Kiraz-Serkan Drabble

K : noldu

She asked him naively. The Serkan Bolat she knew never cried, he only got angry or for a change laughed with her.

S: why haven’t you slept? You mom won’t like it

K: you didn’t answer my question

Kiraz folded her arms around her chest and looked at him with a raised eyebrow. And that’s when he knew there was no way out of this

S: I miss someone

K: kim ?

S: a friend who was my only family. He was my son. Come here I’ll show you

Serkan held the little one in his arms towards the telescope.

S: do you know what it is this ?

K: evet!!!!

She screamed in delight.

S: bak, that star is Sirius.

He guided kiraz who was astonished to see the stars so closely

K: who is Sirius

S: he was my dog, a friend who never left me alone but one day he did. His heart became weak and he died. It’s been five years now

K: I’m sorry

Kiraz wiped his tears and placed a peck on his cheek. She hated to see him like this.

S: tamam tamam, I’m fine. Come on now, you have to sleep. Your mum will be here early in the morning to pick you up

K: first you have to tell me a story

He looked at her but didn’t argue.

S: peki, come on now

Serkan was midway through the little prince and Kiraz interrupted him

K: I like you Serkan bolat

S: Ben de

K: I wish you were my father

S: I wish too

He looked at her lovingly and sighed unaware of the truth. He didn’t know that he had spent an entire day with his daughter and today he was putting her to sleep.

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The first sunshine- EdSer OS continued

Unfortunately, Serkan stood there like a nobody because he had no idea. He had no idea what was his daughter's blood group and for the first time, he wanted to hold Eda by her neck and plead her to tell him that what was his mistake? What crime he had committed that she deprived him of his daughter's love.

Eda blurted instantly as the doctor asked the question, 'Her father.' This was the first time he was hearing her say a proper sentence since he met her a few hours ago. And ironically the word shattered him into pieces.

Serkan looked at her but she could not read his eyes anymore. She gulped and directed to Dr. Dilek, 'Serkan and Maya's blood group is same.'Serkan was about to leave for the test when Eda looked at him pleadingly and mumbled, 'Serkan'

'I'll deal with you later on.' He glared at her, following the nurse who was going to accompany him for a quick check-up before donating the blood.

.................................................

The longest four hours of their lives had finally come to an end. Life wasn't cruel for once and they got their daughter back. Eda wasn't thinking before but now she knew that things were going to change for them and their daughter.

'She hasn't gained consciousness yet but only family members are allowed to go inside.' The doctor probably guessed that she wasn't Serkan's child because all this time he hadn't seen him with one. Eda nodded and was about to go inside but Serkan held onto the doorknob and stared into the two pairs of bewildered eyes, 'I am family. She's my daughter.'

THE END

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The first sunshine - EdSer OS

Years pass, seasons change, life takes drastic turns but we never stop living, until and unless we decide to end our lives. But that's not the only solution, isn't it? If people started ended their lives due to pain then this world would have ended long ago. The human race would have vanished by now. Life never stops. People might leave, but the breathing doesn't halt until and unless the universe decides one day. Even death is a weird thing, there are people who want to live a few more years or even days only to spend more time with their loved ones but destiny is unkind to them. On the other hand, some wish and pray diligently for death to embrace them so they can avoid the harshness of life but it never happens. We don't always get what we want and that's something two people, once in love, had accepted, and moved on in their lives. Or did they?

Is moving on that easy?

Especially when you carry each other's soul in your own.

.....................................

The last thing she wished for was to come back. Five years ago, Eda Yildiz had promised herself to never look back. She vowed to never step foot in Istanbul. The thought of even breathing the same air was stifling for her. But when did we ever fulfill all promises? It is all about broken promises at the end of the day. It was ironic that she could not stick to a single promise in her life, and it was, therefore, she had to be in Istanbul after five whole years.

Eda looked outside her plane's window staring into nothingness, wondering absolutely nothing. Her heart was filled with tantalizing fervors playing with nerves.

If only.

If only she could skip this. If only she had the choice to avoid coming back here. But life never gives us choice. If it was the case, she would not have taken the terrible decision. If a choice was given she would not have been living the past five years in fear, and despair.

She was unsure how long would it take to resolve the matter back in Istanbul, otherwise she would have left her child back in Italy but staying away from her even for a week was totally out of question.

Her child. Yes! Her only daughter.

The apple of her eye. The reason her heart continued to beat after all this time. The reason she had managed to come up this far in life without stumbling. The reason she managed to never look back and live with a smile on her face.

Her child, her and Serkan's daughter.

Five years ago, when their relationship ended leaving no chance of reconciliation, Eda never thought that she won't be leaving Serkan for real because she was meant to carry a part of his, with her all her life. But she was grateful. She was more than ever grateful for it and the fact that it was Serkan's blood made her even happier.

Eda turned to her sleeping princess and tucked her securely in the warm blanket. Just like father. Throwing away the blanket in sleep was perhaps a Bolat thing among many others that Eda Yildiz had to tolerate!

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It wasn't a bright sunny day, to begin with, maybe that's why there were fewer people in the park than before. In reality, Serkan thought that unlike him, they preferred to laze around in the bed with their loved ones. Sundays are meant to be a family affair instead of going for a boring walk because your doctor asked to.

He was so lost, staring into oblivion that he did not notice a 5-year-old running towards him until he was taken aback by her tiny arms circling his neck as she settled in his lap, and cried breathlessly, 'Baba.'

Serkan was mystified, to say the least. The little girl had secured her arms around him and buried her face in his neck. Her dark brown eyes stared in his green orbs, begging for help. Except for Engin's son, Serkan barely interacted with kids but this girl was the most adorable one he had ever come across.

'Ne Yapiyorsun!' He exclaimed in frenzy, unable to comprehend the reason for this sudden flight in his lap.

The girl narrowed her eyes and let out a feeble cry that for sure was real enough to fool anybody but him. 'Baba, these kids are hitting me.' She said and hugged him again as a bunch of two boys and three girls, approximately around 10-12 of age, stood on their heads glaring at the little girl.

'She threw away our ball on the other side of the road.' They gritted in anger

'Yeah! that's because you were hitting that poor dog and not listening to me.' She gritted her teeth and looked at them as if ready to kill them. Serkan's frown hadn't faded and neither was the grip of those delicate arms around his neck. He couldn't tell whether she was actually scared or not.

Hell! She was a good actor if she wasn't!

He plastered a grave look on his face and clenched his jaw. There was no way he wasn't helping out this one. 'Leave her alone. I don't want to see you around anymore.'

The girl pinched him on arm and mumbled in a tone that mighty Serkan Bolat wasn't used to hear anymore. 'Ask them not to hit the dogs or any animals for that matter.' She was threatening him! Yes! A five-year-old with her puny voice, and big round eyes were threatening Serkan Bolat! God knows why he gave up because he did stand up and warned the children to not do that anymore. His raised finger, while the other arm held the little girl, was scary enough for them to not mess with this father-daughter duo anymore.

As they ran from there without listening another word or two, Serkan squirmed his eyebrows and smirked at the little rabbit in his arms. 'So, where were you at fault?'

'I am never at fault.' She raised her chin with pride and pecked Serkan on the cheek. 'You are not a bad actor, I thought they won't buy it.' She seemed to have a habit of pouting her lips off and on. Serkan couldn't help but notice the mirth in her eyes with an ample amount of slyness that shone like a star.

As the rabbit complimented him well with a sweet gesture, he did not know that all this time hearing a compliment from a five-year-old was the only thing he needed in life.

'I'm honored to pass your test.' he couldn't help but smile, the little rabbit was way too mature for her age.

'Where are your parents?' He asked gently

'Anne is off to work, and nanny is right there with her friends. She asked not to disturb.' Serkan sensed a trail of sadness as she mentioned the word friend.

'And what about your friends?'

'They all are in Italy. Anne said we can't go back before she winds up her work.' Her eyes weren't glistening anymore and it irked Serkan for weird reasons. He felt an unexplainable impulse to make her smile like before even if he had to turn the world upside down for it.

'I can be your friend if you want.' He offered with a kind smile on his face.

The girl twitched her face and began to think impishly, 'I'm five but not a fool. Anne said strangers aren't friends.'

'But your Anne told you to run in arms of strangers and call them Baba?'

'Tamam Tamam, If you insist. I'll be your friend but only because you helped me.' So she made it about herself!!!!! Serkan couldn't believe his ears. He has had few interactions with Engin's son and his friends and they all have been mischievous but this one was surely something else.

Before Serkan could ask her name, her nanny shouted from afar, waving her hand to tell its time to go back home. The little bunny as Serkan felt like calling her left hurriedly, placing one final kiss on his cheek. 'Gule Gule Arkadas' She giggled and for the first time in years, Serkan felt something in his heart. Something that wasn't unfamiliar but obliterated.

.....................................

'Serkan Bey, you have a visitor. She refused to tell her name, says you know her.' The young assistant informed Serkan while he was absorbed in his laptop screen, working on an important tender that had to be tackled by tonight. She would have dismissed her if it was someone else but Serkan knew very well, who this unnamed visitor was. He immediately raised from his seat to get her in by himself.

'I didn't know I was having visitors today!' He called as his bunny ran into his arms as if they hadn't met for ages. He placed a kiss on her cheek and delicately brushed away the loose curls falling on her beautiful face.

'Who told you about my office?' Serkan exclaimed as he guided her to the meeting room not letting go of her from his arms even for a second.

'I wrote it down that day and asked our driver to drop me here.' She showed him the piece of parchment that had Art Life written over it. Serkan had told her about the name of his company and she must've scribbled it down.

'Your mom knows?' Serkan raised his eyebrow suspiciously knowing that this kid had a habit of hiding things from her mother.

'Would it matter if she doesn't?' She bit her lip and looked at him pleadingly to not dismiss her already.

'Bunny' Serkan looked at her admonishingly.

'She knows I'm out to meet my friend.'

'And did you tell her where was this meeting taking place?'

'Tamam, I will leave.' Serkan couldn't help but control his chuckle the way she dramatically raised her hands in the air, ready to leave his office immediately.

'Offff Drama Queen! I didn't mean that. Baby, you can't roam around Istanbul just like that.'

'I can do whatever I want to.' She replied, crossing her arms with a defiant look adorned on her face.

He had started wondering by now that how does her mother deal with this stubborn ball of sunshine. But then it hit him that just like his mother did. Needless to say, Serkan couldn't help but admit that this little ray of sunshine did remind him of his childhood version. Not all the time tho, at times she would say things that he had heard from someone he loved. For instance, his little friend had an insane obsession with flowers. She probably knew more about them than anyone else (minus the person he knew once)

That day in the park when he was about to pluck one she gave him one handful lecture on how flowers had feelings and he would've hurt this one. But apart from these little things, her stubbornness, the way she managed to make her point and argue successfully making him fall short on words was indeed a skill that only Serkan Bolat possessed.

'Hadi gel, we're going shopping.' She ordered plainly.

'Shopping?' Serkan questioned stupidly with a frown.

'It's an activity where....' She had begun to explain but Serkan instantly clicked his tongue feigning annoyance.

'I know what it is but why, where, and did you tell your mother?'

'I have to buy a present for parents' day and shushh we can't tell Anne about it.'

'And why do you think I'm going to accompany you.' He looked at her with a side glance squinting his eyes in suspicion.

'Because I'm your friend and you have no choice.'

'Hadi Hadi, we don't have much time. Mom would be returning soon. Your car or my car?'

She ranted as they made their way out and Serkan laughed at himself. He really didn't stand a chance in front of her. He nodded while following her behind, completely forgetting about the pile of work that awaited him. Serkan talked to the driver, and asked him to stay back, and checked in with her nanny, who had thankfully accompanied her. Serkan was amazed at the way this little girl has wrapped all employees around her finger. No wonder, her mother was unaware of her shenanigans outside the home. Selfishly, he wanted to spend this time with her alone so he asked both, the driver and nanny to stay at his office as he will be back pretty soon.

.....

'Strawberry shake or vanilla shake?' Serkan asked as he held her in his arms, standing in the food court.

'Vanilla! I'm allergic to strawberries' she replied

Serkan's smiled disappeared the moment he heard it. Every single day he found something about her that reminded him of himself. Though he shrugged it away, his heart was scared for the attachment that had gone far too much, and he knew this won't end well.

'I've heard strawberries are good for health but Anne says I can die if I have one. I was 3 when nanny made me eat strawberry ice cream. Anne was devastated when she carried me to the hospital. She thought I won't survive.' Serkan lovingly placed a hand on her head, knowing how crazy these allergies could get.

The glorious day ended well as they rode back to art life in Serkan's car. He was amazed that for a five-year-old she had saved enough money to buy a small present for her parents. It wasn't much but he was in awe.

