Ughhhh social anxiety is the worst. You either force yourself to go to things knowing you'll spend the entire time anxious and stressing about people judging you or doing or saying something stupid or don't go but then feel guiltridden for lying/giving some lame ass excuse to get out of plans or worrying that people are judging and thinking badly of you for not going. Ughh but anyway as a sidenote I have just treated myself to the first book in the murderbot series to distract myself lmao 😀
Social anxiety is the fucking worst. I agree wholeheartedly with you nonny. I hate it. It's exhausting and so fucking stressful. I'm always worried about what I'm wearing or how I'm moving or what I'm saying or where I'm going. I have yet to go somewhere (like an event or gathering) and not thought "what if you have the wrong day/time? what if you weren't actually invited? what if you get there and no one is there? And yes that forcing yourself to go but feeling guilty if you stay thing? THE WORST! I hate it so much. I have to constantly remind myself with my historical reenactments that I will fun once I get there and that these people are my friends and like me. It's the only way I can get myself to go. It sucks. So yeah nonny I'm right there with ya.
Also, YAAAAS to buying the first Murderbot book!!! I hope you liked it!!! Did you like it? I'm reading book 6 right now and my god I LOVE this series so freaking much!! And I took people's advice and I'm reading book 6 before book 5 for timeline reasons.