i just. keep thinking about everything i could have done to prevent this.
i could have just sold the house first thing and we could have bought a place and gone to counceling like we planned
we were GOING to go to couples councelling! we could have done the work to fix all the bad shit!
but now im just. here. mourning what i lost by myself.
no amount of counselling could have fixed that sinkhole of a relationship. you asked for everything you needed and THEY refused to give it to you and took it as an excuse to treat you worse. they said it themself.