'So, when is this parent's day?' He asked

'Two weeks later! I have to write a letter for baba too.' She exclaimed and Serkan could tell this parent's day meant a lot to her.

'A letter? But why' Serkan asked unable to help to hide his amazement. In his opinion, a gift should be enough for a parent especially in times like today when letters and handwritten notes do not matter.

'To tell him that I miss him. Anne says, he's working in another city. He loves me a lot but cannot come to meet us. I write him letters so when he comes back I can give it to him.' It wasn't hard to sense the sorrow in her words. She was so sure of her father's love for her but simultaneously Serkan could tell she was scared that he would never come.

'Have you ever seen him?' Serkan knew it was wrong to ask but he could not help it.

'Hayır, Anne says he'll surprise me when he returns back!

It wasn't hard for Serkan to decipher that she didn't have a father and her mother was lying. But why lie if he's dead? Or maybe he isn't? There was no place far enough to stop a father from seeing his child. He lovingly looked at his little princess and a wave of emotions swept through his heart. He felt his eyes getting moist but instantly he changed the subject.

'Looks like someone loves surprises!'

'Eveeettttt!'

As they reached Art Life, Bunny's driver was already waiting for her.

'Looks like your mum has called for you.'

'Don't worry, we aren't late, she won't be mad.' Serkan hugged her tightly. He could never understand that every single time he had to say goodbye to her, it was difficult for him. His insides would churn up and he felt like asking her to stay. Even the thought of asking her mother to let her spend a day with him was stupid but he wished that was possible.

'You're squeezing me!' His little bunny complained in annoyance.

'Özürdelerim canım benim.'

'Are we going to meet tomorrow?; She asked one last time before leaving with her nanny who was patiently waiting for her.

'Tabi canım , görüşürüz.' And she left waving him goodbye, and Serkan remained on his knees until the car wasn't out of sight. One day there won't be a tomorrow, and you won't be seeing her Serkan Bolat. What would you do then?

He didn't have an answer to that and right now he did not want to answer it. Perhaps the shadows of grimness would find him eventually.

.....................................

'You're late.' She crossed her arms as turned away her beautiful face from Serkan.

'I swear work caught me in the last moment.' He held his ear with one hand while the other was still holding a teddy bear but she shooed it away indignantly.

'Mom says the same.' Serkan pulled another stuffed toy from his back but his little bunny wasn't having any of it today. 'I hate stuff toys.' She grimaced and distanced herself from Serkan who was about to hug her this time.

'Tamam, tell me what do you love? I'll get it for you!' He asked excitedly. All this time, she hadn't asked her for anything except for making him go shopping.

'We are flying back to Italy. The day after tomorrow.' Serkan felt his world has stopped spinning the moment he heard her say that. It had been two weeks since they were constantly meeting each other in this park. For hours Serkan used to talk to his little bunny, listening to her stories, her favorite things, her secrets that she never shared with her mom, and so much more. And this all happened without knowing each other's names. Yes, it was crazy indeed. She still believed that he was a stranger and as per her mother's instructions, 'We don't tell our names to strangers.' It was hilarious because in the past few weeks she had told Serkan everything except for her name. Well, he didn't mind that. He was totally okay with calling her his bunny.

The fact that his bunny wasn't going to stay in Istanbul for long wasn't oblivious to him but wasn't it so soon!

'Already?' Serkan reckoned, unable to hide the worry on his face.

Bunny nodded sadly and placed both her hands on her chin. 'I asked mum to let me stay for few more weeks but she said it's not safe. We have to leave.'

'Will you forget me?' She asked him with brimmed eyes.

'Hey hey hey, never. How can I ever forget you? You are the best thing ever happened to me!' Serkan held her face in his big hands and wiped the tears with both thumbs.

'I don't want to leave.' She sobbed relentlessly, and Serkan felt that something inside him had died.

He had once again gotten used to innocence, warmth. He was foolish. He should have understood that love isn't for people like him. He should have understood that the universe hadn't written such things for him. They all were meant to knock at his door and leave forever with a void in his heart. Bunny had surely filled that void but now.....He could already feel the pain that her absence would inflict on his soul.

'We don't always get what we want bunny.' He placed a kiss on the back of her head while a tear escaped his eye.

'Mum says the same.'

'Tamam, no more tears. Let's meet your mum tomorrow. I've got to thank her for you and in the meantime, I'll ask her for your address in Italy. Not that I can't fly back there to meet my princess!'

She shrieked with happiness and began to jump in excitement. 'Forreal? Is that possible?'

'Anything is possible, my love' Serkan pinched her nose and placed another kiss on her forehead.

'You are forgiven but don't get late next time. I'll ask Anne to come with me to the park.!'

'What about these toys?'

'Told you, I hate stuffed toys, legos would be fine.' She shrugged carelessly, and waved him one last time, and left an amused Serkan behind, who couldn't help being amazed at himself for asking a woman about her address only to meet her daughter. This was insane. This was absolutely bizarre. And the last time he did something bizarre and insane was five years ago, for someone he loved immensely. Despite his promise to never fell in love, here he was, in love with his bunny, who had stolen his heart from the moment she called him baba.

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He had put extra attention to his attire this morning as if he was meeting some international delegate for a meeting. Well, for sure he was going for a meeting but this one wasn't professional. In his head, Serkan had planned to convince Bunny's mother to allow him to meet her once they leave for Italy. Even the very idea of it sounded bizarre, he doesn't remember being this jubilant for a child's company before. He was waiting outside the park entrance, wanting to escort both mother and daughter to a nearby cafe.

The main road was deserted except for a bicycle or two. Not much time had passed, and a white Mercedes halted on the opposite side of the road. Serkan recognized it. Plastering a huge smile on his face he waited for his guests to come out of the car. Little did he know that smile wasn't to last for long.

Followed by Serkan's little princess, a familiar figure escorted out of the car, wearing a short mint green dress, her dead straight hair riding behind her petite back, and those dark black shades hiding her face along with the bangs. Serkan's heart stopped.

Not even in a million years, he could not recognize that face.

It was her. Eda Yildiz.

After five years, they were standing across each other just like that. He could tell from the way she was struck to see him that she hadn't expected to see him there. Her kid was hovering over her to cross the road to meet her friend but Eda Yildiz had lost her consciousness. She could not believe that destiny had decided to place her back exactly where they ended everything.

Eda was so consumed in her thoughts that she didn't notice her daughter had removed her hand from her palm, and rushed towards Serkan, crossing the road in a frenzy. Instantly, they broke their eye contact and shrieked, 'NOOOOO', as a car raced into their daughter and she was rolled on the other side of the road.

Their daughter, Yes that's was the first thought.

Within a span of fewer than four minutes, Eda met Serkan, and her daughter was lying in a pool of blood.

In that one moment, Serkan that lost his entire existence. For the first time in his life, he felt that he was defeated and ironically by the woman he loved with his whole heart. They ran towards their lifeless child, and Serkan was quick to hold her in his arms. He didn't give Eda a chance to argue but to be honest she was not in the state to have one. Serkan sat in his car with Eda on his side, holding her baby.

I'll never forgive you for this Eda Yildiz. I'll never forgive you.

Eda's cries broke his trance and he was brought back to reality, the gruesome reality. He couldn't even wrap his head around the fact that he was the father of a beautiful five-year-old, the same five-year-old he had been meeting in the park over the few weeks, and now when he got to know, she was there, lying in her mother's lap drenched in blood. Serkan needed no proof or statement from Eda to know that his bunny was his child. He knew. He just knew.

That particular moment marked the beginning of Serkan's fatherhood. Putting your child before you. Serkan instantly forgot about his own pain and the betrayal and rushed to the hospital. He only had one thing on his mind, I have to save my daughter.

Eda continued to rub Maya's hands, yelping and begging her to open her eyes. Her beautiful dress was soaked in blood, she had especially worn that one because that was her friend's favorite color. Eda hadn't seen this much blood in her life, not even when she gave birth. They spent the gruesome journey to the hospital crying and praying to God to save their daughter.

Serkan halted the car at the hospital gate and turned around the car to take his daughter from Eda's arms and rushed inside, screaming for help. Gladly, the paramedics were alert and to Eda's relief, her daughter's treatment would start immediately.

They were shivering and crying silently. Serkan leaned against the window as he ran his hand in his hair. He always wanted to have a child with Eda, having a daughter who looked exactly like her mother was his dream but he never wished that it would happen like this. How was he going to survive knowing that the moment he got to know about his daughter was when she got hit by a car and was on the verge of losing her life?

A nurse came with a form and asked Serkan the most painful question.. A question that made him wish for his own death. 'What is the patient's name? Are you family?' Serkan stared at her cluelessly, his lips quivered unable to form a sentence. The nurse looked at his miserable state and felt the need to excuse herself thinking that maybe he was in intense shock to fulfill the formalities.

On the other hand, Eda could not think about anything else. Serkan knowing about their daughter was the least of her worries at the moment, and all she cared about was her daughter's life. She wanted her to recover, she wanted to see her smile and laugh at her like she always did. She wanted her daughter to be stubborn and annoy her with her antics. She just wanted her back.

Eda and Serkan rushed to the lady doctor as she came out removing her mask. 'I'm sorry Serkan Bey, it doesn't look. She has lost a lot of blood....." She paused as Eda let out a silent cry, suppressing her sobs with a hand on her mouth. "Which one of your blood matches with her? We need a blood donor instantly."

(Continued)

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As long as you are here- EdSer OS

To say that she was knackered was an understatement of the year. When did life become so hard? Or when did it refuse to fix itself? When did it vow to deny a tiny portion of tranquility in her life? It amazed her that she had not collapsed yet. The stress, the worry, the constant uncertainty of life was taking a toll on her. The two months she spent without Serkan, hanging onto the hope felt the hardest until he came back, and making him realize her love for him felt harder than that. All those hurdles made her realize that it was meant to be for a new beginning. A start for her and Serkan that meant eternal joy, and a happily ever after. But in their case, it wasn't a happily ever after. This was surely not a fairy tale as she had anticipated.

Eda was running short on deadlines. Even though she had managed Art Life without Serkan before, this time it was harder than she had thought. Serkan didn't warn her about this. Six months ago, when she learned about his tumor and decided that she won't sit idle and allow him to waste this time, she did not expect things to be this hard. News of Serkan's condition spread like a wildfire, and media houses were not taking it with empathy. How cruel one can be in the name of few clicks? Their rivals were looming around, seeking a chance to grab whatever they had. They left no chance in financially destabilizing their business empire, and if wasn't for Kemal Bey's help, Eda did not know, how she would have tackled it with a right mind, while constantly juggling between home, hospital, and office.

They had lost two important clients, and this did not settle well with Serkan. Nothing was settling well with him ever since his treatment started and Eda coerced him to stay home. He had accused her of keeping him caged so he dies fast. It hurt her of course, but she knew he was too frustrated with the things going on that at times he did not realize what came out of his mouth. Eda did not know what was more difficult, managing the holding or its Boss? Anyhow, both one thing in common. They were nearly impossible to deal with sometimes. She knew it was wrong to complain like this but sometimes, sometimes we are tired of everything that it is okay to spare a thought and be mad at things and people, even if it isn't justified.

It was a long day, and she was looking forward to his warm embrace after a dreadful day at work. Though she hadn't lost any clients this time, she had lost some important employees because they did not feel like working under the incompetency of Eda Yildiz. According to them, their abilities weren't being utilized well, and it was better to leave. What hurts the most was that they felt that their boss was never gonna come back. They had worked under her before, but this time it was different. This time Eda knew that she wasn't at her best. This time she would find herself breaking down in some corner of the office, reaching late for meetings, struggling to make the right decision, unable to meet the demands of their workers, lacking logical thinking because every single time, 24/7 the only thing looming on her mind was Serkan.

The man she loved.

Three months back, doctors had completely given up the hope that he would recover. She even feared to think of the words they had uttered. But she never lost hope. She knew God won't be so cruel to her this time. She knew faith is to keep going. So she did. She kept going, holding Serkan's hand, asking him to trust her, so they can cross this hurdle together.

'Do you trust me?' She had asked him one day

More than myself."

'then trust me one last time, and be with me on this journey. Serkan, we never gave up on ourselves then why should we now? "

That day, as scared as he was today, or probably more, Serkan held Eda Yildiz' hand to embark on another crusade. This was a difficult one, and they both knew in heart that it might not lead them anywhere. Yet, they did believe in each other, prayed intently for another miracle. A miracle was all they needed in life.

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"Hey Honey! I am home" Eda entered the apartment announcing her arrival while wiping the tear from the crook of her eye, wearing the mask that she normally did around him.

