be clearly aware of the stars + infinity on high

GUESS WHO JUST GOT SELF TITLED ON VINYLLLLLLL

im so hot you dont understand

i did a thing

i made a venn diagram r you proud of me

thank you lovely 😭😭😭 spent the whole morning worrying and the whole afternoon guilty for distracting myself from worrying… the future is a goddamn mess. thank you for the dallons 🫶🫶

distracting myself from the election by painting my nails idkhow themed for my saturday show

i need a girlfriend…. 🚬 <- ben affleck smoking image

for like three months i havent been able to write and i dont know why but whenever i open a google doc i either stare at it for a long time or get distracted or hate what i write and i’m fucking sick of it. I havent posted any writing since august. i havent written a poem or a song lyric since even longer than that. it’s like i forgot how to love my writing and everything ive done is awful. i keep trying to start new stuff but i don’t even know how to start because i have no ideas. i wish i could write i want to write i want to post i want to love creating again but everytime I try to write i just feel sick and anxious

ok i dont smoke and i dont plan on doing so but i would look soooo cunty with a cigarette in my hand right now

HALLOWEEN ATE !!!!!!!

panic at the disco headlining wwwyf 2025??? with what members?????????

ok rewatching that video where travie comes on at wwwyf and im. when he bonks foreheads with joe before they hug . please that’s so cute

i will never not love the last of the real ones but i especially will never not love that part where patrick sings, “you were too good to be true” and also “i will shield you from the waves” because it’s so boldly obvious that he feels that lyric down to his bones as much as pete did writing it, it’s so good

I see people all the time like ‘write a sequel! you should write a sequel!’ to random authors and like. yeah sometimes a sequel is nice. but also sometimes it stretches it out so thin. sometimes a book doesn’t need a sequel. I think some people need to recognize that some books have good endings and extending the story further would water it down. do you know what I mean

do you ever worry sometimes that youre not good enough and i dont mean mentally bc i know everyone does that. i mean physically. like i do not look in the mirror and think ‘huh that’s a chinese person’ most of the time . are other people conscious about their appearance outside of how attractive they are? i dont even think about the fact that i look different most of the time until someone points it out. most of the time i dont even think about the fact that i’m chinese until i’m in a room full of other chinese people and then i feel like an impostor. physically, I’m not white at all. mentally - well, it feels weird that i’ve missed a lot of shared experiences that kids my age with chinese parents would have had. i love my parents but sometimes i wish they would have tried to share a little bit more of my culture with me. i love who i am most of the time but sometimes i miss the person i could have been. i know i look weird, too. i’m tall and my facial features aren’t delicate and sometimes i feel too solid, like i take up too much space. I’m not white enough but i’m not chinese enough, either. idk