Me yelling at tv characters: IF YOU JUST TALKED TO EACH OTHER THIS WOULDN'T HAVE HAPPENED
Me: remembers that i procrastinate important conversations sometimes for years even though they are important and neccesary to my mental and my relationships health just to avoid confrontation.
Me: adds to reasons i could never be in a relationship with anyone
#platonic or otherwise#safe to reblog#ugh#Mira#my parents#my sisters#teachers when i'm struggling in class#i suck#for so many reasons#these are just on me really#like 'i need you to reach out to me and show me that i'm important to you#by messaging me or playing games with me or something'#i need you to use male pronouns#i need you to not call me your sister#i can't be excited about your wedding not because i'm not happy for you#but because i'm terrified you'll ask me to wear a dress#-luckily she isn't going to#but i stressed about that for a month#and refused to ask#out of fear that she'd say You have to#and its her wedding right#i'm not allowed to say no#that's how katies was#i know you hate the dress with the GAPPING hole in the back#but everyone else loves it so SMILE FOR YOUR SISTER#NOT GOOD ENOUGH#ITS HER WEDDING DAY AND YOUR TRYING TO RUIN IT#part of that may have been the anxiety#and the grade school abuse making me hyper aware of everyone#fuck me man