She got a bit paranoid when she didn't hear him say anything back and dropped her bag to look for him but she wasn't met by a pleasant sight. This was lowkey expected because it had become a routine now. Eda knew what was coming so she braced herself.

Serkan was lying on the couch, with his laptop on his knees, wearing a scorned expression. It was not hard to tell that he was still mad at her. This morning, they argued about him going back to the office but she denied it, fearing that the stress was not good for him, and it seemed that he had not taken that well. Like a little boy mad at his parents, Serkan Bolat was on his laptop unbothered by Eda's presence. Eda attempted to decrease the tension of the environment by embracing him from behind and nibbling his ear.

"Hey, baby! What is that has caught your eye that you can't even say Hi." She uttered suggestively, wishing that her touch would have a similar effect on him as it did before. Hoping that this evening won't be ruined with another fight.

Eda began to nibble onto his nape and settled on the couch to take his lips but Serkan did not react or even bother to say a single word. He continued to stare at the laptop screen and jerked off her arms around his neck twitching his tongue.

"Grow up Eda. I'm working." He registered icily.

"Uh Hunh, what is it?" She wasn't going to allow him to break her. She knew he tried hard to dissuade her with his words and behavior but she knew she won't allow that to happen even if it cost her own self-respect.

"Why? You think I don't have my own work to do just because I'm sitting idle at home?" There we go. He started again. Eda saw it coming the moment she left for home but she hadn't prepared herself already.

"I did not mean that." She tried to soothe him by running a hand on his arm but Serkan jerked it off.

"Did you have your medicines?"

"I'm not a kid Eda, for the love of God, stop treating me like one. I know I have to take those good-for-nothing meds to hover around you for the next few months." He yelled throwing away the laptop from her knees.

"Serkan, please calm down. What is it?" Eda tried to calm him down with an assertive tone, running her hands on his face, wishing that he would remember that she still loves him, more than he could even imagine. "What's wrong? We can fix this."

"Fix this? Is there anything left to fix? Why can't you accept the fact that you can't fix everything? You can't fix me! You can't fix the mess at the office. You can't fix the whole world Eda Yildiz." He was screaming, words and tears coming out of his eyes like a bow from an arrow. He was mad, he was furious that he had to switch between home and office, leaving everything behind, staying oblivious to things for a future that was not certain. He hated it. He was ready to die but he did not want to die like this. He did not know why he was mad. He did not care much about the holding yet he was concerned about the way things were being handled. He heard from leyla about the blunders, and even if Eda did not agree, he knew Art Life was going to collapse along with the holding. But this was just a reason to get mad, a reason he found himself to lash at her. In reality, he was tired. He was no longer willing to hold Eda's hand and continue this journey. And it pained him that she was bearing the burnt because of him. Instead of using the best years of her life, she was wasting them after a man, whose existence was in question. He knew his words were harsh, they made him hate himself. He wished Eda would realize that she was fighting a lost battle. His behavior was an attempt to push her away from him. Every day he would do something anticipating that she will leave him, and that would be enough to kill him instead of his brain tumor.

Eda continued to stare at him with brimmed eyes. "Good night Serkan."

She was not going to fight him. She had stopped doing so because she knew what he was doing and it was useless to say anything. All she was did was hope and pray that he would understand she wasn't happy to put them through this.

................................................................................

"Hey, what happened?" Eda opened her eyes as she felt his fingers trailing across her cheeks.

"Sorry, I woke you up." He mumbled with a shaking voice. His eyes were red and it seemed he had been crying. again

"Serkan?" Eda let out a silent cry, her heart tearing apart seeing him in that state. He had lost a considerable amount of weight in the last 6 months, Gym was out of the question, his beard was grown, and he did not look anything like the Serkan she knew.

"Why are you still here?" he asks her with a staggering voice

"because we don't leave the ones we love." She ran her fingers in his hair as he rested his head in her lap.

"Would you forgive me?" he implores in between sobs, soaking her beige nightdress with tears.

"What makes you think I won't?"

"I can't recognize myself, Eda. I'm not the man you fell in love with."

"I only need to recognize this." She placed a gentle hand on his heart and he looked at her on the verge of another breakdown.

"I love you."

"And I love you more than you can imagine."

"I hate this."

"Me too."

"Will this get over?"

"It will. Just like the way you came back to me before, you would too this time as well."

"how do you know?"

"I'm a fairy, you remember that right?" They chuckled amidst their cries. "I know we have a lifetime to spend together."

"Eda, I'm sorry. This treatment, this whole thing is killing me inside. I don't know what gets onto me sometimes and I forget who am I."

"I know baby, I know. You need not explain." Eda placed a long kiss on his hair, urging him to join her in the bed. She missed him, she missed his embrace more than anything.

"Serkan, promise me you will make up for this once this is over."

"Promise." He looked at her as his mouth fells to hers. His teeth sinking into her lower lip until she moaned. His hands rove over her thighs, continuing pressing warm, sensuous kisses along her lips and down her neck. His fingers dragged her nightdress until it hit the bottom. He nibbles his way up her legs, pausing to give her calves and thighs a little extra attention. Then his hands spread her knees and he settles between them, his mouth hovering over her sex as he spreads the wet folds apart before diving into feast on her. It doesn't take him long to have Eda writhing and screaming in pleasure. She nearly comes when his tongue laps at her entrance before delving in to lick her dry. She grabs onto clumps of his hair for purchase, needing that anchor to keep herself from falling over the edge too soon, but it doesn't work. When his fingers replace his tongue as it moves to her clit, it's over. She comes with a startled cry as her orgasm rips through her quickly and suddenly. Her entire body shakes to the core and she has to push Serkan away because she can't handle any more stimulation at that moment.

He still ends up on top of her though, his arms wrapping around her back to hold her against his chest until her breathing evens out and she feels normal again. "Fuck," Eda murmurs into his ear before taking the lobe into her mouth to give it a gentle suck before letting go. She feels Serkan shiver in response, his arms tightening around her waist. He buries his face in the crook of her neck, breathing in deep. Her back arches up off the bed, taking him in to the hilt as she cries out in pure ecstasy. Then he's pounding into her, his pace hard and fast and relentless, giving her no respite as he fucks her to oblivion. She begins to see stars when she squeezes her eyes shut, letting the sensations overtake her. Nothing matters at that moment aside from him giving her everything she wants and more.

Due to the pent-up frustration in him, he feels the need to release right now. And when he finally does, it's like a dam breaking. He loses his rhythm, his hips slamming into her erratically, and he cries out her name before his head drops to the crook of her neck and he bites down, leaving yet another bruise on her skin. Her muscles clench around his cock, milking him until he has nothing left to give, and they both slump into the bedsheets, sated and spent. "God, I love you so much," he whispers into her ear without raising his head. Eda smiles.

"Don't ever stop loving me. I won't be able to breathe." She whispers back nuzzling his cheek before pressing a soft kiss to his temple. They lay like that for a while, holding each other in a warm embrace until Serkan rolls them onto their sides. He's smiling that beautiful, warm, gentle smile she's come to realize only comes out for her, and she can't help it. Her lips press to his for a soft kiss before she pulls back.

"Eda, I'm scared." He admits truthfully.

"Me too. But we can't let our fears take over our happiness, right?" He gleams at him caressing his thighs with her delicate fingers.

"I abhor walking through those hospital corridors, and seeing that expression on your face." He was letting it out, finally. And she couldn't be more relieved.

"We will be walking through those corridors one last time, and returning back with good news to share with our friends. Tamam?"

He didn't need to say anything. He pressed his forehead with hers, basking in the glory of her warmth and love for the rest of the night. While whispered sweet words of love, he let out a prayer, pleading to God to give him one last chance to make up for the times he had hurt her. He wanted to survive, he wanted to live for her.

Crucial times test your love more than anything

It's okay to breakdown

It's okay to be mad

But it's never okay to leave the ones you promised a lifetime.

Gif credits: photogrfya on tumblr

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Edser Drabble - Morning Blues

Eda pulled Serkan in for another kiss before he could protest. They'd spent that entire dark and stormy Monday morning in bed, finding it a better place to be than anywhere else.

"We can be an hour late," she murmured against his lips.

"I thought you said I had a meeting this morning," Serkan replied before his hands roamed down her bareback, giving her bottom a light squeeze. She sucked on his lower lip, nipping it lightly, then let it go and answered, "I always schedule them for ten or later. It's only..." Her voice trailed off as she glanced over at the clock on her nightstand. "Seven. We still have a good hour and a half to have a little fun."

"What did you have in mind?" he asked, his fingers tracing along her hairline, brushing her hair strands out of her face so he could stare up at her from where he lay nestled beneath her naked body. A smile lit up her face and Serkan swore it made the room seem brighter. That's what her smiles did to him. They made him feel light as if the weight of the world didn't rest on his shoulders. He made it his silent mission to make her smile like that every morning. It was a better way to start the day than coffee.

"I have a craving for my French toast," Eda giggled sheepishly. he countered before rolling on top of her to capture her lips once more. Her giggles died in her throat as his mouth swept over hers, his tongue demanding entry until she relented. Its gentle caress soon had her moaning, but Eda pushed against his chest, forcing them apart before he could go any further.

"If you keep that up, Serkan, you might actually miss your meeting," she warned him. "Hadi, let's get ready and head out for some breakfast." When he gave her that soft pout and those sad puppy dog eyes, Eda added, "I promise I'll make it up to you tonight. Maybe we could indulge that fantasy you still owe me."

"Which one is that?" Serkan replied.

"I think tonight would be a fun night to have sex in the executive elevator," she answered. When he gave her that devilish grin and leaned down to kiss her once more, she stopped him with a hand on his chest. "Ah-ah! Breakfast first!"

"Ugh, you and food," Serkan groaned as he rolled off her and landed on the floor beside her bed like an angry panther. "You're lucky I like this place just as much as you do."

"Shut up and go shower so I have time to take one too." Eda shooed him towards the door as she picked up their clothes and laid them out on her bed then grabbed her robe, throwing it over her shoulders and tying it at the front.

"You know it'd be faster if we just showered together," he replied, his arms wrapping around her waist. He pulled her into the warmth of his embrace and stole a kiss before she was shoving him off again, this time forcibly pushing him towards the door.

"And you know that's not going to happen," she said, her hands falling to her hips once he turned around to face her.

"It did once." Serkan gave her one of his best sly smiles in hopes of getting her to relent one more time.

Instead, Eda rolled her eyes. "Yeah, once, because I was exhausted. Now go shower! I'm hungry!" She practically kicked him out the door towards the bathroom before shutting it behind him.

"Alright, alright!" Serkan grumbled, finally giving up on one more romp in the sack that morning.

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scintilla of love - EdSer Oneshot

Summer House

Their first time. It was memorable. It was special. It always will be.

Eda’s heart skipped a beat when Serkan called her to meet him at the summer house. She almost thought that he remembered everything but no. He didn’t sound like her Serkan. There was something odd with his voice but she could tell he wasn’t back.

Eda anticipated his reason to call her throughout her way from home to their summer house.

Did he know he gifted her the house right after their first time?

What if he called her to ask it back?

Serkan had been so rude and cruel that she could expect anything from him. She couldn’t understand how his behavior varied from time to time. One moment he would be reminding her of Old Serkan, the one she fell for. She would feel hope that maybe his memory is coming back. But the very next moment he would be uttering those words that pierced her soul like a poisonous dagger.

Was he cruel enough to take away all memories back?

But he returned the ring to her

He hugged Selin in front of you Eda, He said that she is his sunshine

But you were his fairy.

Not anymore.

STOP OVERTHINKING.

She tried to force herself that Serkan had called her for work but this sounded quite wrong, to call your business partner at a secluded place.

Anyhow, Eda reached the Summer House, bracing herself for what was yet to come.

*****

“Serkan!” Eda shrieked in panic. This isn’t what she expected. Of all the assumptions she made, this was not in her mind. He was sitting on the sofa, injured; his hands were bleeding and it seemed that he had hit himself on his head.

She rushed towards him and held his face in her hands.

His eyes.

Eda winced, what happened Serkan. What is this all about?”

He looked at her apologetically, he had been crying for sure. He never cried. The last time he cried was when his brother died but not after that.

Even Eda knew that it was rare for Serkan to shed a tear especially because he told her once that she filled his life with so much happiness that he could not bring himself to think about anything worse.

“Why are you sitting like this, why haven’t you put an ointment? Serkan I’m so done with you being so careless about everything. I thought you were the hypochondriac one here.” her outburst was rapid, and she was this close to having a panic attack. Ever since his plane accident, Eda became even more paranoid about his health .

Why wasn’t he saying something

“Hadi, get up, you must be in pain.”

