And you decided to punish me for saying that? I broke your heart so you decided to smash mine under your feet?’
He knew she was right but he was so mad that he wasn’t ready to listen to whatever she said.
Serkan stumbled Like a lifeless man. He was hating his entire existence. Tears were running down his eyes. He felt suffocated and left the room immediately
Serkan screamed and wailed uncontrollably. His heart was shattered, in fact he felt that he’d never be the same. He had hurt himself and he wanted to hurt himself more. Blood was dripping from his knuckles. His forehead had a nasty scratch but he wasn’t wincing from pain. His tears and wailing was a result from all those moments he had shared with his daughter
Daughter
His daughter
His five year old daughter whom he had met recently.
And she was so stubborn
She loved horses
She was allergic to strawberries
She was good at archery
But what else ?
He did not know
He was clueless about his daughter’s likes and dislikes. He was unaware of her favorite color or her favorite fruit.
But he did know that he was her hero. She told him yesterday. Serkan felt his heart swelled in pride. This was a new feeling. Something he had never felt.
He was a father. He was kiraz father.
Another loud groan left his mouth and he hid his face on his hands and began to cry, cursing himself of everything his daughter had gone through in the last five years.
‘Noldu?’ He was disturbed from crying by a tiny voice, a voice that touched his heart and played with its strings . He was in love with his daughter already
Serkan removed his hands and looked at Kiraz’s worried face. Her tiny little hands were caressing his bruises.
‘Noldu?’ She asked again
‘What are you doing here in middle of the night? It isn’t safe to be here in the forest.’ He replied back suddenly concerned for her safety
‘You didn’t answer my question first.’ She retorted
‘Sometimes bad things happen and we want to let it out happen aşkım.’ Serkan replied caressing her long brown hair. He hasn’t noticed how much she looked like Eda. How could he miss that? How could he not realize that she was their own kid ?
‘Does it hurt?’ She asked, pointing her gaze on his bloody hands
‘A little.’
Kiraz placed a peck on his cheek and looked at him lovingly
‘I don’t like it when you cry.’
Serkan was about to burst into tears but he has no words to answer her questions so he simply hugged her back. It was a long tight hug but he needed it. In that moment he realized he was going to use himself as a shield even if he had to protect kiraz. She owned his entire existence already.
‘Come on let’s get you home.’ He wiped his tears, determined for a new beginning, a morning that would bring sunshine in his and Kiraz’s life.
Note: I was planning to write this for a one shot but things have been so hectic that I don’t think it would ever be completed. So here’s a small Drabble because I couldn’t help sleeping without writing this particular bit.
I just realized the entire icecream scene in SCK was more thoughtful then we perceived it to be. Kiraz got to saw her dad early in the morning right after missing him last night.
She mentioned that Serkan loves to fight like her. Maybe that’s why she’s attracted to him as well. Everyone else around her loves her all the time but Serkan, her dad, he’s that person around who gave a tough competition to her stubborn traits. Serkan and Kiraz both love competing and Kiraz finally found someone to share her tested with.
I repeatedly say this on Twitter as well, KIRAZ LOVES SERKAN SO MUCH ALREADY THAT SHE CANT STOP BUT FIND EXCUSES TO BE WITH HIM. Remember when Serkan used to that in fact he’s still looking for ways to spend time with Eda . Now, kiraz who likes Serkan bolat won’t tell him straightaway. She steps on his nerves, makes him get her icecream, forces him to eat with her and when Eda is there to take her away she doesn’t wanna leave
I love the detail when Serkan says ‘she was out without telling anyone ?’ He was concerned and surprised. Kiraz does this running away thing often we know that. In future she might pull a stunt as well. But I love how Serkan was quick to pick this and he realized it wasn’t safe.
This was their first moment as a family (in directly)
🌸🌸🍒🍒
I cant wait for Serkan to buy a star for Kiraz and name it after her on her birthday.
I hope this idiot doesn’t push away kiraz which I think he will. Eda will believe that Serkan still hates kids and he won’t love back kiraz thus she won’t tell him the truth
For sure it’s gonna be heartbreaking for Serkan to know that he missed five years of his daughter’s life. Yet, he’d recover with time and he will understand that whatever Eda did was for kiraz and as a father he will understand that. But kiraz??? Eda has weaved a beautiful web of lies for her. For kiraz, her dad is in space. After knowing that he’s back to earth and he’s the same man she was meeting for days there will be a hundred questions in her mind and mind you kiraz is anything but dumb. The poor child won’t be able to take it and it’s gonna be heartbreaking. I don’t know how ayse will tackle those scenes
On a side note, I wish Serkan shows stars to kiraz before the reveal so somewhere in her heart kiraz knows that her dad really is a astronaut.
