In this rain
Sully family x sully!reader (platonic) part 1 | part 2
angst, reader is depressed, sully family dynamic is out of character, neglect
it’s a pretty short fic, bts rain lyrics (out of order), no pronouns mentioned, I noticed that the text shifted a little on some devices, sorry about that
Summary: you realized how little your family actually cared about you. So when one night you decide to leave forever, you only have the rain left to comfort you
The thick color of a rainy day in pandora It’s cloudy and the air is clear
You look up at the grey sky. Sitting alone, once again. The rain comforted you in a sense. Hearing the splatters of rain hitting the ground relaxed you. The sensation of it on your skin made you feel. Something you thought you had lost a long time ago. Not only the emotional but also the physical aspects of feeling.
I still can’t fall asleep as I fade away It’s a rainy night, the rain knocks on my window. It hits my heart.
You close your eyes and try to sleep once more. Even surrounded by your family you felt lonelier than ever.
Left alone with all of your emotions. You couldn’t escape the depression that dawned upon you. You felt like the weight of the whole world weighed on your weak shoulders, pushing you down a little more day by day.
A silent cry escapes your lips. Loud enough for your hands to cover your mouth, though too quiet for anyone to actually notice.
You get up quietly and leave the place you live in. The home of your family. Do you truly belong? Does it feel like home? Whose fault was it? Who was responsible for your sadness?
The rain stops and in the reflection in the puddle I see myself looking more miserable today
Obviously you. How pathetic.
Staring into the puddle of water, reflecting what you always knew was the real you. Pathetic. Weak. Useless. What else did you expect? Not even your own family notices you. Your skills are nothing to them. You have no purpose.
Even when this rain stops, when the clouds go away. I stand here, just the same
Frozen in the slow rain it eventually stops.
Your thoughts keep swaying.
You know what the clan thinks of you. Or rather that they don’t think about you. Even while being Toruk Maktos first born you weren’t recognized by anyone. Not even your own family. But does it matter? It’s your fault anyway
Without saying anything, looking at the world. There, a not so beautiful me, looking at myself
Your fault for never speaking up. No, you tried but your complaints fell on deaf ears so often that you don’t have any other choice but to accept it the way it is.
As I look at the raindrops welling up in the puddle I felt it. The tears that were flowing down my heart
You run. Stepping right into the reflection of your ugly form in the puddle.
No one needs you, that’s just the truth. The harsh reality you need to face. No more wishful thinking. You realized that today. Even if it wasn’t the first birthday you spent by yourself
With the familiar empty feeling that washes over me
The amount of times you ignored the signs dawn upon your mind. The realization heavy on your heart. The memories keep flowing like the tears you finally let out. Memories of you being alone.
Learning how to hunt and use a bow.
Sitting alone, watching your family take a family picture without you. Not even realizing you are missing.
Bystanders wouldn’t know that you belong to this family. Let alone were the oldest sibling. All they would think of you was you being a distant cousin at best.
The memories broke you. You wondered if you’d ever be happy somewhere.
You keep running as the rain starts again. To you, the rain fell only for you in that moment.
The thick color of a rainy day in pandora It’s cloudy and the air is clear
Another rainy day Jake Sully gazes up at the sky and sighs. Looking back at his still sleeping family he felt something was off.
With that strange feeling I look back outside and it looks like my situation.
I wondered who this rain was falling for