“Not as much as you.” he whispered, almost inaudible. She looked at him disbelievingly. For sure, he hadn’t remembered anything yet because otherwise she would have known.

What was it then? What happened?

“Serkan, we will talk about this later on, tamam mi? Come on now, You’re bleeding for God’s sake.”

He held her fingers possessively, and Eda’s heart almost stopped beating. He was in pain. Something had happened and he had-

Did he

“SERKAN, did you hurt yourself on purpose, you-”

“Yok” He shook his head immediately. “I wasn’t in my senses while coming here and had a minor accident. Trust me, it wasn’t intentional.”

Eda tried to read his expressions. But all she could decipher was pain.

“Would you ever be able to forgive me?” “Not as someone whom you loved but just as a human?”

“Serkan what you’re scaring me please tell me what happened”

He sighed a long heavy breath.

“Selin was the first friend I ever had, even before Engin, Piril and Sirius. We were family friends, She was always around. When my brother died, the only person who ensured to remain in contact was Selin. She was my friend and a confidant. She knew me. And I always trust her. Just like we would trust someone we know since childhood. I would never doubt her. Never. Maybe, this is exactly why I decided to call her when I opened my eyes in hospital that day. It wasn’t my mother or my father because they were the ones who had abandoned me, once. It wasn’t Engin or any other friend because that moment in the hospital, I felt exactly like the day my parents had sent me to boarding school. I don’t know if I ever told you, but Selin was the only one who remained in contact with me when I was at my boarding school . She was the one who bothered to ask me how I was.-”

“Serkan,, why are you telling this” Eda whispered in concern.

She was not bothered by whatever he said, she knew most of it. She knew Selin had been an important part of his life.

She knew he had never loved her but she was a significant person who once helped him escape his traumas. Eda wanted him to stop because it was painful for him to revive those memories. She knew he always disliked talking about those days spent right after his brother’s death, in that school, away from his parents.

“Hear me out Eda, you need to know. I don’t know why but you should know that the Serkan who forgot about your existence called Selin only because he trusted her enough.”

“I know, you don’t have to tell me about this. Serkan, we need to-”

“I’m your delinquent.”

“Serkan, I never blamed you for forgetting me. You had an accident, trust me not even for once I held you accountable. Forgetting me, forgetting us wasn’t in your hands. Yes, I am mad at you, you rile me up with your antics because you haven’t been trying to remember anything, In fact you- you.” She stopped, unable to finish her sentence. It might’ve been wrong to say it right now. She had saved this conversation for some other day.

“I hurt you. Intentionally. Eda, I knew what I was doing. It was insensitive, barbaric and utterly ruthless of me to stick to selin when I knew that you were in love with, when I knew that I had left you few hours before our wedding.”

“I’ll never be able to forgive myself for that.”

Eda remained numb, he had said what was in her heart all this time. But wasn’t she doing the same?

“I know your decision to get engaged to Selin was as impulsive as mine, Serkan.”

“And I know both of us tried to get close to our fiancé’s only to spite each other.” “You were doing it for love, but I- I was just being a dick.”

“Why does it matter Serkan? What happened and what has changed?”

“Everything.”

“Tonight- I got to know that the friend I had trusted since childhood, the one I thought would never deceive me has been responsible for everything”

“i don’t understand”

“I had been following the medicine prescribed by Selin’s doctor. He was the one looking after me ever since she rescued me from the hospital. It was until today that I somehow felt the need to go to another doctor, something didn’t feel right. I had been having these flashbacks but the doctor and selin didn’t correspond. And turns out my medicines have been tampered”

“You are still on medication?!” She gasped

“Evet. There are things I cant do and I need to take double dosage to work properly.”

“Why would she do that? I mean of course she wants you back, but why continue the fake meds when your memory isn’t coming back anyways?”

“Thats the thing, it is coming back or more precisely I have been having flashbacks. Selin knew. I told her. Bak Eda I’m sorry for-”

“Serkan, I’m not expecting you to come to me and telling me about those flashbacks anyways.”

“Eda, I know I have a lot to do, I have to make it up to you, not as the man you loved but as someone you knew, as a human. Because what I did, what I have been doing was inhumane. I had no right to hurt you like this.” “For now, all that’s on my mind is that we need to avenge her. I am not letting her get away with this easily, she had no right to ruin our lives.”

They looked at each other with longing . Eda felt close to him yet distanced. She wanted him back , she wanted him to love her like before but for now this was important. Selin has crossed her limits this time and she would not let her ruin their lives anymore.

“I’m with you in this- together.” She smiled at him and held his hand in hers . Serkan impulsively rubbed his index on her star.

For the first time in months they saw some hope. A hope to fix everything.

“Btw why did you go to Dilek Hanim again?” She asked while tending to his bruises

He blushed and wished that Eda wouldn’t notice. “Heart burn” he paused

“It isn’t serious, she said I need to take my vitamins properly”

Eda smirked sheepishly. “I get it . You’ve had those heartburns before. Not a big deal, we’ll fix it too.”

He did not know what she mean but whatever it was both knew it had to do something with her. His mind forgot but his heart couldn’t.

When you are left with nothing

It’s love that calls us back

It’s love that puts you at sleep

It’s love that brings you comfort

When you are defeated it’s love that means everything

Thus, we never give up on people we love

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Finding us- EdSer one shot

If he had any doubts before, this incident cleared them altogether. Eda Yildiz had not only taken over his holding and life but his dog as well. He couldn't come to terms with the fact that his best friend, his dog, whom he had brought up since he was a baby, had turned his back on him. Ever since he proposed to Selin, Eda had asked Seyfi bey to get Sirius back to Bolat place. Not that she didn't love him anymore, she found it appropriate that the dog was returned to his rightful owner. She didn't wish anymore for Serkan to treat her worse, if fate planned, his memories will come back otherwise she was not going to desperately beg him to choose her over Selin. It wasn't about pride. Her love was much more than self-respect. She realized that Serkan was scared of her because she managed to strike chords of his heart that were nonexistent for him. If she pushed him further, if she hovered over his head, he would be irked and god forbid if something serious happened to his health, she won't be able to forgive herself.

Sirius wasn't home, this was twice in the last three days that he had managed to escape. Serkan's pride was too much to call Eda and ask her to pay a visit to Sirius. Usually, he came back wagging his tail, it wasn't hard to spot him around but this time Serkan panicked. He checked the entire neighborhood and every possible place where Sirius could've gone. He had lost his memories; he couldn't afford to lose him.

"Where are you oğlum ?" He drove across the seats of Istanbul in apprehension. His heart skipped a beat thinking of a much worse possibility. Sirius wasn't among those dogs who get along with people, forget strangers.

What if somebody tried to harm him?

It wasn't hard to come across such crackheads, who would hurt animals for their pleasure.

"Alo" Serkan answered his phone in panic upon seeing Eda's name on the screen. She was going to chide him enough for being so careless.

As if he wasn't to be blamed in her eyes already

"No need to wander around the streets, Sirius is with me. I'm sending you the location. Hadi gel." Her voice was devoid of any emotions, she didn't let him speak and hung up asap.

Did he make a mistake?

What was this place? And why would Sirius come here? He wondered while climbing the steps of the apartment. He entered and found a wounded Sirius lying in Eda's lap. He was asleep, and Eda was caressing his head.

"SIRIUS!" He cried in panic, and Eda glared at him for being so loud.

"Shhhh you're gonna wake him."

'What happened?" He asked incredulously. Sitting beside Eda, caressing his only best friend with affection.

"I think he ran from your place - to find me. He would've expected me to be at the park. Few children hit him there. Thankfully, I was there for a walk and spotted him immediately."

"What park? I checked all places where he could be."

"There are places that became Sirius's preference, if not yours." She rolled her eyes

"Anyways Serkan, tell me in all honesty, can you take care of him or not? I can't risk his life like this."

He was about to fight back with a 'he's my dog' but he knew that would've turned into a nasty conversation. He owed a thank you to Eda.

"Teşekkürler Eda."

Eda looked at him plainly. It was hurting him to see her eyes without that love he was used to seeing ever since he came back. Why was it bothering him? He pushed her away, that's what he wanted.

"You stay with him tonight. He needs to rest."

"What is this place?" Serkan asked

"Home." She sighed in reverence. "I mean your home, you shifted here."

"Neden."

"I'll leave that story for your fiancé to tell after all she had been telling you everything, and you only believe her."

Eda picked her bag and stood up. "There's food in the fridge. Sirius's food is by the coffee table. And- your room is upstairs." She seemed in a hurry. He felt she was only telling him this to fulfill an obligation. He could feel her restless. But why? He had no idea

Serkan examined his room carefully. He was amazed Selin hadn't told him about moving out. The bedroom screamed that he was in a relationship with her Eda Yildiz.

Yok, the bed was made and broken lamps were fixed.

It had their memories. Her memories and belongings. Belongings that he would've never allowed in his premises.

Her clothes and undergarments were piled up along his. Her toothbrush and other toiletries were neatly placed in the bathroom. It didn't seem that they were placed there recently.

A weird sensation was pulling him towards those things. He ran his fingers through her belongings, having flashbacks. They were vivid.

For the first time, he heard her cackling voice too. It was blurry but even his bones could tell that they were in bed, and – he was doing things to make her laugh.

It can't be me

He shook his head in denial.

Serkan opened a drawer and found a USB. It wasn't the USB that grabbed his attention but the flower and note attached to it. That was his handwriting

"For us to remember all the good times- just in case."

***

"Serkannn!! Would you stop? Look at my state." A sleepy yet annoyed Eda shrieked at Serkan, who was prolly filming a video. He chuckled at her words, not paying attention to whatever she said.

"Eda I know how you look like without clothes." She threw a pillow at his head, and the video disrupted. "Watch out!"

"Are you filming us naked in bed?"

"Hayır, I'm filming this for us to remember that you can't stay mad at me for long." He replied in amusement. This was one of those nights when she had been mad at him but they made out in less than a moment.

"You think too highly of yourself Serkan bolat."

"I've got the brightest star for myself. Shouldn't I?"

"Can you stop this? I have to get up Serkan!"

"How about first you record a message for an 80-year-old Eda, who might've forgotten me?"

"How are you sure that it can't be you."

"I love you way too much to forget you. More than you could. We can bet on that." He winked at her shamelessly

"Tamam." She wasn't going to fight him on this. Eda moved forward cautiously wrapping her naked self with the duvet and kissed Serkan on the tip of his nose.

"This message is for old, yet madly in love Mr. and Mrs. Bolat! No matter how hard the times are, no matter how grave misunderstandings can be, no matter how bleak the road of hope is, we will find our way back, together."

"Always." He said with a smile and pulled her into a kiss. The video was for them so it didn't matter if it was all being recorded in that state.

***

We don't choose our parents, we don't choose our family, and at times life doesn't allow us to choose our partner as well. He would've never in his right mind made an illogical choice of falling for Eda Yildiz.

Yet he did

Did he make a mistake?

Because all that he had given her in this relationship was pain, so far.

The video brought back a bunch of memories. Their first kiss, first fight, first night, and the last goodbye.

Serkan was mercilessly driving on the empty roads of Istanbul. It was raining heavily and he was drenched. This rain could've made him sick, terribly

But did he even care anymore?

He had hurt the most important person in his life. He ruined everything

How could he forget her of all people? Serkan always claimed to love Eda more than she could. His love was fragile

He sobbed mercilessly, wishing to hit the car somewhere and end this pain. Events of the past few weeks circulated in front of his eyes. The way he was indifferent towards her. The way he resisted her touch and broke her heart all over again.

I never deserved her

He smacked his head against the steering wheel. His tears blocked his vision and he had no idea that he was driving beyond the speed limit with an absolutely insane state of mind.

Suddenly it grew all dark. He couldn't see anything. It felt that the steering wheel was moving in its own direction

All he could hear was noise. Eda's cries and his broken promises.

He was sitting in the police station absentmindedly. Eda was completing the formalities. They hadn't had any eye contact so far else he would've started crying right there. She took him by his arm as if he was lifeless.

"Serkan noldu? You were absolutely fine when I left." She asked him apprehensively, careful not to touch him. "Do you want me to call someone? Selin-"

She stopped immediately. He looked at her for the first time.

The gaze

Eda caught her breath. It was him.