Kiraz-Serkan Drabble
K : noldu
She asked him naively. The Serkan Bolat she knew never cried, he only got angry or for a change laughed with her.
S: why haven’t you slept? You mom won’t like it
K: you didn’t answer my question
Kiraz folded her arms around her chest and looked at him with a raised eyebrow. And that’s when he knew there was no way out of this
S: I miss someone
K: kim ?
S: a friend who was my only family. He was my son. Come here I’ll show you
Serkan held the little one in his arms towards the telescope.
S: do you know what it is this ?
K: evet!!!!
She screamed in delight.
S: bak, that star is Sirius.
He guided kiraz who was astonished to see the stars so closely
K: who is Sirius
S: he was my dog, a friend who never left me alone but one day he did. His heart became weak and he died. It’s been five years now
K: I’m sorry
Kiraz wiped his tears and placed a peck on his cheek. She hated to see him like this.
S: tamam tamam, I’m fine. Come on now, you have to sleep. Your mum will be here early in the morning to pick you up
K: first you have to tell me a story
He looked at her but didn’t argue.
S: peki, come on now
Serkan was midway through the little prince and Kiraz interrupted him
K: I like you Serkan bolat
S: Ben de
K: I wish you were my father
S: I wish too
He looked at her lovingly and sighed unaware of the truth. He didn’t know that he had spent an entire day with his daughter and today he was putting her to sleep.
Kiraz saying that ‘if there’s no money, we are nothing’ made me so proud. Beyond the fact that this is such a Serkan Bolat thing to say, it’s the most realistic aspect and my baby realizes it already. Uffffffff the way I love my lil pumpkin is insane
Kiraz is gonna hear Serkan-Eda fighting and she’ll know that Serkan is her dad. Bebeğim will run away from the house into the forest and a panicked EdSer would look for her. Yeah this is just my mind making theories but I NEED IT
Always wanted Serkan to have an allergic reaction to strawberry and Eda to be right there and take him to hospital or something. Well, I love you to the moon and back kiraz but baby if you have that allergic reaction in front of your baba, it would be delightful
You’ve got to be kidding me if you think we are ready for great revelation scene. Remember when Serkan broke down after knowing that his dad is responsible for Eda’s parents death? Now he’s a dad himself and he had no idea it. He wasn’t gonna know about it if Eda didn’t come in front him. He lost five years of his daughter, a daughter he always wanted. You think he would have it easy? Hayır
Keep your tissues ready we are about to experience something huge in coming episodes
According to rumors, if Kiraz is going to call her dad in sleep, I wish she’s lying next to serkan.
You know the sençalkapımı era is back when you can’t help but watch the bolum again and again. Missed this craziness
Eda, we made a firecracker that night
When you’re too busy cuddling the love of your life that your other love starts getting annoyed~
The first sunshine- EdSer OS continued
Unfortunately, Serkan stood there like a nobody because he had no idea. He had no idea what was his daughter's blood group and for the first time, he wanted to hold Eda by her neck and plead her to tell him that what was his mistake? What crime he had committed that she deprived him of his daughter's love.
Eda blurted instantly as the doctor asked the question, 'Her father.' This was the first time he was hearing her say a proper sentence since he met her a few hours ago. And ironically the word shattered him into pieces.
Serkan looked at her but she could not read his eyes anymore. She gulped and directed to Dr. Dilek, 'Serkan and Maya's blood group is same.'Serkan was about to leave for the test when Eda looked at him pleadingly and mumbled, 'Serkan'
'I'll deal with you later on.' He glared at her, following the nurse who was going to accompany him for a quick check-up before donating the blood.
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The longest four hours of their lives had finally come to an end. Life wasn't cruel for once and they got their daughter back. Eda wasn't thinking before but now she knew that things were going to change for them and their daughter.
'She hasn't gained consciousness yet but only family members are allowed to go inside.' The doctor probably guessed that she wasn't Serkan's child because all this time he hadn't seen him with one. Eda nodded and was about to go inside but Serkan held onto the doorknob and stared into the two pairs of bewildered eyes, 'I am family. She's my daughter.'
THE END