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Outlander 6x03
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LUCIFER MORNINGSTAR + vulnerability
Cursed (Netflix 2020) 1x10
#whump#whumpedit#cursed spoilers#cursed#cursed netflix#1x10#the weeping monk#daniel sharman#my gifs#mod post#self harm tw#shirtless#aesthetic#whipped#cuts#flogged#lashes#lash marks#blood#scars#emotional whump#self flagellation#look this scene straight up murdered me#do you love me father#even if i am damned#I MEAN COME ON#my heart
Cursed (Netflix 2020) 1x10
#whump#whumpedit#cursed spoilers#cursededit#cursed netflix#cursed#the weeping monk#daniel sharman#my gifs#1x10#mod post#self harm tw#fitting this scene into 10 gifs was THE WORST#i hated it#it was so hard#but i think it came out okay#emotional whump#shirtless#self doubt#self hatred#self flaggelation#whipping#lashes#blood#scars#brainwashing#cuts
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#stop hurting my devil son
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1x01 // 1x12
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He was upset. He didn’t have a specific reason why. He was upset about everything. So he wasn’t thinking.
He did what he usually did. When he hated himself. Hated everyone around him. Hated everything.
He went out.
It didn’t matter where to, as long as there were people there. Friday nights, this was typically easier, with the nightlife. A nightclub would be a good spot— a bar even better. He ended up choosing a bar. Somewhere close to his apartment. He waited until nine. That way, the crowds that had flocked out would have had ample time to get deep enough into their liquor. He walked the handful of blocks it took, not even feeling the cold. Instead, feeling oddly separated from himself…like he usually did when he did this.
Anonymous asked:
To the self harm fic Anon - I used to do the exact same thing for eating disorder fics, it helped me deal with feelings of worthlessness (because x is brave and good and loved by the fandom, if they could end up with this disease maybe it's not my fault either, etc) but I realized I was learning new tricks and comparing myself (feeling like a faker if the character was worse off than I was). It wasn't worth the temporary comfort in the end. Now I try to read other mental illness fics (like
(2/2) like any kind of self-destruction that doesn't involve food is safe for me, especially addiction fics seem to give me the same kind of dynamic without the triggers. Just sickfic doesn't cut it because I want to read the character at war with their own mind and the loved ones struggling to be supportive. Anyway, I don't know if that helps at all, but at least let's say you're not alone
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Thank you so much for responding! This is the post anon here is referring to. Nonny I hope this is helpful to you! Like they said above, at the very least know you are not alone. If I can do anything for you (either of you nonnies) dont hesitate to let me know :)
Anonymous asked:
I just a read a suicide attempt fic where the characrer slit their wrists, and it triggered me and i cut again. I know i shoukd probably stop reading fics like that, but i really like imagining im the character because they get saved and comforted in the end... i know i probably shouldnt have dumped this bere i was just wondering if you had an opinion. You can ignore this if you want .. sorry
Oh honey I don't mind at all that you came here! I just I could be more helpful. I don't have any experience with self harm and I'm not a professional but it sounds like if reading those types of fics leads you to harm yourself it might be best to stop reading them. I completely understand reading fics where the character is saved and comforted and seeing yourself as them and finding that comforting. I've done that myself to a certain degree. But if leads to you hurt yourself in order to feel that, that's not good babe. Maybe you could find another fic trope that has similar caretaking/comforting elements in it without the triggering parts? That way you can still feel the sense of being comforted but without the elements that trigger you to harm yourself? Sort of like a compromise? Like sickfics have good comforting in them. I don't know if that's helpful or not. I wish could help more but know that my inbox is always open. Here's a giant hug from me too ❤
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Prodigal Son s01e06: Malcolm has a terrifying hallucination of his father. (for video: click here)
“You don’t have to worry. I’m…I’m good. —I’m good.”
Whumptober 2019 - Day 15 Scars
Lucifer 1x06
Robin Hood 1x04
Arrow 1x02
The Umbrella Academy 1x02
Agents of Shield 2x01
Castle 4x09
#whumptober2019#no. 15#scars#self harm tw#scars tw#attempted suicide tw#whumpedit#mods whumptober posts#mods whumptober2019 posts#compilation#whump compilation#suicide tw#whump#mod post#my gifs#lucifer#lucifer morningstar#wing scars#robin hood#robin hood bbc#arrow#oliver queen#the umbrella academy#diego hargreeves#agents of shield#grant ward#castle#kate beckett#no.15
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Prompt List: Recovery
Prompts dealing with various types of recovery in various stages and situations. A lot of them are angsty but what can I say.
***Possible trigger warning. Nothing is mentioned but I’m putting the warning here just in case since some could imply certain things.
“Asking for help doesn’t make you weak. It takes a certain kind of strength to accept your shortcomings.”
“You don’t have to feel like this for the rest of your life. There’s always recovery.”
“I don’t know what will be left of me if you take my pain and suffering away and that scares me. That’s why I don’t want to get better.”
“I wanted to get better. I tried to get better. But maybe I’m not meant to be better.”
“Recovery doesn’t mean you don’t still have bad days.”
“I don’t expect you to suddenly get better overnight. I know it takes time. I’m just asking you to try.”
“It’s okay if you’re not okay all the time.”
“What if there is nothing left of me but pain and suffering? If I lose that, then I will have nothing left.”
“You made a mistake. It spun out of your control. It happens, even to the best of us, but this doesn’t have to be how your story ends. You can change it.”
“I’m afraid of getting better. I’m afraid of losing this pain.”
“I don’t know if I want to get better. Some days I want to but…..”
“Is it so wrong for me to want to save you?”
“You may not believe me- I didn’t believe it when I heard it from others either- but it will get better.”
“I…..I don’t want to be this person anymore. Please help me. I’m ready this time.”
“When the urges hit, all your pretty words you’ve filled my head with lose their meaning.”
“I can’t imagine a life without this illness. I suppose that’s why I’ll never recover.”
“Will you help me get better?”
“I’m ready. I’m ready to change.”
“I’m not there yet, but I’m closer than I was yesterday.”
“I believe in you. I believe you can get better.”
“I’ll be with you every step of the way so don’t be afraid. I know you can do this.”
“You’re here so you can get better. You’re here so you can learn to live.”
“I don’t know what will be left of me if you take my pain and suffering away and that scares me. That’s why I don’t want to get better.”
“It’s okay if you’re not alright you know. You can be honest.”