It was really him

She knew that man

Those eyes, they weren't of a stranger. Those eyes recognized her, and she had seen love for her in them. But why was she seeing something stronger than love right now? Anguish

"Serkan!" She gasped unbelievingly. Her hands wrapped around his face possessively as if he'd leave this time if she didn't hold him tight

"I-" he was struggling with words. Should he tell her how scared he was when the pilot told them that the plane was going to crash? How he cursed himself for leaving her behind? Or how much he loves her? Where do I begin

Eda sobbed with happiness. She did not know what to say anymore. He was there, right in front of her. Her Serkan. Her robot bolat

The man who loved her

They were sitting at the shore. Looking blankly at the sea. The waves were calm but their hearts weren't. He had held her hand, and the grip was so strong that it was hurting her a bit but she didn't complain۔

"Eda" he broke the silence

"I don't even have words to ask for your forgiveness. I made another mistake, I broke your heart once again, didn't fulfill my promise, and became the reason for your tears." He was stuttering۔ words weren't leaving his mouth easily whereas Eda kept on looking at him with tears in her eyes

"What I did in the last few weeks can't be forgiven. I've hurt you. I won't beg you to return back to me. I can't make mistakes repeatedly and expect you to stand by the road waiting for me. I-" He stopped and his voice broke further

"Eda you might not want me back in your life but can you please forgive me? One last time? I won't be able to live with the fact that you hate me. Just don't hate me please"

He was begging her, his hands joined together in front of her pleading for forgiveness. His eyes were screaming in pain. He won't be able to bear that hate in this heart. If she stopped caring for him, he won't even bat an eye, but accepting the fact that she despises him? Serkan Bolat would die.

He knew he was being selfish. Yet again, he was thinking of himself. But he was selfish, he never deserved someone as selfless as Eda Yildiz. He disgraced their love, he ruined their relationship, and now if she wished to discontinue this fragile relationship, he won't subject.

"I failed our love Eda. I failed you." She could tell that he was not able to breathe properly. Eda's heart sunk the moment he adjoined his hands in front of her. With each pleading, it felt as if someone was squeezing her heart mercilessly.

"Fate failed us Serkan." She sniffed between her sobs. Her hands cupped his face immediately. She wanted to protect him, she wanted to curl his masculine self among her soft frame. She wished to provide him that comfort and safety his heart seek for the last few months.

He was asking her to forgive him. He feared that she hated him now. How could she?

Serkan had become more than a partner for her, he was a part of her. We don't detach ourselves from what lies within us.

He looked at her disbelievingly. Eda wiped his face with her palms. No more crying. They had enough, more than enough. The pain they had endured was enough for a lifetime.

"We'll leave. Somewhere far away, nobody could find us. Away from this mess, this hate, this chaos. Serkan we have each other. We are not going to let them ruin our happiness."

Was she for real?

"Tamam?" Eda pestered. He nodded in return, unable to say something.

"Seni cok seviyorum." Serkan mumbled only for her to hear as she adorned his face with delicate kisses.

"I have so much to tell you." She sighed in between.

"Where are you taking us?" He did not know why he was asking this. It didn't matter, the question came out of his mouth involuntarily.

"We are going to look for phoenixes." He did not know what that meant but he need not ask. As long as she was there, he didn't have to worry about anything. Eda embraced him protectively like a child. He was in his safe haven.

He was finally saved from the crash.

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Surrendered/ edser TS- continued

Humans should never be blamed for what their heart refuses to believe. It isn't in their hands to blindly trust everything and everyone. Someone whose life was chaotic did not deserve to be pushed more. We don't punish the ones we love.

"You're giving up on him Dada?" Melo had asked naively.

"Never. I'm giving him that space and time which he deserves." Eda's decision to leave Istanbul wasn't out of impulse. It was purely out of her selfless love for him.

"He wouldn't have left you if he was at your place, Eda." Ceren tried to coerce her friend one last time.

"Biliyorum, but I'm not Serkan. I love him, I love him more than anything therefore, I know that the Serkan standing in front of me does not need me." It was futile to explain to her friends what this meant. Not that she hadn't tried to win his trust, not that she had given up on their love. It was just that she could not see him in pain anymore. Her friends didn't notice the restlessness in his eyes, they did not know about the battles going on between his heart and mind, they had been crushing him, and she feared his breaking down more than hers. She had seen it in his eyes, and she feared he won't be able to take it anymore. She feared that he won't be able to take the load of their past and present. The damage was done already. She hadn't gifted her man to Selin, she had only given their fate a chance to work out this mess all by itself. It was getting hard for her to bear everything anyway. She could not breathe around him, without thinking about her secrets, without breaking down on the very thought of what could have had been.

The decision to start a new life in Paris proved to be a great one. It was much needed for someone like her who barely got space to mourn.

He would have loved it here.

Yes, she hadn't stopped thinking about him. Why would she? Realistically speaking, there weren't any hard feelings between them in the first place. Eda knew that she couldn't hate Serkan. Whatever that had happened between them was no one's fault. His amnesia had nothing to do with him. He hadn't hurt her despite Selin's manipulation. Minus the heartbreak that followed, she was not going to hold him accountable for anything that happened in their lives.

Things she expected from him were the ones that would've been fulfilled by the man she loved, not the one who pulled a fake engagement stunt with her.

Happiness isn't always meant to knock on our doors, the way we want.

There was nothing and no one to forgive, besides Selin. It hurt her that he believed her but Eda had to tell herself that the Serkan, who showed up after 2 months did not remember her, he did not remember them.

There is more to life Eda Yildiz. Love isn't everything. You have a long way to go.

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At the end of the day, fate is all we have to blame. Sometimes, we are not having control over our decisions or the way life works. If Serkan had, he would have never wanted things to work the way they did now. He would have never wanted to see her cry. He would have done everything in his power to ensure her happiness.

Then why didn't he do that when he had the chance?

Was he too convinced by Selin?

Did he doubt her heart when everything was crystal clear?

Maybe he was confused and shocked.

Maybe he was too scared to accept that he had become something that he could never imagine.

His entire existence had been a question mark for the last eight months. When Selin found him at one of the hospitals in Italy, he wondered that nothing could go worse than this. He was lying lifeless on the bed, unable to move, devoid of memories, struggling to come to terms with what had happened.

Luckily, he survived that nightmare. Selin had helped him get better. He didn't want his parents to worry about him thus, he decided to keep this news in wraps. Selin and Serkan had mutually decided to reveal the truth after he had recovered from the shock.

She had told him strange things, how he signed a contract with Eda to get her back, how Eda manipulated him and changed him as a person. She told him that Eda was responsible for all mishaps in his life. And all of this was a plan. Her plan to avenge the death of her parents. Her grandmother was involved, and when Semiha hanim couldn't destroy him, she planned this accident but fortunately, he survived. Eda was already having half of the shares, and now with Serkan's death, she was going to take over the holding.

If she really loves you why hasn't she made any attempts to find you Serkan?

Where is she?

Serkan believed whatever he was told but after coming back to Art Life, he kept on struggling with his feelings. His eyes deceived the truths he was told about. Six months that he spent with Eda, breathing the same air as hers made him realize that she was anything but treacherous.

She loved him.

She wanted him back.

But did he want her back?

He had been lying to himself. He was 100% attracted to her but equally scared to accept that.

Too many thoughts, too many fears, he didn't have the courage to ask any of the questions that were in his mind. Maybe that's why she gave up on him, maybe that's why she chose to hide the truth. The truth that matters.

He was afraid to ask. It had been three weeks since he heard her conversation with Erdem, and he hadn't been at peace. He was not going to doubt for a second that the child wasn't his. He didn't bother to ask Erdem about it. Eda decided to hide the truth from him, she had the right to tell him about him.

Did he know about her pregnancy before the accident? If yes, then he will never be able to forgive himself. How could he forget the most important thing in this world? How could Eda forgive him for this? She must hate him. She should.

He was flying to Paris, unaware of the conversation he was going to have. What would he say? Hi Eda, I heard your and Erdem's conversation, so you were pregnant with my child but had a miscarriage, do you mind sharing some details?

He couldn't be this insensitive. She must've gone through hell and the fact that she hid it from everyone until now spoke volumes. Yet, they had to talk.

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"What the hell!" She gasped in shock to find him standing at her door. She peeked at the sides, just in case Selin was with him, and they came here to kick her out of this apartment. On paper, it still belonged to Serkan Bolat and Eda Yildiz. Selin's influence might push him to do the deed. She could do anything and Serkan couldn't be trusted anymore.

"Hi." Serkan replied half-amused, half confused. What was she looking at? What if she didn't allow me to enter inside? I don't even have an excuse

"Napiyosun Burda"

"Is this how you greet your guests?" he took off his glasses and smiled back at her.

Eda sighed heavily, where are your manners, Ms. Yildiz. She gestured for him to come inside.

"So, what is it?" She asked, handing him a glass of water. He was sitting on the couch, staring at the walls. They were a reflection of his personality and Eda's heart. A mere look at the apartment registered the fact that it was designed by him, and Eda added her touches.

He could identify his work really well. His eye spotted the multiple photo frames. He didn't remember them either. Eda noticed that and became nervous. She hadn't removed or made any changes. Their photographs as decided were still hanging there. She could not dare. Memories aren't meant to be discarded whenever we want.

"I didn't expect you to be here else-" She hesitated.

"It's okay. I'm sorry if you thought-" He stopped, embarrassed for making her feel that way. He wanted to tell her that she need not feel bad about anything. "Actually, I missed Sirius." he blurts instantly to cover up the tension that brewed between them.

"Benimle dalga mı geçiyorsun?" She exasperated. "Serkan! You can't come to my house whenever you miss Sirius." She made sense. Of all the things that had changed in their lives, it included Sirius's preferences as well. He was happy to have Serkan in his life again, but somehow, he refused to stay with him. He'd refuse to eat and drink if Eda wasn't around. It felt as if he didn't recognize the Serkan, who was not in love with Eda Yildiz.

Therefore, they decided that Sirius would stay with Eda, wherever she was. It did pain Eda because she knew Sirius meant everything to him. And without Sirius, Serkan was left with no one. He can have Selin. She made a mental note but she knew that was her being petty and nothing else.

"I'm sorry. I just-"

"It's okay, I understand but you could've at least informed me that you're coming to see him." Eda blinked in confusion, waiting for his reply but he seemed fazed. He was acting strange, just like the day he came to Art Life.

"It's strange that my dog loves you more than me."

"Serkan- you have no idea what he went through when you were not there for two months. We suffered together, you can't blame him or anyone."

Serkan sighed, staring at her incredulously. He did not know how to muster the courage and ask her about that one thing she hadn't told him. Maybe she thinks that I'm not worthy of it.

"Eda...I- I came to ask you something."

"Harika! Now you're on track, I knew something's off. Listen if it's about this apartment then there's no way I'm giving it to you or Selin." She blurted out in a speed, and he felt the urge to shut her up with a kiss.

"EDA , When was the last time you listened to me properly?" He stressed. "I need to talk to you about something else but can you please stop imagining things." He snapped.

"Tamam. I'll get you something to eat."

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They had been stealing glances for the last half an hour. Eda had prepared him salmon, while she treated herself with spaghetti. She was not even going to convince him to have some this time. It felt awkward.

"How's your job?" How hard it could be to get to the point Serkan Bolat.

"Great, Paris did me good. I'm loving it here." He nodded at her reply.

Serkan knitted his brows when he saw her taking few medicines. "Are you alright?" He asked out of concern knowing Eda was the last person to take medicines.

"iyim iyim. Nothing serious. These are just supplements." She replied with a shrug

"Whom are you fooling here?" He took the small jar from her hand and looked at her disbelievingly. "Eda, this is for PTSD-associated nightmares."

He searched her eyes for an answer. He wanted her to say something, something that he wasn't ready for, but he knew he was responsible for whatever she was going to tell him, and he wanted to hear it.

"Eda, you can tell me. Whatever it is." He placed her hand above hers and pressed it in an assuring manner. He wanted her to trust him this one instant. His heart was begging for her to put her faith in him.

"Neden?" She pursed her lips in defiance, her eyes accusing him of this interference in her life.

"Maybe because I deserve to know about my child as well." His lips quivered. His eyes were not accusing, they were just pleading helplessly. They were begging to be freed. Eda instantly removed her hand from his, it felt as if someone had hit her head with a spade. She was not ready to have this conversation with anyone, neither Serkan nor her friends. She did not know how he knew about this but he needed to leave immediately.

"Serkan. Git." Tears struggled to leave her eyes but she was stern and strong. He didn't move, instead, he kept on staring at her, in her eyes, still searching for answers. Before he could say something, she left the table and rushed to her bedroom.

Serkan didn't follow her. Was It a mistake to come here?

She is already in pain and he worsened it. He had no right to come back asking for things that he doesn't remember anymore.

Serkan spent the next few hours sobbing and cursing his fate. He needed to apologize to her. She deserved that at least. He had been awful to her; this was the least he could do.

She was sitting on the bathroom tiles, crying to herself. Her eyes were swollen, and it felt as if she was struggling to breathe. Serkan rushed and hugged her immediately. She didn't resist his touch this time.

He embraced her possessively

His immediate touch triggered the volcano inside Eda that was waiting to erupt since that night. The bathroom filled with her cries. They grew louder and louder. She hadn't cried since that night. She hadn't cried when the doctor told her that she lost the only hope, the only possession that she had of Serkan.

She couldn't even mourn her miscarriage

Serkan wasn't stopping her, their tears were mingling together. She said something but it didn't make sense. Eda strengthened her grip on his arm and screamed, remembering the pain she went through that night. If he had been there, he would have never let that happen. He would have protected her from that fall. If only he hadn't left for Italy that. If only she had stopped him. If only.

"I dreamt that it was a boy." She mumbled amidst her cries.

"Shhhhhh, you'll have another baby" He tried to soothe her and that was the only thing he could come up with in that spur of the moment.

"No, I don't want another baby, I want my baby back, I just want him back Serkan." She cried inconsolably while hitting him on his arm.

Serkan was helpless

-Defeated - Powerless

Was he to be blamed for the pain she was going through?

"I want my child back. I just want him back." Eda mumbled the same words to sleep. She was lying in his arms. She had found her comfort and mourned the anguish that was churning in her heart for the last eight months. Serkan sat on the tiles with Eda in his arms- lifeless.... Unable to decipher the events of his life.

He had no memories. He was going to become a father. He was not around when the mother of his child wanted him the most. And the only reason he was here tonight because-

He did not know.

Was it out of love? Or Was it out of an obligation? Why was he here?

Did he have any right to touch her?

Eda and Serkan were at a phase of life where they did not know what would happen next. Their actions were questionable. There weren't any hard feelings. There was pain. But no one was to be blamed. There was longingness. But It carried broken promises and unsaid words. This night was the longest they had experienced in their lives. It didn't end fast; it was meant to put two hearts at peace.

They did not know how things will go from here. But it's okay, at times you don't have to worry about things that haven't happened yet.

When it gets hard to decide, let fate decide

The rights and wrongs of life

It gets better It gets better

Note: I hope it managed to do justice to your expectations. Sorry for the mistakes, I'm awful when it comes to proofreading! Didn't feel like giving this Twoshot a proper ending because at times ends are not meant to be forever. Thank you all for the previous comments, It meant a lot <3 Happy SCK day btw ;)

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Broken lamps - EdSer Oneshot

Will you even let me come on the top Eda?’ He panted heftily, pulling himself out of her after their second round for the night. This was the craziest they’ve been. Not that they got many chances before to break the bed but this was always going to be in his book of the most memorable night with Eda Yildiz.

She was really the one in control tonight. Her fierceness, passion and desire reflected well in each kiss she planted on his chest, each stroke on his manhood gave him an exhilarating kick to take her rough yet fast, her dirty whispering felt like an ice cube in his empty stomach. Whenever the tip of her tongue touched his nipples , he felt like seeing stars forreal.

‘It isn’t happening tonight, Serkan bolat.” Eda grimaced pulling back her hair into a bun and lying back on his chest.

“You’re testing my patience now.” He huffed

“Gerçekten?” “Serkan! I allowed you to take me twice , yet to have the audacity to complain.” She hit his arm and complained annoyingly.

Serkan pulled her down in a jerk , pressing his lips against hers to stop her from protesting any further.

Eda began to resist, she was in no mood to allow dominant Serkan tackle her in any case. Weirdly, they were at the wrong side of bed. Must’ve lost directions while rolling here and there. Eda shrieked with joy to annoy Serkan , however this time her left leg hit the lamp on bedside and it broke down instantly.

“What are you? A cow? Behave yourself “ Serkan looked at her disbelievingly. He shushed her, stroking the swollen lips with his thumb.

“Stop it Eda you going to wake up Sirius.” Instead she bit him this time and let out a scream so he’d get off her. “Poor boy will be scared.”

“Then get down Serkan bolat or I’ll break the other lamp too.”

“Edddaa that’s expensive !” He blurted sarcastically awaiting her reaction.

“What do you mean by expensiv Serkan Bolat?” Was he actually thinking about his home decor above her ?

“Means you can’t turn up at my house like this , and break my accessories just for fun.”

“Öyle mı ? So you’ve given the rights of turning up at your house to the likes of Balca and Selin?” She placed her hand on his mouth that was currently exploring her naval .

Serkan realized he really hit the nerve with this one. He should shut up and allow himself to enjoy the night , God knows when will he get laid like this again. He couldn’t trust his luck considering how unpredictable things have been in his life lately .

“How about we resort to do things we’ve been doing before?” He answered sheepishly

“How about you shut the fuck up and let me do the work?” She says sternly, unable to hide the lingering lust.

“All yours . Me and the lamps to break.”

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Surrendered-EdSer OS

Eda did not know what she was doing, or why she was doing it. This was the first time in 25 years of her life that she had felt defeated and helpless. Caught in a series of unfortunate circumstances, and life’s treacherous ploughs, she was once again left alone. Her parent's untimely death had left scars on her soul, she could not escape the demons of her past. When Serkan entered her life, she believed that life would be easier. She will finally have someone, who will help her to breathe in the confines of a dark, closed room.

Little did she know, life does not work according to our beliefs. Destiny had plans for her, thrilling yet gruesome. She had imagined getting graduated, with a degree in landscape architect with hope and happiness in eyes. She did graduate, but there was nothing instead of anguish, and loneliness in her eyes.

Not even in her wildest dreams she had imagined to lose Serkan, her first true love. She was so used to be pampered by his love and affection that for once not being on the receiving end broke her into pieces.

It had been eight months since that fateful day. They heard that his plane went missing, they were supposed to get married. Once she had waited for her parents to come and take her away, but they never came back. This time she waited for Serkan to come and make her his lawful wife but he never.

If this trauma wasn’t enough already, she was met by another volcano that hit her so hard that she couldn’t believe she had managed to survive that pain.

He forgot her.

He didn’t have any memories of her.

He hated her.

Serkan Bolat was no longer her Robot Bolat.

After his arrival to Art Life, Eda had imagined it would be difficult to revive those memories he had forgotten but she hadn’t imagined that it would be nearly impossible to win back his love. It was as if he had returned with a stone instead of heart.

Her numerous attempts, pleadings, actions, could not move him. She wondered what was missing that he could not see her as his soulmate anymore.

She tried and tried and one fine day, Eda gave up, for his sake. It took a great deal of courage for her to accept the fact that he was not in love with her, and he won’t fall for her again. It was useless to torment him with her forceful behavior.

He wanted the holding. Of course

It was exactly why he had borne her existence around him for six months otherwise, he would have kicked her out of his life the moment he back to Art Life that day.

Yes, she was giving up on love. Not because she was a coward but because she was selfless, and she chose his happiness over hers. His happiness lied with his work and Selin.

Selin was his logical decision. She was the one, who fitted his lifestyle.

After the failure of her attempts, Eda decided to accept the job proposal from a renowned architect company in Paris, Alcmea.

She had been disregarding it for his sake but eventually Eda decided that it was meant for her. She was longer meant for Serkan or Istanbul. She had to leave for his peace and her sanity. There was no point of living in Istanbul after selling her shares to Serkan, there was no point of breathing the same air after losing him to Selin.

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One last time

She breathed nervously, wearing her silver earrings gifted by Aydan Bolat herself as a graduation present. Ferit and Ceren had thrown her a part before her farewell party, there was no excuse to avoid for otherwise they all would have thought that she is leaving with a sad heart.

Not that they were believing her otherwise.

She had to wear the mask of a jubilated Eda, who finally got the chance to work abroad, and make her dreams come true. She had a long way to go and Eda had decided that she won’t allow her failed love story to come in the way of her career. That’s something she was assertive of.

Clad in a long black evening gown, she looked breathtaking like always.

Yet he won’t notice. Neither her dress nor the charm bracelet she was wearing tonight. Not as a hope but as a way to get rid of some memories.

If she had decided to move on, and leave everything behind, she had to let go.

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Eda arrived late at the party; it was her way to avoid him. She wanted to meet everyone one last time for few minutes and leave as soon as possible.

He was looking for someone, her heart did not skip a beat because it wasn’t her. His eyes immediately caught Selin’s and she could tell his eyes only searched her.

Ferit announced everyone to get on the floor with their respective partners for a dance. Well, she didn’t have one so he offered her his hand immediately. Probably to save her from the embarrassment.

“You don’t have to, I’m fine.” She muttered shyly.

“Oh, come on! By the way, I wasn’t going to invite Selin, Ceren insisted because then it would’ve been odd.”

“That wouldn’t have changed anything! There’s no way he’s coming back even if Selin isn’t around.”

“He’s brainwashed by her Eda-”

Eda cut him off immediately, “Don’t- Ferit please Don’t. Have you brought the ring? Ceren is anticipating the proposal, if you’re late this time she will probably fly to Paris with me.” She joked, hiding the pain behind her eyes.

“All’s set. It will be soon, and you’ll be the first person to hear about it.” He winked and twirled her.

He caught her.

She was in his arms just like old times.

Breathe Eda. Not Anymore.

She held her head high in defiance, acting unaffected by his touch. She didn’t blame him for anything. It did hurt her though that he didn’t keep his promise of falling in love with her hundred times.

He had said that if he was born a hundred times, he will fall for her. He couldn’t live up to his words in the same life. Yet, she had no complaints, she accepted this as destiny’s decision and decided to remain determine in her stance.

She was acting good enough, not even for a second he could feel her nervousness or accelerated heartbeat.

She remained silent, closely following their twirling feet, and entwined hands. Acting as if perfecting this dance was the only thing she was interested.

He broke the silence by clearing his throat. “When is your flight?”

“Tonight” Her reply was simple, devoid of any emotions.

“have a safe flight Eda Yildiz.”

“Sao” She passed an awfully professional smile, avoiding to look at him in the eye. Though she could feel his gaze on her. His eyes hadn’t left her face for a second.

Why does he want now?

He placed his hands on her waist, his masculine hands perfectly fitted her petite waist like always.

Her arms were entwined around his neck securely. One last time, she wished to touch him. There were boundaries by inhaling his wood scent was more than enough.

Gladly, he pulled her closer by himself. She didn’t have to struggle. There was nothing intimate about that gesture. He was just dancing.

‘You look beautiful.’ He uttered silently. Eda knew him enough to tell that his compliment escaped his lips without taking permission from his mind.

It doesn’t matter.

“You too.”

“Beautiful? Me?” He raised his eyebrow in curiosity.

“Pardon if you don’t appreciate to be referred with a feminine adjective.” He was trying to be funny but Eda was beyond exhausted to indulge in a friendly conversation. She was not going to surrender.

‘I- I didn’t mean that.” He attempted to explain himself. “Where would you be staying in Paris?”

Eda wanted to tell him that she had chosen the apartment that he had bought for them few days before their wedding. She wanted to tell him that their apartment in Paris was waiting for them but she decided against it.

“Deniz arranged a place.” Something inside her pushed her to say that.

“His place?” He asked incredulously, tightening his grip around her waist.

“You need not to know.” She denied him simply. A part of her knew that he wasn’t affected by these childish jealousy stunts but yet her impulsive self couldn’t from being so open about it.

“I’m sorry, it wasn’t my place to ask you about it.”

He waited for her to say anything but she remained awfully quiet. He was not used to this. He was not used to her ignoring him.

Eda began to feel suffocated, the tips of his fingers were drumming against her bare back, synching with the music of piano. She had to let go or she would faint in his arms or breakdown into tears immediately.

“Excuse me.”

She distanced herself from his embrace, they hadn’t realized in the darkness of the room that they had been barely inches away from each other.

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This place was special, they had their contract right at this spot, fought, expressed love, he broke up wit her here, and the last beautiful memory was, when he gifted her that charm bracelet.

She was wearing it tonight.. Of course, he hadn’t noticed that too.

Eda was staring at the stars, this was her last night in Istanbul. She didn’t plan to come back ever.

“It must be hard for you eda hanim” Her thought process was disrupted by Erdem. Their bond had strengthened over the course of eight months.

“You know very well that I have seen experienced something even harder than this Erdem.” She replied in misery but both knew that Eda was talking about something. Something that was known by him but not anyone else in that office.

“Don’t you think he should know?” Erdem said, scared of her reaction

“There is nothing he should know, as if what he knows already had made any difference”

“I always wonder if I had told fifi about my feelings in a much serious manner, she might had stayed.” Erdem sighed. This side of Erdem was only known to Eda, even she was amazed that this one existed.

“We can't stop the ones who want to leave”

“But he deserves to know- at least- about the baby” Erdem hesitated, he did not want to bring this up but considering this as her last night in Istanbul he wished she’d listen to him.

“Erdem git.” Eda looked at him surprised. Her eyes brimmed with tears and pain. She wasn’t mad at him but surprised that he chose to remind her of that night.

“I’m stupid, an absolute fool but I do know one thing that no father deserves-” He wasn’t stopping, he mustered the courage to finish his sentence.

“I’ve already burdened him with the forgotten memories of our love. I can’t make him think about a baby who died before coming to this world.” Hiding her pain behind her mask, she took a sip from her wine. Showing as if talking about this wasn’t shattering her soul into a million pieces.

“Erdem, You and leyla are the only ones who know about my miscarriage. You have kept your word till now, I expect that both of you will keep your word and continue to hide this truth from everyone.”

“Till my last breath, Eda hanim.” Erdem’s voice broke, he hugged Eda instantly. She led out a chuckle and hugged him back.

Erdem was indeed annoying but he had been there for her at a very crucial stage of her life. His support helped her through the most difficult phase of her life.

She had kept her pregnancy as a secret. She was not in the condition to come to terms with the fact herself.

It was only leyla and erdem, who knew. They were there, that night when it happened.

“I have to go.” She sniffed.

Erdem bid her goodbye and turned his back to find a stumped figure of none other than Serkan Bolat himself.

They froze.

What do you know about pain?

It never ends

What do you about healing?

It takes time

What do you know about realizations?

They arrive when it’s too late

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Temptations- EdSer Oneshot

It is never enough, the failure to quench your thirst, and refrain from physical contacts is not every man’s cup of tea. They had tried, she had forced herself to distance from him, breaking his heart into a million pieces. Considering it as the only way to protect him but in vain. She realized that her actions were only hurting them in the process. The indifference, the jealousy and most importantly their feelings for each other were too profound to be ignored. It was because of their inexplainable attraction and unconditional love for each other that they couldn’t resist each other after all. It had been merely three days since their previous night at his place. Crazy. Fierce. Passionate

Her body shot with goosebumps thinking about that fateful night. Not that he hadn’t slept with him before but that night was not even one percent of what they shared before. Ever since then, Eda and Serkan accepted the fact that it was useless to play games with each and they should quit the childish games. The energy could be put into use and against babaanne for starters.

They had strictly made a deal to avoid any sort of interaction that could hint towards their non platonic relationship. Of course it had been hard , with Eda literally pushing her breast in Serkan’s face it was hard for him to breath, and Eda had trouble taking away balca’s breath by strangling her as her attempts to woo Serkan weren’t ready to stop.

Given the crucial circumstances they had decided to meet each other secretly. As exciting as it sounded, the risk was terrifying. They knew they couldn’t afford to unleash the facade in front of anyone but they were aware of their desperate bodies as well. It was time they stop torturing themselves.

“Dickhead.” Eda mumbled staring at her phone screen with anger. He asked her to meet him at Engin’s summer house that was located far from the city. Nobody could have suspected them there and engin was kind enough to provide them with the keys.

Eda knew he was busy with lot more technical stuff but she did not like waiting especially when she was dressed up for him and now sitting on the bed looking like a fool .

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“Holy Fuck” he blew in the air after entering the bedroom and setting his eyes upon her. Clad in a black shirt dress that perfectly exposed her breast , Eda Yildiz was rummaging through a magazine or maybe acting to do so.

She ignored his comment and continued to look down , while he examined her long legs that were currently adorned with fishnets. He was turned on already , she didn’t even have to move a bit this time .

“You’re late.” She registered , clearly annoyed but flustered at his earlier comment.

“And you’re hot.” He didn’t even feel the need to show that he was breathless looking at her in that state.

“You’re a douche.” Eda threw the magazine but he managed to dodge it well .

“I really am but after seeing you like this I feel an asshole as well.”

“I can banish from this room for being late “

“You could strangle me with your thong and I won’t complain.”

Eda giggled because that was the most awful thing Serkan had said so far in their relationship.

“You really need to work on your pick up lines serkan bolat.” She mimicked while pulling him closer .

“For now, I’m only interested in picking you up.” He winked

“Btw did you wear this so I can tear it apart?” He whispered in her ear suggestively, referring to her fishnets that caught his eye ever since he entered the room .

“All yours canım.” Eda replied back huskily , placing a subtle peck on his stubble only to meet his lips more fiercely.

I wrote this one the other night but gave up last moment because the momentum wasn’t settling. Sharing this one in celebration of Eda proposing to Serkan !

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acertainsomeone

Mess- EdSer Oneshot

It’s been a long and knackering day not just at work but overall, to begin with. It was as if his life couldn’t stop itself from surprising him at every instant, and believe us they weren’t good surprises minus the one when Eda kissed him at the conference, or when he accepted his feelings for her. It’s been a bumpy ride ever since that. Things were not falling into space and he was amazed that he hadn’t collapsed yet. Maybe it was because of the things that were still the reason of each breath. There were things that he could not let go of. It had been 48 hours since the awful evening at Prince Seyman’s place. Eda, the love of his life, the woman he had lost his heart and soul to, had broken up with him, in fact they were not together at first place. She had straightaway told him that their relationship had been a mistake and she could not be with him. His face reminded her of her parents' death. She wasn’t wrong, he had thought. From now onwards whenever he will look at Semiha hanım he will also think of all the mistakes he had made in life that God decided to send her in his life.

If the breakup wasn’t hard hitting for him already, today’s lunch and it's unfortunate events surely had a go at him. The universe was indefinitely plotting against him if not less. How sinful was he to fall for Eda Yildiz that he had to bear the burnt by watching her having a romantic lunch with another man, who was unapologetically touching her at all places. Even he didn’t get to touch her like that for months. Alright, the pottery date counted as something but that was not even half of what Seyman tried to do with Eda.

Balca had insisted on a lunch, and in all honesty, he had agreed to do so only to rile Eda and show her that he could do better without her. She wasn’t the only woman left for him in this entire universe. Well, she really was the only woman for him in the whole world but at the moment Serkan wasn’t ready to have that conversation with himself. The drama during the lunch had been too much for him to digest, he really needed to sway away from these burdens and get a hot bath to relax his nerves.

Dragging his feet, with his coat hung upon his shoulder, and sleeves rolled up, Serkan made his way inside to his apartment that was like always hauntingly quiet. It was until he took a few more steps and widened his eyes enough to see that the exquisitely furnished lounge was in a mess. The sofa was upside down, vase broken, in fact every piece of art that he had specifically ordered from different parts of the world were shattered across the room. It seemed as if someone had broken into his apartment, but that was impossible. It could not have happened because at least he would have been alerted.

A perplexed Serkan made his way upstairs, a bit cautious just in case the chances of a burglar breaking into his apartment were true. It was messy all around, it seemed someone had entered his home with the intention of creating a havoc. A storm would have done less damage he thought.

“What the Fuck!” He exclaimed out loud in confusion and shock. Of all the possibilities of his apartment turning out to be a wreck, this was not even the last one on this mind. To his surprise, the woman who had made his day miserable (not really) was right there lying on the bed on her stomach, eating an apple while reading a magazine, which he thought was just an added aesthetic to the setting. Sirius on the other hand, while cheerfully beside her, he had been missing her a lot.

“Oh you are home! Hoş Gledim” Eda raised her brows pleasantly surprised but he could feel the sarcasm in her tone. She straightened up and rested her back against the bed. “Done serving your balca with the bugle for today? Serkan bey ?”

“Eda are you out of your mind? What are you doing here? And what is this mess for?” Ignoring her last comment, he asked her in a disbelief. Unable to comprehend the reason for her arrival and this mad behavior.

“How dare you ask me what I’m doing here?” She screamed and threw the magazine at his face violently. Even poor sirius got scared and left the room instantly. Serkan made a mental note of why was she holding the magazine before. The vases and other ornaments were broken so obviously she needed something to break his head or throw at him.

“SAKIN EDA. Sakin.”

“Next time choose your words and actions cautiously Serkan Bolat or there will be a rock instead of a magazine at your head next time.” She glared at him furiously.

Serkan couldn’t comprehend the reasoning behind her behavior. She was the one who pulled the breakup stunt last night and acted all possessive during the lunch. It was her who pushed him to punch Seyman because she had allowed him to even set a finger on her skin. Now she was in his home accusing him of a deed that he had no about, and ruining the expensive décor with her rage.

“You need to see a therapist Eda.” He soundly registered looking at the condition of his room. But the moment the words left his mouth he regretted instantly, this wasn’t the exact time to pinch her nerves Serkan.

“I would but only after you end up at the orthopedic.”

“NE?”

“Don’t try to fool around me Serkan. You’re not as naïve as you act.”

“What’s wrong with you Eda?”

Eda sat on her knees and pulled the pillow from her back to hit him with it. It wasn’t a single blow, Serkan couldn’t understand where did she muster the strength to hit him so hard, in fact put the furniture down.

“THIS. THIS IS WRONG WITH ME. You are everything that’s wrong with me Serkan.”

“EDA. It hurts, my neck is already hurting.”

“Gerçekten?” She stopped midway to look at him with a sarcastic pout that made her look cuter than ever before. Why she had to mess up everything when she can’t stop looking like this, it gets difficult to keep my hands of her, thought serkan.

“SERKAN BOLAT.” Eda let out his name with full authority and warning. She was no longer on the bed. Her index finger pointed at Serkan, and her feet gradually pacing towards her were signaling towards a war. Serkan began to step back worried for his life until he was met by a closet, leaving no room for escape. They need to make the room airier and without closets for future just in case.

“What do you think of yourself? What was so awfully wrong with your neck that you had to take the expertise of Balca rather than a doctor.”

So, it finally made sense to him that what was this all about. Eda’s animosity towards balca was no longer a secret from him. Even she was quite open about it now. He hadn’t expected that the moment between him and balca would disturb Eda to this extent that she will come for this throat.

His neck had a sprain and Balca, even though he insisted her not to, offered to fix it in a moment. Surprisingly, she did succeed, and he was grateful to her for that.

“Serkan!” Eda slapped him on his arm. “I’m here for answers, do you hear me.”

“Eda it was nothing, besides you are overreacting and please it was nothing in comparison to what was going on between you and your prince.”

“Serkan--- Seriously? What are we? Five? Is this some revenge game? I thought we were over the jealousy part in our relationship.” She sighed, and suddenly her voice had dropped.

Serkan sensed the tension and wished she had remained mad at him. That was better than this Eda at least. “Tamam I agree that I went a bit overboard and took advantage of the situation but Eda the prince was crossing his limits. You cannot deny that.”

“SERKAN BOLAT.” Eda held him by his collar and glared at him while pressing her tongue behind her teeth. “You dare let that woman come near you next time, and I swear on Sirius that I will be first to rip off that neck of yours.”

If Serkan hadn’t known Eda so well, he wouldn’t have taken that threat seriously. But this was Eda Yildiz, and she could do anything.

“We are surviving a pandemic, canım.” “Let her know and ask her to maintain a distance of 6 ft.” “You cannot afford to die anytime soon.” She let go of his collar and jerked him backwards with her right hand. Serkan stood their dumbfounded for a couple of seconds to make a mental note of what had just happened.

Eda was back on the bed, eating her apple and this time resting her head on the spare pillow to gather some moments of peace.

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She was circling his bare, shoulder with her long circles. Drawing patterns and teasing his toned muscles. Wrapped in white sheets, with lights off and their accelerated heartbeats, Eda and Serkan were silent for the last the one hour. In fact, the hadn’t talked much during their mating session, which was rather surprising.

““Remember when you talked about running away with me?” Eda uttered silently, her fingers hadn’t stopped doing that to his shoulder because she knew how much she was relishing it at the moment.

“Evet” He answered, not paying attention to what she had said but engrossed in the scent of her hair currently scattered across his face. He did not want to be disturbed, not even her voice at the moment.

“I should’ve listened to you and run away immediately.” Serkan raised his head from her chest and looked at her inquisitively.

“For what?”

“For us” She smiled at him kindly, resting his head back on her chest.

“Stay tonight.”

“I can’t, it’s dangerous Serkan.”

“Ahhh the wicked grandma will catch the children in bed.” He chuckled out loudly. “Heyy, it’s gonna be fine. Sooner than you’ll know.”

“But I’m scared Serkan. Last night, breaking up with you even if it was all a lie, felt worse than any of the nightmares I’ve seen so far. “I’d not even think about hurting you with those words, let along smashing them on your face.”

“I know. But can we please not talk about last night. It was horrible anyways.” “Nevertheless, you need not to worry about, we will run away if your babaannen didn’t fix herself up.”

“She won’t.” “And I can’t risk your life along with your parents.”

“You won’t.” He gestured calmly, with a smile on his face and kissed her on the chin only to bury his head back where it belonged earlier.

“Your calmness annoys me sometimes. I don’t know what’s in your head serkan but if this plan didn’t work out then?”

“Eda. Can you stop? It’s been a day and I am still trying to comprehend the events of last night.”

“Peke. I have to leave in next thirty minutes anyways.”

“Great, you can clean the mess, meanwhile I can catch some sleep.” He grinned sheepishly, only to receive a smack from her. They looked at each other with brimmed yet hopeful eyes.

There was hope to fix things and fix the mess in their life. They knew that their togetherness is their biggest strength at the moment.

Stay close to people who feel like sunshine

Hold close to people who make you shine

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acertainsomeone

Dying to write a EdSer fic but my mind has run short of ideas :/

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acertainsomeone

Closet Diaries - EdSer Oneshot

Serkan had been ignoring her for the last few hours now. He was infuriated to say the least, not that he doubted her intentions or anything but it was her blind trust in people like Efe that had landed them in such a crucial position. He was in love with Eda, if she had asked him to leave everything aside, leave the holding and start new somewhere else, Serkan would’ve happily agreed. However, things were different now. Someone had landed up on his head threatening his power and that someone was here only because Eda didn’t allow Serkan to merge in that matter. It hurt him the most that she had trusted a stranger like Efe more than him. Was his one mistake so grave that he didn’t deserve to be involved in Eda’s business with Efe? If only Eda had put her faith in him, trusted his words regarding Efe, they could’ve known what was about to come their way. Eda’s previous gestures weren’t as hurtful as this one. Previously , it was a game, they were flirting and teasing each other , but this was ....... He could not absorb the shock of his life. For the first time in life things weren’t in his control because he hadn’t planned it all along accordingly.

She tried her luck while giving his beard a light trimming but he was adamant to not fall for her antics this time.

“We’re gonna dress you up for a meeting with semiha Hanim. You have to look your best, tamam?” He nodded without any expression, knowing her intentions so far.

“As much as I love your wardrobe, we do need to make some changes Serkan. You don’t have any bright shades to begin with.” She uttered casually like her usual self , rummaging through his closet nervously.

“Eda. Yatır . There’s no need for you to do this. I’ll manage by myself.” Eda was so used to see love in his eyes that the reflection of coldness was stinging her at the moment.

She remarked after gently making him wear a coat, “so you’ll stay mad at me? You won’t even trust me that-“

“It isn’t about trust Eda , I trust you and you of all people must adhere to that. It’s you whose been so indulged with the idea of punishing me that you’ve forgotten I’m the same guy you fell for.” He had calmly replied without any anger exhibiting on his face. Eda could see that he was cautious to not break any boundaries and respect her dignity at any cost.

Eda pulled him by his collar gently, tugging onto the shirt gently, she asked gently, “what can I do for you to forgive me?” She breathed heavily closing her eyes. “Anything, in addition to previous three desires i give you three more!”

Serkan had noticed the spark in her eyes, the glint when she looked at him with a wide smile .

“Grow up. We’re getting late and I don’t want your grandma to mess with us furthermore.”

End

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acertainsomeone

Trimmers- EdSer OneShot

They were home. To be precise, he had drove her to his apartment upon her insistence. Eda knew that her grandmother will get back to her after the office fiasco , and her first attempt would be lure her Hala into accepting her back in their life. Her mental state wasn’t allowing her to take that much of stress , surprisingly she hasn’t collapsed because otherwise it would’ve been quite embarrassing to begin with. The only place she could think of, where she could find peace, and time to think about other things other than Babaanne herself, was his place, or more precisely, his presence. He could take her to the mountains or the farthest jungles and Eda won’t complain, for as long as she was with him, nothing mattered.

“You can rest, I have to freshen up for a meeting.” He gestured dubiously. Surprisingly, he had wanted her to be with him, at his place for so long but now when she was finally around, he didn’t know how to react after whatever had happened today . Eda’s grandma arrival did shake him to the core. He had his doubts on Efe but not even in his wildest dreams he had imagined that Eda’s grandmother will enter their lives like a havoc. Serkan hasn’t mentioned it to Eda but he knew a lot of things were going to change between him and her. For good or bad, it wasn’t going to remain same anymore.

Serkan was in his bathroom, clad in a jeans and white vest. He would’ve worn his three piece suit but he felt the need to trim his beard before going out . He still has responsibilities to fulfill , he couldn’t go out like a ragged lover .

“Why did you say that.” He was about to begin when a familiar voice, across the wall stopped him from carrying out the deed.

“Ney?” He questioned Eda, who was standing across the wall , with her arms crossed against her chest.

“In the car. You said that it’s upto me whatever decision I take, you’ll respect it falan falan. You said it won’t be same, and therefore it’s upto me. Whatever it was, why you said so.”

“Come on Eda. I just said that to let you know that whatever your decisions would be in coming days, I’ll respect that. We know your Babaanne isn’t here for casually saying a hi to both of us.”

Eda’s eyes narrowed down , both of them knew what they were talking about. Her Babaanne had made it clear that she’ll get her married to a guy chosen by her, pretty soon. Eda moved forward with a stern expression on her face. Taking the beard trimmer from Serkan’s hand , she uttered slowly, “so you’re giving up on me already?”

“Hayır. As long as you don’t give up on us Eda.” He was about to take the trimmer from her hand when she gestured and shooed away his hand .

“Are you underestimating my feelings for you?” Eda began to cautiously do his beard for him. Her free hand made its way to his chest while the other reluctantly began to set his beard.

“Your confused feelings perhaps?” He chuckled , a bit scared that she’ll cut his skin any moment. Eda didn’t seem to be handy with men’s stuff after all.

“I’m very much clear what I want and whom I want Serkan bolat.” She was staring at him closely, with absolutely no room to breath , she admitted to herself that if he had initiated she wouldn’t have inhibited from going dirty with him in the same bathroom . She was close enough to feel his manhood pressed against her , the bulge was visible enough for her to tell that he wanted her as much as she did.

“It’s done.”

“Wait! You did nothing, my beard still looks the same.”

“Because I like it the way it is Serkan, clean shaven Serkan isn’t for me anyways.” She muttered playfully and exited the bathroom knowing they won’t be able to hold it in anymore, leaving a dumbfounded Serkan behind, who was comprehending the fact that his Eda did love him in beard!

pardon for the mistakes- hopefully you’ll enjoy it

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acertainsomeone

Serkan x Bathrobe x Eda

His smell His touch

If she could embrace her feeble self with them, in that moment, she would have had to so. Breaking boundaries, defying contracts, she would have allowed him to prickle each inch of her skin beneath his rough fingers.

They had something unnamed between them, they yearned for each other’s breath. Eda teased him, to see him shiver under the influence of her breath, she could tell he was hard down, she could tell their bodies echoed for each other, under the moonlight.

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acertainsomeone

Always- EdSer Oneshot

“BabaAnne” Eda mumbled disbelievingly. She could not believe that the past, she’s been trying to detach herself from was standing right in front of her. The reality of her existence that she abhorred vehemently was right there, standing in grace but she was the one who only knew what reside behind those pretty faces. She was Efe’s partner, his secret partner to be precise. All of a sudden, Serkan’s words started making sense. He was yet again right about judging people. It didn’t take much time for Eda to wrap her head around what has happened. Her babaanne hadn’t left her life after all. Some way or another she had found her way back into her life, and this time by deceit and lies. Her head began to spin immediately thinking about her Annem, who had cried for nights because she wasn’t accepted in the Yildrim family. Serkan’s words rang in her ear, Efe wasn’t trustworthy, he was some secret agent. He had warned her repeatedly but Eda’s stubbornness provided a friendly gateway for Efe to spy on her, on Babaanne’s behalf. She needed some support, a familiar shoulder to prevent the upcoming fall or maybe to cry over. ‘where are you , Serkan?’ She breathed, still staring at her grandmother in disbelief. Her nerves seemed to have collapsed immediately, until she heard a familiar yet caring voice , ‘Eda , iyimsen?’

Damn she had missed this smell. His captivating cologne made its way through her nostrils to the every inch of her bone. She would have been surprised if it was otherwise but thankfully she was embraced by him. He hadn’t responded to her dreamy smile. Eda cursed her luck because he’ll panic again , and bombard her with a list of how to reduce your stress.

‘Eda?’ He was clueless, usually he’d know her reason for passing out but this didn’t make sense. Thankfully, he got hold of her in time and brought her to his office upstairs. Pouring her a glass of water he remarked apprehensively,’how many times do I have to tell you that you need to do something about this disease. Find if you don’t want me to come close but take help from your kızlar.’

‘Serkan , can you please save this conversation for some other time?’

‘Peke, what happened now? You were fine a few minutes ago , you can’t be having stress attacks out of blue.’

It finally struck Eda, what made her pass out. Her haunting past had returned. She looked at Serkan helplessly, where would she begin with? She hadn’t told him everything after all. The only thing that crossed her mind was hugging him, inhaling his scent to calm her wits. He was taken aback by her unexpected gesture but he knew this wasn’t the right time to make fun of her. ‘You were right Serkan , you’re always right. Çok özür delerim.’

She was really into surprising him with her actions today. ‘You don’t have to, for anything. Okay listen, I need to sort out the meeting first then we’ll talk? You wanna come ?’

She nodded in denial while he wiped her tears softly. ‘I just want to go back home.’

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She had cried in her aunt’s arms for hours. There was already too much to deal with in her life and her grandmother’s arrival hadn’t made any of it better. What infuriated her the most was she was scheming behind her back, using money and shares to enter her life yet again. Eda peeked through the window anticipating a familiar figure down there, with a dog and his car. He can’t be here Eda, you pushed him before and warned him not to break the contract this time. Suddenly, her heart felt the need to break all ropes and fly to him without thinking about anything else.

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The bell rang and Serkan expected engin on the door. After last night’s shenanigans Eda won’t be coming back here, he was sure about it. He was indeed worried about her but after finding her cell phone off realized that she needed her friends and aunt more than anything at this point. He couldn’t figure out what had happened, it was definitely related to their new partner but his head couldn’t join the dots. The possibility of Eda being Ms. Yildrim’s granddaughter hadn’t crossed his mind.

There she was, in a distressed state , her eyes were already swollen from crying, her hair unkempt and untidy. He didn’t even want to imagine how she managed to drive here safely. ‘Eda,? He looked at her worried, and distressed. Her condition was unbearable for him. Before he could ask her any further questions, he was met by a pair of lips absolutely familiar to him. She held his face in between her hands and pulled him for a kiss. Closing the door with her boot’s heel, she pushed him backwards. He could feel the urgency in her each movement, but the way her lips quivered only reminded him of her apprehensive state. She wasn’t totally in her senses, her body was shivering and she was under stress. Serkan didn’t know whether to stop her or not, she had began to take off his vest, her lips were still pressed again his. He knew she wasn’t in her senses thus he didn’t want her do anything only to regret later on. Eda broke the kiss and looked at him in a confusing and overwhelming manner. His eyes were reflecting his thoughts like a mirror. She knew what was going through her mind but she didn’t want him to say that loud. It was as if he had read her eyes, Serkan held her immediately, making way to his bedroom.

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Serkan’s legs were wrapped around her securely, maybe this was the first time she woke up before him. She had craved his existence inside her, with his eyes closed he didn’t appear as that Serkan the world knew about. Eda caressed his hair lovingly, pressing her lips against his chin cautiously to not wake him up. “Günaydın” he mumbled hoarsely with a subtly grin shining across his face. “So you were awake?” She grimaced , looking at him with accountability. “Hayır, I missed the parts before the kiss.” Eda turned crimson at his wink , looking for words to defend herself.

“Eda what happened? I’m worried for you.”

“Serkan can we please not talk about this right now? At least not when I’m lying above you without clothes!”

“I didn’t know we have such rules to not talk about serious things while we’re in bed.”

“Yes we do canım.”

“Olur, hadi gel I’m gonna make us some breakfast”

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Serkan couldn’t believe what she had told him. It wasn’t surprising to know that Efe was planted but it had been her own grandmother all this time was shocking indeed. “I’m never distrusting your words again. You’re always right about everything.” Her tears hadn’t stopped, Serkan pulled her into a hug and whispered calmly, “you can say that but only for professional matters. You take the crown when it comes to personal matters Eda Yildiz.”

“What am I going to do now? I don’t know why she’s here but it’s definitely related to me , she thinks entering my life would fix everything.”

Serkan tightened his embrace and placed a peck against her forehead. “We’ll fight it together. You don’t have to stress about it.”

“You’ll be here?”

“Always.”

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